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because why does EVERYTHING feel fragile? ever since my symptoms began i not only have the typical pmos symptoms but also everything else from my teeth, my eyes, my cognition and more just keep falling apart. even my nose is inflamed to the point i just cant breath without using a nasal spray DAILY, most likely because of inflammation. i feel like im collecting these issues like pokemon at this point lol. i also have hypothyroidism so that probably aggravates it all too.

i worry about food, my future (regarding health especially) and im sick of all the appointments i have to make just to get myself fixed temporarily; but stuff just keeps breaking and apparently theres not much i can do about it. if i was at least much older i wouldnt be as upset but im 22 and i have to actively tell myself „it is what it is“ daily because i cant deal with the active and passive grief that comes with this. i can barely talk about my health and having to speak about it all the time in every detail at appointments especially just feels so tiring. everything about food in general also feels exhausting and id rather just not eat if only i didnt have to.

im aware that i still have to optimize a lot of things in my lifestyle but i really hope that one day i will have it all figured out in a way that it doesnt fill 90% of my mind and that i will be alright and content because im sick of losing all my years to my health

my memory and brain fog is catastrophic (and has been declining since i was 14 or something; no supplement/doctor visits helped either) and i would like to drink juices/smoothies and overall eat cleaner to help ease it.

what foods should i implement for this? i kind of struggle with eating meat and fish (texture/taste wise) so preferably something other than that.

would daily freshly pressed blueberry juice help?

(fyi my iron is low and i have hypothyroidism but im working on that with iron pills and l-thyroxin; also taking 150mg spironolactone and 2,5mg glp-1. i feel like the glp-1 might have worsened my memory a bit (?) but i have to stay on it for medical reasons; i started it 2 weeks ago)

does anyone know of any gloomy custom worlds? preferably more urban than rural but im open for all suggestions :)

im looking for fantasy books that have no romance at all. i like the vibe of books like red queen but i was wondering if there is something similar to it but without romance, especially one with a mc that isnt pick me or obnoxious in a way?

im looking for a world that is similiar to early-2000s Japan like in death note with that gloomy urban vibe. most japan inspired worlds i found are more rural and i dont necessarily want to play in bridgeport since its kind of more like US instead of Japan.

i downloaded tokyosouv2 but i havent tried it yet.

does anyone know of a world that could be fitting? preferably one that is populated