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how did you gain more confidence early on in your career?

tldr: not sure if it’s imposter syndrome or if i’m actually an imposter, but if it’s the former i’d sure love tips!

i am a pre-doc. my PI has been really nice and affirming of my work. during our evaluations, he basically said that i was doing a good job but am just not very confident in my abilities despite my performance. i also notice that this is an issue with some of my female colleagues as well, and i’ve received similar feedback from other profs i’ve done research with.

i think it’s really difficult to see myself as someone who can get into a good ph.d. program bc of a few flaws on my application but can’t tell if i’m just psyching myself out or not. i think it’s good to be at least aware of the flaws in my application but it’s also making me a little stressed with the next cycle so close and so little time to improve. it’s also very difficult at this age to tell if you’d be a good researcher or not, and your first job after undergrad always involves a lot of growing pains

id love any concrete ways you all (esp. women in econ) have helped figure out your imposter syndrome, especially when you were very early in your careers. any tips on navigating the weird pre-doc phase would also be helpful. thanks!

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u/20cabbages — 3 days ago

women in academia, how do you deal with imposter syndrome as an early-stage researcher?

tldr: not sure if it’s imposter syndrome or if i’m actually an imposter, but if it’s the former i’d sure love tips!

i (22f) work as a pre-doc/post-bacc in a male dominated field. my PI has been really nice and affirming of my work. during our evaluations, he basically said that i was doing a good job but am just not very confident in my abilities despite my performance. i also notice that this is an issue with some of my female colleagues as well, and i’ve received similar feedback from other profs i’ve done research with.

i think it’s really difficult to see myself as someone who can get into a good ph.d. program bc of imperfect scores in a few core classes and the fact that my field is really, really competitive and hierarchical. i can’t tell if i’m just psyching myself out or not, because i think it’s good to be at least aware of the flaws in my application but it’s also making me a little stressed with applications so close and so
little time to improve it. it’s also very difficult at this age to tell if you’d be a good researcher or not, and your first job after undergrad always involves a lot of growing pains

id love any concrete ways women in academia have helped figure out their imposter syndrome, especially when they were very early in their careers. thanks!

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u/20cabbages — 3 days ago

pretty sure my ex found this reddit

i’m not deleting a 6-y/o vent page just bc of some loser tho, i have too many subreddits i like and i love posting here bc someone needs to see my food and i am a yapper.

if you’re reading this, linkedin message me like a man instead of stalking me like a pussy.

lamb chops, sweet potato, and spinach.

u/20cabbages — 9 days ago

just bombed a final. someone tell me i will be ok

i really want to go to graduate school. i think that desire got to me and i blanked out completely during a really important final for a class pretty much essential for admissions. i don’t think i could’ve gotten more than a 60% on that despite coming in with an A- midterm grade. this is my second retake too (the first was bc i got pretty sick during my first time taking it.)

someone tell me this isn’t the end of the world bc i am feeling very discouraged right now

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u/20cabbages — 9 days ago

just bombed my real analysis final

i studied for so long but basically blanked out and suddenly three hours were over. i went in with an A- but should be lucky to get a B. am i cooked? is there anything i can do between now and admissions to make up for it?

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u/20cabbages — 10 days ago

petite/small chest (28D) and trying to get better cleavage without surgery

hi everyone,

sorry if this is tmi but i would love some help. i’m petite (4’11”) and have a pretty small chest (28D, from the calculator). i’m actually pretty happy with them on their own (imo, they look nice when i'm naked and have a good shape) but they’re far enough apart and small enough that once i have clothes on there’s basically no visible cleavage at all, which kind of drives me crazy.

unless i’m using a lot of boob tape or my hands to force them together, regular bras --- even push-up bras --- don’t really do much. so i’m trying to figure out what actually works for this kind of chest/build.

i'm not trying to radically change how they look, just figure out how to make them look better in clothes and get more lift/cleavage when i want it without doing something ridiculous every time.

would especially love tips from other petites / small-band people, especially if you also have a wider-set chest. bra styles, inserts, taping methods, necklines, specific brands ... anything would help. thank you!

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u/20cabbages — 10 days ago
▲ 354 r/GirlDinnerDiaries+1 crossposts

fucked around. found out :(

tldr: unblocked my ex out of impulse/curiosity and he's going out again with the girl i had a bad feeling about.

my ex (23m) dumped me (22f) about two months ago. we were long distance, and he hooked up with this girl in his area on and off before me. he took her off all his socials while we were together, but my stomach was still churning all the time and i constantly felt "off" even though he assured me they were no longer talking.

unblocked him on IG tonight just to see what was going on and turns out he's following her again. he liked all her pictures going back to ~ a week after he dumped me and they're flirting in the comments for all of them. i don't know if i got cheated on and flirting in the comments could mean nothing but it sure feels like it.

i feel bad because i'm still a mess after the breakup and it looks like he's just moved on in a week, perhaps even less than that. i know that i dodged a bullet but it doesn't make me feel any better. consciously i’ll be fine but i’m really annoyed emotionally.

u/20cabbages — 13 days ago

hi all — copying my comment in r/AsianBeauty here to get more advice. i recently started a dermatologist-prescribed routine with 0.05% tretinoin and azelaic acid, and while my skin doesn’t sting or seem barrier-damaged, it’s been feeling very dry/tight, especially after cleansing.

i think my main issues are:

• ⁠my La Roche-Posay salicylic acid cleanser feels too stripping now
• ⁠my La Roche-Posay moisturizer has started pilling

my current routine:

morning

• ⁠The Ordinary Saccharomyces Ferment 30% Milky Toner
• ⁠prescription azelaic acid
• ⁠La Roche-Posay Toleriane Double Repair Face Moisturizer
• ⁠Good Molecules Yerba Mate Wake Up Eye Gel

evening

• ⁠SKIN1004 Madagascar Centella Light Cleansing Oil
• ⁠La Roche-Posay Effaclar Medicated Gel Cleanser (salicylic acid)
• ⁠wait 30 minutes
• ⁠The Ordinary Saccharomyces Ferment 30% Milky Toner
• ⁠0.05% tretinoin
• ⁠La Roche-Posay Toleriane Double Repair Face Moisturizer
• ⁠Good Molecules Yerba Mate Wake Up Eye Gel

i’m mainly looking for:

• ⁠a gentler second cleanser
• ⁠a moisturizer that won’t pill
• ⁠any supporting-product swaps that helped you tolerate tret + azelaic acid better

i’m not really looking to change the actives themselves since they were prescribed. thank you!

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u/20cabbages — 20 days ago

my ex of two months tried to start some drama/get back into my life, but in the process made me remember how much he drained my energy. our history deserves its own post tbh but is secondary to how i feel FREE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS!!!!!!!!! breakfast from earlier — ginger + lemon tea, chobani peach yogurt, blueberries, sourdough with smoked salmon

u/20cabbages — 21 days ago

no makeup in any of these! any feedback on how to style myself would be helpful since i’m trying to figure out my look/makeup style. just trying to look my best :) will prob delete later

u/20cabbages — 22 days ago

hi everyone! i don’t pluck my eyebrows from the bottom at all, but i think they are a little higher than id like them compared to the top of my eyes. any tips on how to reduce the distance between the two with makeup?

u/20cabbages — 22 days ago

trying to figure out a makeup/styling look that works best for my features, but am a little scared about putting my face out there on r/truerateme. please no creepy comments/dms; i just want to look my best :)

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u/20cabbages — 22 days ago

hi all! basically what the title says. no makeup in any of these photos! i’ve never really used makeup beyond a little concealer for acne scars and mascara, so i feel a bit lost on what would actually enhance my face instead of just copying random tutorials.

i really like my eye color — it’s a lighter brown/amber in person, though i’m not sure how well that comes through in photos (photo 3 is probably closest to IRL) — and i also like my lip shape, so i’d love any advice on how to play those up. i’m less sure about my eyebrows and whether they’re actually working for me right now.

i also have a somewhat rounder face / smaller chin, and from the front i feel like my nose can look a little broader too, though i’m not sure how much of that is actually real versus me overthinking it. i’m not sure whether i should lean into a softer/cuter look or if there are makeup choices that would add a little more structure without looking too heavy or if i’m just fixating on my face lol

i’d really appreciate any suggestions on brows, eye makeup, blush/contour placement, lip colors, or just the overall kind of makeup style that seems like it would fit my features best. if you have unrelated advice, i'm also happy to hear it (please be honest but kind lol.) i’m very much a beginner, so practical advice is especially welcome

u/20cabbages — 22 days ago

on tretinoin 0.05% for around 1.5 months and have been on lower doses since around november. very happy with results for active acne but wanted to ask if i can do anything about the remaining scars. thanks!

u/20cabbages — 22 days ago

hi all! basically what the title says. no makeup in any of these photos! i’ve never really used makeup beyond a little concealer for acne scars and mascara, so i feel a bit lost on what would actually enhance my face instead of just copying random tutorials.

i really like my eye color — it’s a lighter brown/amber in person, though i’m not sure how well that comes through in photos (photo 2 is probably closest to IRL) — and i also like my lip shape, so i’d love any advice on how to play those up. i’m less sure about my eyebrows and whether they’re actually working for me right now.

i also have a somewhat rounder face / smaller chin, and from the front i feel like my nose can look a little broader too, though i’m not sure how much of that is actually real versus me overthinking it. i’m not sure whether i should lean into a softer/cuter look or if there are makeup choices that would add a little more structure without looking too heavy.

i’d really appreciate any suggestions on brows, eye makeup, blush/contour placement, lip colors, or just the overall kind of makeup style that seems like it would fit my features best. i’m very much a beginner, so practical advice is especially welcome.

u/20cabbages — 22 days ago

hi all! basically what the title says. no makeup in any of these photos! i’ve never really used makeup beyond a little concealer for acne scars and mascara, so i feel a bit lost on what would actually enhance my face instead of just copying random tutorials.

i really like my eye color — it’s a lighter brown/amber in person, though i’m not sure how well that comes through in photos (photo 3 is probably closest to IRL) — and i also like my lip shape, so i’d love any advice on how to play those up. i’m less sure about my eyebrows and whether they’re actually working for me right now.

i also have a somewhat rounder face / smaller chin, and from the front i feel like my nose can look a little broader too, though i’m not sure how much of that is actually real versus me overthinking it. i’m not sure whether i should lean into a softer/cuter look or if there are makeup choices that would add a little more structure without looking too heavy.

i’d really appreciate any suggestions on brows, eye makeup, blush/contour placement, lip colors, or just the overall kind of makeup style that seems like it would fit my features best. i’m very much a beginner, so practical advice is especially welcome.

u/20cabbages — 22 days ago
▲ 2 r/Makeup101+1 crossposts

what the title says! super new to makeup. i think i have a somewhat rounder face and softer features but am wondering if i should lean into those more instead of trying to hide them. any advice would be helpful bc i know very little outside of basic foundation to hide acne

u/20cabbages — 23 days ago

got stressed and fell back into some bad habits … any advice on how to get back on track + heal quickly would be helpful. i’m on tretinoin 0.05% in evenings and azelaic acid in the mornings if that would help!

u/20cabbages — 23 days ago

hi all! i’m looking to rent an overnight parking spot or unused driveway space near nassau street, within walking distance of the university. i’d be happy to pay monthly.

my current parking situation is getting too expensive, so i’m trying to find a cheaper local option. if you live nearby and have an open spot that isn’t being used (especially if your building or house has parking but you don’t have a car) i’d love to hear from you. if you know someone nearby who might be open to this, please feel free to message me. thanks so much!

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u/20cabbages — 24 days ago