r/makemychoice

right now my commute is around 90 minutes total every day and it's getting annoying. i found a place way closer to work but the rent is higher. if i stay where i am now i save money but lose a lot of time sitting in traffic.

option 1: move closer and pay more rent for less stress

option 2: stay where i am and keep saving money

tl;dr pay more to live closer to work or stay farther away and save cash?

TLDR; I have wanted to shave my head for years but am worried because I am plus size and don’t know how it will affect me in a social setting. However, I want to do it because I think it’s an important step in my journey to become more myself.

I, 23F, have wanted to shave my head for a very long time. I want to do it less for appearance and more-so because of more emotional reasons, as well as having the “itch” to do it. Here are my reasonings and concerns (pros and cons):

Pros/reasonings
- I have wanted to for years
- I am constantly overstimulated with my hair; the washing, drying, styling, etc. all for it to never look right. It is emotionally exhausting trying to keep up with hair.
- Haircare is too expensive now
- I grew up in a religious household that led me to tie my hair to femininity, and I want to be free of that
- My hair grows super fast. If I don’t like it, I can always grow it back easily.
- I can wear wigs and have long hair only when I want to
- It would deter me from using my hair as a crutch or hiding behind it
- It would help me on my journey of decentering men. I am not even interested in dating anyone for the foreseeable future.
- There is so much going on in the world that what does me shaving my head in the long run matter?

Cons/concerns
- I am plus size, and while I am on a weight loss journey, I do worry about how I will look big and bald, or if I will fulfill some stereotype. I won’t be able to hide my neck and back with my hair anymore.
- It will affect me socially; my dating pool will get smaller (not that I want to date rn), people may make judgments of my views/personality/character, because that’s just how it works.
- I will always have to answer questions about why I have a shaved head (people asking if I’m sick, etc).
- I have straight hair, so the growing out process will be not fun. But I have also grown out a pixie before.

Let me know what I should do!

TL;DR: Should I go back to uni to become a speech therapist after finishing an undergrad in English + taking a gap year?

I (F21) graduated with a BA in English last year and I’ve been working as a journalist ever since. The plan was to go back to school next September and do a Masters in either education of journalism part time, while I keep working.

Now for the context, I’m in a relationship (3 years) with my boyfriend who is a doctor. Our plan is to move to the UK in the next 2-5 years so he can continue his training there, most likely London area. If I had to go for a Masters in Education, my teaching credentials wouldn’t necessarily transfer to the UK, and apparently, jobs are pretty scarce.

When it comes to journalism, I unfortunately kind of hate the industry I’ve found myself in. I thought I would love it, but it’s genuinely miserable here: too politicized, news rooms pushing AI for quicker turnover, the hours are tough, and corporate is just a nightmare.

When I was doing my first degree in English, I fell in love with my linguistics units, did my thesis on child language development, and found so much satisfaction from this area. So, I was thinking maybe studying to be a speech therapist would make me happy. I like the idea of working in healthcare, I want to help people, job security in the UK seems to be pretty decent (and my credentials should transfer).

My only issue is money and finances…I’d be giving up my full time salary to go back to school and that makes me really anxious. So far, I have no loan or bills, just my car insurance/gas, and I still live with my parents. My boyfriend also said he’s happy to take the brunt of expenses when we first move to the UK, since ultimately we are moving for him and the advancement of his career.

I just worry I’ll feel behind when compared to my peers, and scared I’ll set myself back financially. But the course looks lovely and interesting, and I’m tempted to just go for it.

I have about 17k in savings right now, the degree would be free (my country has free education). The course is 4 years long.

On the other hand a Masters in education would be 3 years long, part time, and I can work full time as I do it.

Help me. What should I do?

Edit to add: I love the idea of being both a teacher and a speech therapist…maybe an ST sounds more appealing, I’m just worried the hustle won’t be worth the result.

TL;DR Should I cancel an upcoming trip to Buenos Aires or should I just go for it? I can refund my airbnb and keep the plane ticket as an e-credit

I just graduated with a Masters in Public Health! To celebrate, I booked a solo trip to Buenos Aires, Argentina a few months ago that is coming up in June. Ive been wanting to go for years.

Of course, there is recent news of a Hantavirus outbreak coming out of the south of Argentina.

Now, I am a Public Health semi-professional (see above degree lol) and the guidelines coming from the WHO and other orgs indicate that its something to keep an eye out for, but not a crisis at this time. While deadly and dangerous, it wont become a global pandemic, and is not “covid pt. 2”

But also as a Public Health semi-professional, would I be a hypocrite for going? I was pretty strict on my friends/family for going out during the height of Covid. I think it just looks bad optically.

If I go, but have to take extra precautions compared to what i do at home, I think thats a pretty good indication that now is not the right time (i.e. wearing a mask in public at all times)

If I cancel, my airbnb is fully refundable but my plane ticket would be credited back to my account for future use.

Thoughts? thanks!

Hi all,

Please, before calling me crazy, hear me out.

I’m a 26F nurse living and working in Oregon. I am from California and desperately want to move back ASAP as I miss it so much. I have only $5k saved up. I’ve been applying to jobs all over Cali but they seem to lose interest as soon as they hear I’m not yet living there despite telling them I can definitely be moved down there within 3 weeks.

My plan is to get a job hopefully somewhere in SoCal, then stay at a furnished finder (like Airbnb for nurses) for a few months while I save for an apartment. By that point, my brother will be able to move in with me too and we’d split a two bedroom together. I am only a LVN and not RN so I’m not making nearly as much and it’s harder to find jobs that help with relocation. More supply than demand it seems, and of course they’re going to pick the LVN that’s already living in the area.

So I work through an agency and I’m planning to pick up some shifts with them in SoCal in a few weeks, so I can make money while I’m there interviewing at places. I have so far 4 pending shifts in Santa Barbara in June. I’m either going to overnight in my car/shower at gym or get a cheap motel during this time. Hopefully I’ll be able to get a job offer during this trip.

Is this crazy? I’m so tired of Oregon, I’m not happy here and it feels like my life is on hold until I move out of here. I would love some input, I’ve no one to talk to besides maybe my brother but he’s really busy. Thanks for reading

Tl;dr: 26F LVN in Oregon trying to move back to Cali ASAP because I’m unhappy here, but jobs lose interest when they hear I’m not local yet. Planning to work agency shifts there and live in hotel or even car while interviewing in person — is this unrealistic?

Hey in a bit of a bind and have no clue what I'm going to do, appreciate any thoughts.

I just turned 27, single, still stay at parents home. Stayed in the north of Scotland all my life, trained as an electrician ran my own business past 3 years. Sorta the same lifestyle day in and out, getting bored. Got fed up of the work and lifestyle and decided I was going to move to Glasgow for the experience, get into a new role as an electrician and see if I can get retrained, see friends down there, go on dates ect.. try for a year or two, see how it goes. More or less a fresh start. (I don't have a job lined up yet in the city yet).

However, typical, a job opportunity opened in the north for a very large firm, doing electrical work and also get training into mechanical also. The company has many opportunities for advancement, tons of perks, good pay after the first year training and would be a job for life. Went for the interview on Tuesday and safe to say it went extremely well to the point I'm almost 100% sure I'll get the call back on Friday asking if I want it.

The issue is that its the perfect job in the wrong place. I felt stuck here at home, life doesn't feel like its moving. Doing the same things every weekend. So the Idea was to move and try living a little. Could go pair shaped down the road in the city and i'd end up having to come home and miss out on the decent job.

My family think the risk is not worth it, id be able to get my own place, not get stuck renting. bit of security, can always visit down there whenever I want. My friends here at home and in the city, others in the bar think its now or never, that's its a great idea to get out there and expand and experience it. Try to enjoy life more.

TL;DR Do I go with the excellent Career and put up with the north, or do I take the chance while I can and move to the Glasgow? Go with security or adventure.

Two days ago I decided to take my dogs to a local dog park. This is something I do often since I have high energy dogs.

I was in the park with my two dogs when a woman arrives. She brings in her 3 young children and her 1 dog. They all walk over to a bench, take a seat, and keep to themselves. Some time passes and it becomes clear that her kids are eating snacks out of a container. My dogs notice. They saunter over there and sit underneath the bench, scavenging for crumbs being dropped by the children. One of my dogs is now in competition mode. A piece of food falls and she body checks my other dog and the woman's dog to get the crumb. Chaos ensues.

This woman notices the check and yells at my dog. She leans down as if she was going to hit my dog, but restrains herself. She screams over to me "yo, come get your f*cking dog". Now I'm pissed because a) she was dumb enough to allow her kids to bring food into a dog park, and b) she somehow thinks this is my fault. I get up and say "do your kids have food? because that's not a good thing to bring in here." Well, that was a mistake, because she starts going OFF. She starts cursing at me and calling me an idiot. She called me a liar for saying her kids have food. Asked if I was stupid because they clearly "only have water". As she got more worked up, she was rambling about how my dogs are threatening her kids. I tried to tell her that if they put the food away my dogs would leave, but she wouldn't listen to a word I had to say.

Throughout all of this, I am trying to call my dogs to come back to me. They can't hear me over her screaming. I finally get up and walk over there. She puts her hands on her hip to pull a g*n out of her pocket. I stop in my tracks and say "how am I supposed to remove my dogs if I can't approach you?"

Thank god she finally shut up so my dogs could hear me calling. They came back to me and I turned around and went back to my area.

I was terrified and didn't make a big deal out of it. But some other bystanders said I should report her to the police. A friend of mine managed to get a picture of her and her license plate.

Should I report this or just let it go?

EDIT: conceal carry is legal in my state

TL;DR Woman becomes irate and reaches for her g*n at a dog park. Should I report her to the police?

I’ve been with my boyfriend m20 for 3 years in March. I just finished nursing school for the semester in April. I lost my job in febuary and have been struggling with money and haven’t been able to pay my mom for rent with having no money and it’s been ongoing with me trying to find a job and it’s just not working changing my resume and not getting any jobs. With that my mom kicked me out and I’m living with my bf.

However he’s out of town with work for the whole month so I am stuck in the basement his family lives there but it’s really depressing and lonely not doing anything wit myself I’ve been sewing but it’s hard when I can’t afford to go out and get fabric or my machine keeps breaking . It’s very chaotic living out of a bag not having and organization and I don’t want to stay there bc I don’t want to live there. I did live there before it was the same thing not having a dresser clothes everywhere nowhere to put anything chaotic and stressful just not a home at all. I’m what to leave bc his birthday is coming up and I’m not sure if I should get him something as is that narrsistic and then leave bc I have been with him sometime.

I do go out almost everyday looking for a job calling looking online to see who’s hiring it’s either automatic deny or I hear nothing or there not hirring it’s very exhausting.

I have been trying to leave him for sometime now since I don’t like how he’s been treated me with over the summer he cheated but then I got pregnant (not anymore)need him and it’s this ongoing cycle or having no support and he’s the only one there for me and it’s not fair to him to stay with feeling this way.

I’ve been so stressed and now that I’m finished school I can do something else my grandparents are telling me to come be with them but they lice in a different city 10 hours away there telling me I can come there and I don’t have to work and can reset they can get me thing which is what I do need. But at the same time I just made a friend in 4 years I had no friends before and it has been so lonely I have someone to do summer things with every summer it’s been the same being nothing and last year was the worst with the cheating and pregnancy litterly was ruined. I feel being with my grandparents will keep me away from him and any sort of return but also don’t want to go there bc what I still have to come back and what I’ll have no money and where will I go my moms expecting me to pay or she’ll make up some excuse that no I am a bad person . I have no friends at my grandparents all my cousins are away or 6 year old which I want people my own age. I’m scared it if I go with them then come back I’ll miss out on the jobs openings then come back and we already hired people last week type of thing. I feel like being with them they will support and push me to do things that I’ve never really had and maybe it’s what I’ve been needing.

My friend says I can stay with her for sometime but at the same time I don’t want to put that on her I don’t want to feel like a burden/victim that I have been feeling when I moved into my bf house and I can’t garenteed anything to her what if I get kicked out again and again bc that’s been happening to at my moms. And I feel like staying with her I’ll maybe go back to him somehow.

My credit card is maxed out I can’t afford to have a roommate or really give then anything when I have nothing in my account.

TL:DR should I 20f stay with my friend in the city or live with my grandparents far ways but have no job but support.

So I’ve been working a job for 4 months now and my probation review is up.

Tomorrow i find out.

Reasons I THINK I might pass
I’ve made it all the way to the final probation meeting instead of being let go earlier

My boss literally said:
“so far things are looking good”
“your supervisor said good things about you”

“I really want you to pass”

“we want you here on the team”

My supervisor separately told me she’s seen “a lot of improvement” since the earlier feedback meeting
They started letting me send my own tickets/cases independently this week instead of having every case checked

In a team meeting my boss reassured the senior staff by saying me and another new starter are “forming now” (meaning becoming productive)

They approved my holidays during probation

They surprised me with cake and sang happy birthday at my desk last week

My coworker who’s been there longer said people who fail probation are usually in constant meetings / heavy scrutiny and I’ve only had one real formal feedback meeting weeks ago
Team is understaffed:
2 people already left recently
summer busy season is literally starting now
experienced staff themselves complain workload is too high

Boss was even jokingly talking about me booking leave next year for my brother’s wedding which feels future-oriented

Reasons I’m worried I might fail:
I still make occasional small mistakes
Boss keeps reminding me:
“remember you’re on probation”
“this final month is crucial”
“we’re watching closely this last week”

Boss specifically pulled me up on that more than once
She said I sometimes look:
“lost”
“distracted”
“slow”

She said they need to see whether they can trust me with workload independently before deciding probation

I currently have backlog stress

I’m not as fast/productive yet as experienced team members

I’m naturally anxious and I think it sometimes shows visibly at work

TLDR; do i sound more likely to pass or fail?

Undergrad student on summer break. I’ve been applying since literally last year for a summer internship in my field (biology) and got rejected or ghosted from everywhere. I came back from school 2 weeks ago and was just mass applying jobs cause 1) I had nothing to do and 2) I wanted some extra cash. Heard nothing back.

Yesterday I got an interview invite for a merchandizing role from a retail store and I scheduled it for today. To my surprise (probably cause of all the rejections lol) they accepted me and I can start sometime this week.

However last weekend I decided to book tickets to visit family in a different country, I haven’t visited in many years so it would be a nice way to spend my unemployed summer. I am leaving June 10th and will be back end of July, which leaves me less than 3 weeks at this job if I start immediately. Is it wrong for me to accept and then quit before I leave with some random excuse on why I can’t come back? Idc about burning bridges because I’m moving out of this area in a year anyways, I just dk if working for less than 3 weeks is a good idea or if its unethical/will have bad consequences.

TL;DR : Got a retail job right after I booked uncancelable flights to enjoy unemployed summer. I’m leaving in less than 3 weeks; should I take the offer and quit when I have to leave?

Hi all here are some facts about my lifestyle:

- Will graduate from FSU May 2027

- Currently an WFH intern for strategic communications/ investor relations agency based in NYC. Have a full time offer from them for $58k - 64/yr which will start when I graduate. For now I am hourly 40hrs/wk @ $15/hr (Florida rate)

- Lived in Doral and Kendall Miami suburbs my whole life. 40 min - 1 hr away from downtown for those who don't know.

- No rent or bills while living at home

- Credit Card bill and car payment are my only consistent bills

- Parents are blue collar and getting older mid 60s

- Rest of my family lives in Columbus, NJ ; New Windsor, NY ; Yonkers, NY ; West Harrison, NY. These are all people I could potentially live with.

- not opposed to roomamates at all

- Had FAFSA grants and financial aid (no loans) pay for my rent my whole college career so I dont REALLY know what its like to pay rent when considering my monthly budget

- I've spent a 2 summers in NYC in college just for fun and it was great. Stayed in Bayridge both summers with cousins.

- only child and sole beneficiary of my parent's home

Motivations:

- i desperately want to start my life on my own. Parents aren't horrible but I feel like I'm missing out on meeting a lot of people and the skills I can get by scrounging to survive

- Make more money. If i move to NYC I get a higher salary (idk how much higher though). If I want to move back to Miami I can keep that higher salary.

- NYC (generally) has a higher IQ from what I can see (sorry miami) and I feel is better to build a network of connected and intelligent people. Havent had an issue with that here in Miami and college. I feel I might have a bigger net to cast in NYC, though.

Concerns:

- Saw a girl say she had to move back home because she got humbled in NYC thinking she can make it with no money. Idk her details but that scared the shit out of me. But then i see people paying ~$1,500 in rent with a roomate or 2. I think thats more than reasonable even though I have no sense of what that means for my budget and my salary if i move there

- Miami and NYC arent cheap i know

- the internet is scaring me with never being able to own a home. And... um... i want to own a home like hello? So will renting be like flushing money down the toilette?

- will I ever move out if I stay in Miami?

I LIKE BOTH OPTIONS AND IM TORN!!!!!

TLDR: I want to move post grad but not sure if I should stay in Miami and wait until the time is right or just do it and let things work out considering I have a few things going for me in NYC. Sections above are some facts to consider.

I just got hired for a job today. it is 8 hours a day monday-friday and 6 hours on saturday. also yes i have already subtracted lunch hours. I think this might be too much for me as this is just an internship. They originally said it was 7 hours a day monday-friday and 5 hours on saturday, which I said yes to, although even that is quite a lot. I asked if the hours are negotiable today and I didn’t get a straight answer. I don’t want to say no to the company and make them feel like they wasted their time, but I don’t want to be burnt out. again I also previously said the hours are fine which I think was a mistake in hindsight. should I ask them about the hours again and accept it if they can lower it and reject it otherwise or should I just accept it no matter what? or a secret third option

TL;DR I just got hired for a job that is 8 hours a day monday-friday and 6 hours of saturday. I think this is too much for me and I didn’t get a clear answer as to if hours are negotiable. what should I do?

TL;DR Blue check marks on or off, on or off online, last seen on or off?

Take 2 extreme cases. Which situation sounds more terrifying?

1. Being forced to walk up a flight of metal stairs with no guardrails 10,000 feet in the air for hours at a time

2. Be forced inside a 2ft X 2ft X 1.5 ft cramped wooden box that is sealed shut for hours, like what the CIA did to prisoners suspected of being involved in 9/11?

So, is it the Fear of one slip causing you to fall to your death and accelerate towards the ground knowing you are going to die playing over for hours while you walk, or, being deprived of all external stimuli and being unable to move in a cramped box for hours, slowly suffocating?

TLDR: what’s worse, fear of heights and falling or fear of confinement/claustraphobia

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Accounting, Business, English and Math. Should I drop Eng? I was gonna use it as a replacement for IELTS since unis usually accept them but holyyyy ia it draining me and my ability to focus on the other subs, so drop eng?

TL;DR Should I drop Eng or nah?

TL;DR: Do I leave the Red Flag factory OR do I give them til tomorrow to figure something out for me?

E: I'm leaving this place enough people said if it were them they'd quit and I personally feel like I've put up with enough bullshit already this company can only get worse.

TL;DR Ive been offered a rare prosthetics/fabrication job opportunity that could become a meaningful long-term career, but I was planning to spend this summer getting sober from certain substances and stabilizing my mental health, sleep, and chaotic home life before returning to work. I’m scared taking the job now will overwhelm me and lead to failure, but I’m equally scared I’ll regret turning it down forever.
I have until 1:00 tomorrow to decide

The long version:

I need help deciding whether to take a job opportunity or step back and focus on getting my life stable first.
For context: I’m a single mom of two boys and things at home have been extremely unstable lately. One of my kids has severe behavioral and emotional issues right now, and my home life has basically been constant stress/crisis mode for months. I’ve also been struggling mentally and emotionally myself and honestly feel pretty burnt out.
I recently got offered a job at a Clinic doing fabrication/prosthetics-related work. It’s actually a really cool opportunity and not something that comes along often. I have a background in welding/fabrication and hands-on work, and part of me feels like this could potentially become a meaningful long-term career path instead of just another random job.
The problem is that I don’t feel ready.
I’ve been on unemployment and had a plan to use this summer to finally quit meth and reset my life while my kids are away for a short period of time. The idea was to use that time with fewer responsibilities to get through withdrawal, stabilize my sleep, mental health, routines, and overall functioning before trying to return to work. Right now my sleep schedule is wrecked, my stress tolerance is awful, and I honestly feel emotionally fried.
Part of me thinks taking this job right now would be self-sabotage because:
it’s a steep learning curve,
it matters medically to people,
I’d need to be mentally sharp and reliable,
and I’m scared I’d fail because I’m not stable yet.
But the other part of me is terrified of losing this opportunity forever.
I’ve already burned bridges employment-wise in the past due to attendance and instability, so I’m scared if I turn this down I’ll regret it for years. I’m also scared that if I stay home to “work on myself,” I’ll just isolate, lose momentum, and end up even worse off.
So basically my choice is:
Take the opportunity now and try to force myself forward even though I feel mentally unprepared.
Turn it down (or delay working) and focus on getting sober, stabilizing my home life, sleep, mental health, and routines first.
What would you choose and why?

I am in need of advice.

About me: middle aged family with two elementary school aged kids. Spouse and I are self employed lawyers. Located in a west coast state in a vhcol area. Own a home with a 430k balance with 24 years on the loan at 2.75% and it’s a middle class neighborhood at best. Unable to afford to move anywhere locally to a better neighborhood with better schools, safer, higher income area, and a nicer home. Only other debt is 175k student loans at around 6.5% interest (started at 330k and have been aggressively paying down).

I’ve been looking out of state for 2 years and found a great home in the perfect location and it checks all the boxes. Even though the home is worth less than my current home, my monthly expenses will go up by about 1,000 a month. The additional expense is do able and totally worth it to be a great neighborhood for my children and in a way nicer home that I could never afford locally.

I’m scared about the impact of my business and income if I relocate. My spouse mostly works remotely and rarely goes into the office or court. However, I do go to court on a fairly regular basis. I can do most hearing remotely, but for really important hearings those are better to do in person. I estimate anywhere from 5-15 clients per year would fall into that category. I’m extremely anxious that if I relocate it could negatively impact my business and I won’t be able to pay my bills. On the other hand, maybe it will have no impact. I’m also licensed in the state I would move to and would hope to get local business over time, but there are a fair amount of differences that would need time to learn, it would be a process.

The problem is we just finished a bidding war on our dream home and the seller chose us after a long, exhausting process. I have to put a deposit tomorrow and non refundable option fee. I’m feeling extremely anxious that I might be making a mistake with respect to my business. If it doesn’t work out, I would not be able to afford my current home or any decent homes in my current state, it’s an irreversible move if I sell my home. I need the funds from my current home to fund the new one.

Overall:

If I move: 10x nicer home in a upper class neighborhood with great schools, safe area, amazing place for kids to grow up, dream home. Overall less debt, but higher overall cost of about 1k a month until the 300k new loan is paid off at 5.5% 15 year fixed.

Cons: my business may suffer and I’ll be in a very bad position. I have two kids to provide for. I’m turning 40, I’m not young and in a great position to take risks. However, my current home is in a sub par neighborhood with mediocre schools, and it’s a bad feeling that I work so damn hard and there is zero chance of upward mobility for me in my current state.

If I back out my realtors going to be pissed, my wife is very disappointed and upset with me, and I’m very stressed out!! Part of me wants to say f it and just do it and see what happens. The other part of me says i must be a major idiot to disrupt a very successful and thriving business, even though it’s not enough to allow me to move in my locale.

Any advice would be appreciated!!

Tl;dr move and risk business for a better life or stay put and don’t jeopardize a stable life.

obviously this is not something you all can fully decide for me but my hope is yall can gimme some insight/perspective.

TL;DR got assessed for adhd and diagnosed with anxiety instead and recommend lexapro. never tried it and now it’s been haunting me for years, should i? see also: my pro/con list at the bottom.

long version:

my senior year of high school i went to get assessed because i nearly didn’t graduate because of major motivation issues despite me genuinely wanting to get things done. after one of my teachers and my mom filled out some forms it was determined i didn’t have it but i did likely have anxiety/depression.

my doctor then suggested i maybe go on lexapro. during the appointment i was very on board with this because the way she was describing it all sounded great (very few side effects, it’s easy to come off, etc) but then almost as soon as i got home i went down a rabbit hole of people whose lives got ruined by lexapro and had a whole major meltdown and never picked it up and ghosted what was supposed to be the follow up appointment about it and have not been to the doctor since out of shame.

finally have decided to go back ~two years later for just a normal checkup and after stewing on it this whole time i’m kinda considering asking to go on the lexapro.

why i think it may be good:
- i have a very very hard time making myself do things, even things i want to do, and i would like to do more with my life.
- i feel like a hysterical crazy person. i have hysterical sobbing fits at things that are not hysterical sobbing fit worthy
- i have a genuine medical phobia and so i think maybe the deep dread i feel is more about that than anything.

my concerns:
- i think it may ruin my life either with terrible side effects or because i function best when things are imminent and without the fear of the thing i may not do anything at all.
- i think once im on it it’ll be so hard to get off it even if it’s ruining my life because of withdrawals (also addiction runs in my family and while i know this isn’t like that im still like aaaa)
- i don’t have panic attacks so i worry that instead of fixing something like that it would just take away all my emotions and my life would become dull and nothing.

so if anyone has actually made it to the end of this, make my choice please 🙏 the appointment is tomorrow

tldr: 

Soo, I grew up in Europe, Latvia. Then moved to USA. at first it was alright, but in recent years my whole life been going bad, after really difficult time in my life I realized I have nowhere to turn, i don't own anything, no friends, no romance, plus when people hearing my accent I get treated as foreigner, although I lived here half of my life and thought it is my home.

What I like in USA, the sense of freedom, no other country has it. But having Noone to turn in hardship that is a serious red flag for me.

Because I was born in soviet union by default I can get russian citizenship, move there. I can live same life as right now in USA and I won't be treated as immigrant because russian is my native language. I just wondering if it worth it to make a leap?