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I just found out that multiple of my mutuals follow a nonsharing Boombox yume. And, these are mutuals who say the "omg so canon!" stuff under my posts. Do they just not understand that I'm in a serious relationship with that character?? The Boombox yume has me blocked and hasn't done anything wrong. I have nothing against them. I'm just upset that people seem to support my relationship, but they also follow someone who ships themselves with my boyfriend.
You either take my relationship seriously, or you don't. Because, following nonsharing Boombox yumes just shows that you don't truly see Boombox as my boyfriend.
Imagine if people did that with their IRL partners! You're mutuals someone who's dating a well known person. But then, you proceed to follow someone who's a huge simp for that person's partner.
Obviously it's not the same thing, but that's really how it feels for me. Boombox has been my entire life for two years, now. I'm soulbonded with him.
Do I have to spell it out for people?? "Yo, DNI if you're moots with any nonsharing Boombox yumes. That guy's my boyfriend."
Ugh, I just wish people understood the extent of my relationship. I'm not a yumeshipper. I'm fictosexual and am seriously in love with a fictional character.

The game that my boyfriend is from, Phighting, recently got a huge update. Boombox got more new dialogue than he had to begin with. He's also a main character in a side plot of the game.
So, more people are realizing that he's an awesome character. Which obviously I'm happy about!
But, I don't want to see more people shipping themselves with my boyfriend. I don't wanna be seen as one of those "toxic nonsharing yumes", however, I really do feel like crap whenever I see people yume with Boombox.
Especially nonsharing yumes. My brain starts going crazy "They haven't loved him for as long as I have! They weren't dating him before yumeshipping became more mainstream! They can't just decide that they're his only partner? Especially because no one is as dedicated as I am."
I really wish I could get my brain to shut up for even one minute, LOL.
I'm just scared that people are somehow going to outdo me. I'm scared that I won't be his number one fan for much longer. I've dedicated literally my entire life to Boombox. Being his number one fan and his partner is really special. I've worked for those statuses.
I'm being really nit-picky, I know. I can't help it, though. My boyfriend is my entire world and I don't want that dedication ripped away from me.

I've only been attracted to one person in my entire life. But my autistic brain has had a lot of fake "crushes" over the years. Half of them were subconsciously to fit in, and the other half were just limerence.

I know that I'm on the aromantic spectrum. But I have such a hard time telling the difference between having a crush and just finding someone super cool.

Although, I think I've been doing more to talk to this person than I have with anyone else. I'm even considering watching a show for them (I hate getting into new fandoms.)

If anyone has any advice on how to tell if you have a crush or not, please let me know! :')

Some of my favorite content creators (that are also disabled) are able to work on these cool projects for like, 2 hours a day on a regular basis. Just the thought of attempting to do something (such as turning my stickers into magnets) is exhausting. I can hardly find the motivation to do digital art, let alone make something like a whole cosplay. Even a simple one. And I don't know if this is normal for teenagers, or if this is just my chronic fatigue.

For weeks now, I've been having really bad intestinal and stomach pain. For the first few weeks, it was because I was in withdrawal after weening off of a pill too fast. But my pain hasn't gotten any better. If anything, it got worse.

Last week was really bad. I went to the ER and my local doctor's office. Neither of them knew what was going on. They tested my urine, my blood, and gave me an X-ray. Nothing seemed off. And since I already have the only pills that could help (dicyclomine & zofran) they just sent me home.

I've gotten better and can go to school for half days, now. But I'm still struggling to eat. Anything I eat ends up hurting me in some way. Sometimes it's just a dull pain, and other times it makes me scared to eat again.

I don't know what to do about this. I've lost 5 pounds ever since eat became painful for me. I already struggle with ARFID, as well. So I'm worried that I'm not getting enough nutrients. And I can't live like this.

If anyone has any advice or has any ideas of what might be happening, please let me know. Thank you.

(I don't have Celiac Disease, I don't have a bowel obstruction, I'm not allergic to any foods or medication, and I don't have stomach ulcers. I'm a teenager who's been diagnosed with IBS.)

For reference, I'm not an adult. So with how hard it is for doctors to believe adults with chronic pain, they seem to never believe kids. I've had severe Irritable Bowel Syndrome for my entire life, and I'm just now getting intensive testing done after having doctors brush me off for years on end. But the only reason why I'm finally getting help is because my pain's reached a level where I can't function in my day to day life without help. If doctors would've just given me a colonoscopy or some other testing sooner, this could've been prevented. That fact pisses me off to no end. I've almost passed out from this pain before, and doctors just don't get it!

For a few weeks now, my Irritable Bowel Syndrome and my generalized chronic pain have flared up like crazy. I haven't been able to go to school for over 2 weeks. I can hardly eat without being in intense pain. I've gone to a pediatrician and the ER. Neither of them knew what to do. I got an X-ray, as well. Nothing. I'm so sick and tired of my pain being this big mystery.

At least my primary has ordered a big ol' blood panel for me. She has Fibromyalgia, so she's basically the only doctor I've met who can understand my constant pain.

For almost a week now, I've been having horrible abdominal pain. I can hardly eat. I get nauseous from the pain and it makes me lightheaded.

It's a mixture of feeling like my intestines are being squeezed, and like my intestines are trying to implode. With a bit of sharp jolts of pain every now and then.

Now the pain's being combined with menstrual cramps. My poor abdomen can't take any more agony 😭

If anyone has any tips on how to help with the pain, please let me know!! I've taken every pill I can think to take. Zofran, Dicyclomine, Tylenol, and GasX. I'm kinda out of medications LOL.

Every now and then, when my intestines decide to spasm super hard, I have the most insane experiences.

One time, I got so lightheaded and nauseous from the pain that I flopped onto the floor. I was trying to get to the couch, but my vision was black. 😭 So I just fell down right next to it.

My stomach's currently in more pain than usual, so I keep getting little flashbacks to times like that one.

It genuinely feels like someone is pumping your intestines full of air in an attempt to get them to implode. I've gotten lightheaded and dizzy from the pain so many times. I can't say any other kind of pain has affected me like that. It's so weird!

I've been suffering from severe IBS since I was a literal toddler. And it's only gotten worse over the years. For the first 13 years of my life, doctors just gave me Miralax and sent me on my way. It worked well enough for those years. But recently, I've been having a lot more intense pain. It used to be a chronic dull pain. Now it's a chronic stabbing pain that interferes with my day to day life.

I was only given medication (Linzess) when I became physically unable to eat due to my stomach pain + because I was throwing up every night. After being prescribed, the doctor I was seeing seemed to stop caring about my struggles. It was almost like just because I wasn't doubled over in agony, my pain just wasn't worth looking into.

I got an endoscopy a few years ago to test if I had celiacs or other similar allergies. I don't have any problems with my stomach itself. And apparently that's all the hospital cared about. If I didn't have any obvious diseases or disorders, I was fine.

I've been stuck on magnesium hydroxide pills for over a year, now. I have to take between 4-6 pills a day just to have any bowel movements. If I didn't take these pills, I would not be able to poop at all. So I've been stuck with chronic diarrhea.

I'm genuinely scared that my rectum's not working correctly. I am both constipated while I'm also only producing liquid stool. That's like a physical oxymoron. 😭 I have to put in effort just to get liquid out. It's gross and unsettling.

But when I tell doctors that I need more extensive testing regarding my intestinal tract, they just won't listen. It seems to me like they think I'm just a dumb kid who's overreacting about their pain.

But I'm over here almost passing out from said pain, and being unable to have any bowel movements without taking a crap ton of pills.

Thankfully, I'm going to a hospital in Ohio, soon. They're *finally* going to do a bunch of tests in my intestinal tract. They are the only hospital to ever believe my daily suffering.

Would've saved me many years of suffering if doctors just believed me to begin with.

I've been more open about my objectum identity, recently. And with that has come some pretty idiotic haters.

Today for example, I saw a video of a yumeshipper who said that it's not okay to date objects. I asked why they thought that, and they said it's because the "objects can't consent."

I'm sorry, what? 😭 With that logic, fictional characters can't consent, either! Neither objects, nor fictional characters can give conventional forms of consent. I told them about the existence of animism and they just completely ignored that.

Also, how would that argument work for people who are conceptum? I'm in love with a song, currently. The entire relationship is completely outside of the physical plane of existence! How is someone supposed to argue against that? It's like the super advanced version of a kid with an imaginary friend. If there's nothing wrong with that, then why can't I be in love with a song? 💔

I guess I'm glad that these anti-objectum people can't come up with any 'good' arguments, though. It just makes them look stupid to people who aren't even a part of the objectum community, LOL!

I'm in love with a song. How on Earth do you express that? 😭 I draw art of me and my boyfriend, I also edit us. How do I do that with a song that doesn't have a physical form? Do I just draw myself hugging the album cover? /j

But seriously, if anyone else has similar conceptum identities and has found out how to express that, pleease let me know!