Should I look into getting diagnosed for ADHD?
I'm 21M and I was diagnosed with dyspraxia when I was a child.
My entire life I always got good grades in school without doing a lick of work. I'd never study, and if I did do my homework I'd do it the night before, or sometimes the day it was due in. As school went on I stopped doing homework all together. I didn't do any study whatsoever for the leaving cert and got 463 points.
This terrible habit has followed me through to college. I manage to coast through by leaving everything to the last minute. I pass my classes but I don't get amazing grades. I literally handed in an assignment due in at 17:00 on a Friday in at 16:59 for reference.
My time management skills are awful, I barely go into lectures.
Last year's exams I literally started studying at midnight for an exam at 9am. I drank a 4-pack of monster and was puffing on my vape every three seconds. I went to bed at 4am and barely passed the exam. I have since quit the vaping and smoking habit, but am unable to quit the energy drinks.
For example, if I sit down and try and do a bit of study in a timely fashion, not the day before the exam, my mind will start wandering, and I'll start reading the wikipedia page for fruit bats, or I'll decide now is the perfect time to start cleaning my room.
I find myself often staring off into space thinking about a million different things at once. It physically hurts to try and do tasks, even hobbies that I'm interested in. I have a habit of finding a new interesting hobby and dropping it after 5 minutes. One time, I tried to pick up crocheting, bought a bunch of crochet hooks and yarn and gave up after 5 minutes because I wasn't immediately good at it. I did the same thing with soapmaking and the ukulele.
Often times I find that I've completely zoned out of a conversation or and had to ask the person to repeat themselves. It's like it goes in one ear and out the other. And other times when engaged in conversation, whatever the other person is talking about will spark 15 different tangents in my head and I have to restrain the urge to interject and interrupt them.
I find driving very difficult. One time my instructor told me to take the third exit on a roundabout, and I completely zoned out and turned off at the second. Another time I drove straight through a zebra crossing where two people were waiting to cross.
I often find myself making stupid mistakes and feeling like a fool for making them.
My inner monologue runs at a 100 miles a minute and I'll often times have a perfectly coherent, and articulated thought in my head, and when I go to speak it aloud I'll mispronounce a word or say two words out of order.
Even one of my favourite hobbies, reading, I can only do in short bursts as I haven't the attention span for it. I read a page and then put the book down. It took me literally a year to finish reading Crime & Punishment, it wasn't a particularly difficult book, and I actually really enjoyed it, but I just didn't have the attention span to read more than a page or two at a time. It's an achievement if I can sit and read a whole chapter of a book in one sitting.
Even when I play video games, I have to put a movie or a youtube video up on a second screen as it isn't stimulating enough for me to just play a video game. It's always been this way for me. The only time I watch a movie all the way through, distraction free is if I see it in the cinema.
Things I want to do like learn to play the ukulele, I have to painstakingly force myself to attempt. Or if I know I need to do laundry I'll let my dirty laundry pile grow and grow until I literally have nothing clean left to wear in order to force myself to do laundry.
I also can't just sit still, I'm always bouncing my leg up and down, or cracking my fingers, or playing with my ear piercings. When I was vaping I literally would sit and puff puff puff on it all day as a way of fidgeting.
What's weird is that if I have a few drinks all of a sudden I feel like I can do the things I need to do and am able to focus on them easily. However, I rarely drink.
I'm decently sociable now, but it wasn't always this way. I had to painstakingly teach myself social skills and force eye contact. It's only when I turned 17-18 that I even began to do a good impression of a decently sociable human. I'm actually amazed that I have a girlfriend.
I did go to the college counselor last year wondering if I had autism, and she thought it sounded more like I had ADHD.
I hate that I'm like this, that I can't bring myself to do the things I want to or need to do.
Sorry for the long wall of text.
I'm not asking anyone on here to diagnose me with ADHD, but would it be a good idea to seek a private diagnosis?