u/yumenohara

Cresci sendo feia, e pra ajudar minha mãe sempre me chamou de gorda. me lembro que esses xingamentos começaram quando estava entrando na adolescência, eu pesava 40 KILOS e mesmo assim eu era “gorda” no olhar dela.
Por conta disso eu sempre tive uma autoestima muito baixa, teve uma época que eu simplesmente não aguentava ver meu corpo pelo espelho e só usava roupas largar pra esconder.
Desses anos pra cá, melhorei muito minha aparência mas continuo com a mesma autoestima péssima, então quando vem alguém me elogiar ou perguntar se eu namoro eu ainda fico em choque pq eu ainda me vejo como aquela adolescente feia do diabo.

im a few months clean and i feel like im about to relapse any tips on how to distract me about this feeling

isso mesmo que vcs leram, em quase 3 anos de namoro descobri q meu namorado tava me traindo com um twink do DISCORD, puta que pariu, além de eu levar chifre é um chifre ONLINE kkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

agr o donzelo ta puto da vida comigo pq eu "estraguei a amizade dele" (o twink bloqueou ele dps de descobrir q ele namorava) e pasmem, essa amizade tava a 6 ANOS, meu deus do céu gente eu tava levando chifre antes mesmo de namorar kkkkkkkkkkk

my 14yo kitty passed away a month ago, i still dream about her, i still pretend shes still here and shes just sleeping in another room, or put some heavy blanket around my legs to pretend its her weight (she was fat).
cant get under any kind of stress i get emotional and remember her, sometimes i go to a house next to mine and feed the kitties outside, i like to think one day its going to be her and she’ll be back.

my baby Nika has just turned 14 years old on april 25th and passed away may 15th, my whole family already knew they would give her euthanasia except for me.
her organs were all inflamed and since she was her body was not fighting against the viruses, she was kept for like 5 days agonizing with pain or fully medicated since the clinic was against euthanasia. so on may 15th, my sister, her husband, my boyfriend and i went to that clinic to get her out of there and told me they would take her home an give her medicine, i did not understand everyones face when we were leaving because i was just thinking it would be the exhaustion from taking care of her (everyone studies and works all day but i did not mind at all).
when we entered the car me and my cat started to notice that the path to home was getting a little too longer, my sister later said they were taking her to a new doctor to check her disease, when we arrived my mom was already there waiting for us, and then the woman started explaining all the euthanasia's steps and thats when it finally broke down to me.
Nika passed away during sedation so the euthanasia itself wasn't necessary.

These last weeks I've been coping about her death by changing her water and using her food to feed other cats in the streets, sometimes I'm coming back from my course and i see a cat in the street and immediately pick them up (of course these are usually the friendly ones so they seemed ok with picking them up).
there are some kitties next to my home that are super friendly and ive been buying more wet cat food to give to them, one of them is just exactly like nika (that cat is just a little more brown than her).

my baby Nika has just turned 14 years old on april 25th and passed away may 15th, my whole family already knew they would give her euthanasia except for me.
her organs were all inflamed and since she was her body was not fighting against the viruses, she was kept for like 5 days agonizing with pain or fully medicated since the clinic was against euthanasia. so on may 15th, my sister, her husband, my boyfriend and i went to that clinic to get her out of there and told me they would take her home an give her medicine, i did not understand everyones face when we were leaving because i was just thinking it would be the exhaustion from taking care of her (everyone studies and works all day but i did not mind at all).
when we entered the car me and my cat started to notice that the path to home was getting a little too longer, my sister later said they were taking her to a new doctor to check her disease, when we arrived my mom was already there waiting for us, and then the woman started explaining all the euthanasia's steps and thats when it finally broke down to me.
Nika passed away during sedation so the euthanasia itself wasn't necessary.

These last weeks I've been coping about her death by changing her water and using her food to feed other cats in the streets, sometimes I'm coming back from my course and i see a cat in the street and immediately pick them up (of course these are usually the friendly ones so they seemed ok with picking them up).
there are some kitties next to my home that are super friendly and ive been buying more wet cat food to give to them, one of them is just exactly like nika (that cat is just a little more brown than her).