r/teenagersbutworse

Feeling a bit generous today. Not a scam or trying to get any information from you. I am just being a kind person.

UPDATE: I will randomly pick someone on the 23rd of august

So basically i cant sleep i cant get out of bed i dont feel anything except bitterness and anger/misanthropy sometimes

I feel like life is void of direction or meaning except for one thing having a future with my girlfriend, everything i do is for that reason and its the only goal i see since she is the only person that makes me feel like that, im on track to get into med school by 17 (im 16 in a month) once i start residency ill go to canada and live there with her far from everyone

I struggle with empathy when it comes to people i dont mark as “mine” such as my girlfriend and best friends other than that i don’t really care and have more empathy for an animal, i don’t really act in a way that shows empathy but its just to feel control over those who im in a position of power over, more pity and slight superiority than anything

I hate mirrors i hate eating the thought of chewing is too much most of the time and too exhausting even tho im physically able to
And ive been S/H’ing for most my life but started cutting 3 years ago or something and stopped for multiple months at a time never completely

Only thing that makes me feel positive is my girlfriend but long distance is a bitch i saw her 9 times in a year of dating

I got a Ptsd thing or wtv from SA idk about the whole trigger thing but basically smth happened and my legs stopped working my spine curled up i started sobbing loudly and my arms were on my neck i couldn’t see properly my ears rung blah blah blah, it happened when i was 11 so thats that

Only thing been diagnosed with is pyromania so that’s that i love fires and NEXT PART IS PRETTY BAD KIDS AND IM JUST VENTING YOU SHOULDNT DO THIS AND IM NOT ENDORSING AND ALL THIS IS DANGEROUS >!burning animal corpses after mutilation and did my first public arson a couple weeks ago it was a dumpster made me feel the greatest thing ever after kissing my angelic girlfriend ofc im also obsessed with her blood so much so i sucked some out of a wound i made on her back (yes it was consensual and she loved it the wound was small even tho she wanted bigger i said ne her parents will see it unfortunately) no im not a danger to her i would never hurt my baby (i also get cannibalistic thoughts (mostly on her but i wont do it) and mild autocannibalism )!<

So yeah i might actually be fucked mentally idk tho

I dont remember anything except a couple nights and smells and feelings for a 6month period of last year

Yes she knows about this, yes ALL OF THIS

Can Anyone who delt with this help or smth

I’m a girl 🙂😜