Feel like I’m going crazy.
35F. I don’t know what to do anymore. I was visually diagnosed with LS by a derm in March of 2024. Went to vulvar specialist two months later and while she agreed I did have 30 percent labial reabsorption, she said that alone didn’t indicate LS and she didn’t see anything else that did. Told me biopsy was what ultimately decided. I’ve had 3 punch biopsies from different spots and then one perineoplasty surgery large tissue sent to pathology. 2 of the punch biopsies came back as chronic mild inflammation. One was also chronic mild and they did some allergy test that showed it was mixed dermatitis basically but not due to an allergen which my gyno said made the result consistent with eczema. Then a few months later the surgery came back as lichenoid inflammation and the surgeon said it could be LS.
I’m stuck in limbo. I need to know what the hell I have. I need to know if I have a vulvar cancer risk. I don’t want to use potent steroids if I don’t have LS. No one can actually tell me what I have it seems. Derm says LS. Gyno says maybe eczema then confirmed it as so with pathology. But then I ended up with lichenoid inflammation and surgeon is back to possible LS. I have labial reabsorption and I have tearing during intercourse but I don’t have the white patches and I don’t itch and I don’t have the cigarette paper skin.
History: I’ve had a “sensitive” yeast prone vagina/vulva since forever. I’d get random itchy nights as a child and I remember crying because it couldn’t be scratched. It would last overnight and then it would happen months later again. I’ve been tearing during intercourse at the posterior fourchette 6oclock area since 18. It was always like paper cuts and it stung and such but was bearable. It’s gotten worse over the last few years and came to a point where I had to call off sex until I got this figured out. I even got a perineoplasty/partial vulvectomy. Didn’t work $5700 later. I have a history of HPV related vulvar, vaginal wall and cervical precancer. So steroids are terrifying for me to use if I don’t need them. I can’t have sex because of the pain and it’s sore for a week after. Haven’t had a regular sex life since April of last year and it wasn’t really even regular before then. I’ve tried it 3/4 times since and ripped so bad.
I’m scared and my labia seems to still be shrinking.
Every day all day I’m thinking about what is happening to me.