u/wolf_bird1

Hi all. I am trying to recover from bulimia and it’s really, really difficult. I’ve been purge free via >!vomiting!< for a little bit but still restricting and over exercising after it happens. And honestly the binging has been happening a lot because I’m still in the cycle, but I’m also freaking out because I don’t have the safety net of >!vomiting!< anymore.

What is difficult is I know that restriction informs the binging, and I shouldn’t restrict the next day, but honestly my appetite is shot…. So when I see people say not to restrict, I roll my eyes, because most times I am genuinely uncomfortable and I don’t get hungry until later. But by the time I do eat, I give in and binge at night.

What do you after a binge to stop the binging again? Especially if your appetite is gone? I skip breakfast and have a light lunch after a binge (which honestly has been all week) but then I do it all over again at night when I get home from work and suddenly out of nowhere become incredibly famished.

Please, I need help

Hi all. After an ana-r relapse almost a year ago, I lost crazy weight, but about 6 months ago after the uncomfortable phase of extreme hunger I started b/p-ing almost every day. It has caused some weight gain, and it’s making me spiral.

I flip flop between heavy restriction and binging, but overall I’ve been purge (via >!vomiting!<) free for 2 months, and now my only method is over exercise and restriction. The cycle continues, and without the safety net of >!vomiting!< my weight has stayed somewhat stable, which is absolutely terrifying me.

I know in order to end binging you have to stop restricting, and though I know it will ultimately end in binging, I can’t stop refusing to eat. I’m lost, and so desperate. I just don’t think I deserve recovery because I gained weight and am a totally normal bmi, but I need to gently up my intake somehow because I cannot for the life of me gain more weight; I have so much going on right now and gaining more will actually make me go further downwards.

What has helped you up intake in a non stressful way? Yes I meal plan, yes I eat lunch, yes I see a dietician. yes I volume eat. But even that ends in binging- because I cannot, seriously cannot, get myself to realize what restriction really does to me. Food is the enemy, not abstaining from it.

Please- I’m desperate. I know it’s vain but I feel disgusting. It’s all I think about, been thinking about. Loved ones don’t seem to understand how much I’m still in it, that it doesn’t matter cause I gained weight, but I’m screaming inside

I’m having trouble parsing this and knowing to proceed. I have the quiet type of BPD and for the past year I would say I’ve grown a lot. I ended up in the hospital end of 2024 which landed me in a PHP program where I learned skills, I guess. The therapist (who is also my psych) says it looks like I’m getting better, and though I don’t disagree with her, I feel like I’ve just learned to hide things better and only grow in certain symptoms.

However- I started dating this great woman about a year ago. It’s been nice and lovely, but the past month my BPD symptoms, particularly constant fear of abandonment has kicked up again. I don’t show this outwardly and kinda just suffer in silence since I don’t want to ruin anything or even tell her how I’m feeling since I don’t want to burden her with this.

The past week she’s been distant and withdrawn. I don’t know if it’s just in my head but it’s seriously freaking me out. Like constant worry and just sobbing multiple times a day. I’m stressed and just upset but in my texts and in person I just act bubbly and normal.

My gut reaction is to text her, just to ask if she’s doing ok and im here if she needs anything, but I can’t trust my gut. I’m worried it’s in my head and I’m just projecting onto her. But part of me needs answers. I’m not accusatory but these symptoms might be clouding how I’m reading her.

Please help.

Hi all. I (25F) just got accepted into both Maine and Idaho’s GIS graduate certificate program. I’m really excited for both since this is the career field (esp natural resources) I want to go into and I have a degree in an unrelated field. Both are online which works great since I need to absolutely continue working at my state parks position throughout it, but I was wondering if anyone has done either program and can give their experience?

Im leaning towards Idaho because they have interesting electives and it’s one of my top schools for getting my masters, but Maine is cheaper and also has great courses.

Thanks so much!

Hi all. I'm new to Garmin and fitness watches as a whole, and I have been putting it off for the past couple years. I keep getting it recommended, and some are surprised with my hobbies and lifestyle I don't have something yet.

I'm looking for something that tells me things like heart rate, stress, calories during different kinds of workouts, etc. I have a very active job with different projects each day, long and challenging hikes weekly, and I'm taking my running journey more seriously and doing 3 runs a week, mostly trail running but also road.

I want to track heart rate especially, but furthermore with my phone I have no idea what calories I'm burning and how to refuel properly.

I want to start taking my activity and fitness journey to the next level while using a smart watch to maximize it and have a better understanding what's actually going on with my body.

I've seen 165 or 265 as options. I have a gift card on Amazon but I'm not really looking to totally break the bank with this. Thanks!