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It's not diagnosed yet. It could absolutely be just myoclonic jerks which could be normal. Only thing is that it happens throughout the day and normal myoclonic jerks not tied to any condition happen when you're about to fall asleep. It could also just be a rare presentation from my chiari. That plus both my mom and brother (as well as several extended family members) having it means I'm more likely to get it. I'm getting an EEG in September so that should give me some information but god damn it.

(Rambling vent ahead) I just want to have nice things without having to destroy myself for them. I work 3 days a week. I have had a couple weeks where I work 4, and every single time, it completely wipes me out, I can't consistently work more than 3. I also only work 6 hour shifts, I used to work 8 hours at a time, and that was as bad as working 4 days. After bills, I have about $50 to my name every week, sometimes slightly more, often even less than that. If I didn't live in a house with 3 other people where we all split bills, I wouldn't be able to afford to live off my income at all. I also recently had to eat through half my savings because of an emergency. Now I'm basically going to have to save every single extra bit of money I have to replenish it. No more little treats to get through my fucking week unless my gf offers to buy me something (which she often does because she is amazing, but it makes me feel guilty). I'm so tired of this

Just thought we all needed some levity.

asking my mother for my pills but i gotta get thru the shame cutscene first, yess i know i have to make lifestyle changes i am and my dose has gone down but im still reliant on them

* *blinks vapidly* *

I've already worked the ladt 2 days, yesterday was particularly bad as I had to lift a bunch of heavy shit all day, I have to work the rest of today, and tomorrow my girlfriend and I have to go out and run errands, I have to do chores at home, and call my bank. I just want to curl up in bed. I'm in pain and I am so tired of being out of my home