u/yuri_sayori300

Im a 17 year old closeted mtf ( ive known i was a girl since i was 14) and im so depressed i cant transition at the moment since im a minner but also when im able to take hrt im scared cuz i looked up on google taking hrt can increase the risk of heart attack or stroke and im not sure if i wanna risk it . it feels like a blackhole has swallowed me

I also have this fear its wrong and sinfull to transition

Theres a part of me that says god made me male so i should just stick with it

And another that says when im old enough to transition but risk going to hell

I just feel lost and alone and wondering if im a freak abomination in the eyes of the lord

So the title pretty much speaks for its self she did a cover of gospel of dismay back in the early days of bendy that i loved but i cant find it on YouTube at all

Idk if its lost or unlisted but somone might have saved it they just dont know its lost

So im gonna be honest i know Hardly anything about pc's. But i was gifted this refubish dell optiplex 7010 for my birthday and its lets say pretty weak it cant even run random games on itch smoothly

It has 16 ram so two 8 sticks (i think?)

The procsser is Intel (R) core (TM) i5-3550 cpu @ 3.30GHz.

The graphics card is 32 MB (which ive heard is pretty bad idk tho)

Now how can i make it run games better on a budget ?

Im 16 closeted mtf but recently disphoria has really bothered me ive been wondering why wasnt i born cis or why i was even born at all Just to suffer

is god punishing me ?why wasnt i just born a girl i feel so tired and upset

My faith has been being super tested for awhile now and i dont know anymore

Ive been told god dosnt make mistakes by my mom and grandma. But What i cant understand if thats true why was i born

Idk maybe somone here can help me or inlighten me

I know some dont like him and others love him

I find him really strange but i cant really put my finger on why cuz i love toy story a ton too

Im 16 and still in the closet but today i had to go get a hair cut my big soft wavy hair has now been cut really fucking short the damn lady at the hair sallon keept cutting and cutting

I hate that my parents forced me to get it cut

They keept saying stuff like "your hair makes you look like a crazy person" and shit like that

Now there saying "ohh you look so handsome"

Yeah right im thinking

Im soo sad its gonna be so humilating for quite a few months i wish i got to have a say with my own hair

My hair was so soft and pretty but now its gone

I dont wanna seem dramatic but i feel like kms but idk

I know theres a colab at papa johns but what about like a fast food colab with a toy tie in

Like at McDonald's or burger king

So last Night i was prying to god. But after i was done a thought enterd my head. If pride is a sin is pride month a sin?

Is it sinful if i indulge in pride month

I was thinking of drawing pride themed art for my youtube but now im not sure

Hi ive been trying to work on a few animations and the lasso tool has not been working and also it keeps eraseing lines ive drawn idk if its just my tablet or somthing to do with the app ​

Has anyone else has had similar problems ?

I really like bo peep im deff a bo peep girly but im confused on why she had such a big thing to do with the plot of 4 just for them to sideline her in 5

I get its mainly about jessie vs lillypad but im sure they could have fit her in somwhere

Im still in the closet but i want some kinda girly or feminine underwear but that are technically for men. My first thought were briefs but most briefs are black and i dont get much girly vibes from black undies . white briefs maybe but idk

(Also im putting this nsfw just to be safe)

Im so happy i shaved my legs for the first time in years (since my parents get mad when i shave my body hair for some resson)

so i snuck and did it and goshhh it feels so affirming ​its kinda a mid job tho

I'd love if any of you girlys could give me some shaving tips if there is any.

(also when i put my pajamas on. my legs felt funny is that normal?)

Anyway love y'all girls 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜