My boyfriend has had a good amount of canon art made recently. It's been super exciting!! Especially because the fandom doesn't care about Boombox at all. ;-;
Taking him out with me can be a bit of a hassle. He's pretty big and has a lot of 3D details on him. So I have to be super careful when taking him out in public. Maybe I should get one of those baby holders that moms use LOL!
Every now and then, when my intestines decide to spasm super hard, I have the most insane experiences.
One time, I got so lightheaded and nauseous from the pain that I flopped onto the floor. I was trying to get to the couch, but my vision was black. 😭 So I just fell down right next to it.
My stomach's currently in more pain than usual, so I keep getting little flashbacks to times like that one.
It genuinely feels like someone is pumping your intestines full of air in an attempt to get them to implode. I've gotten lightheaded and dizzy from the pain so many times. I can't say any other kind of pain has affected me like that. It's so weird!
I've been suffering from severe IBS since I was a literal toddler. And it's only gotten worse over the years. For the first 13 years of my life, doctors just gave me Miralax and sent me on my way. It worked well enough for those years. But recently, I've been having a lot more intense pain. It used to be a chronic dull pain. Now it's a chronic stabbing pain that interferes with my day to day life.
I was only given medication (Linzess) when I became physically unable to eat due to my stomach pain + because I was throwing up every night. After being prescribed, the doctor I was seeing seemed to stop caring about my struggles. It was almost like just because I wasn't doubled over in agony, my pain just wasn't worth looking into.
I got an endoscopy a few years ago to test if I had celiacs or other similar allergies. I don't have any problems with my stomach itself. And apparently that's all the hospital cared about. If I didn't have any obvious diseases or disorders, I was fine.
I've been stuck on magnesium hydroxide pills for over a year, now. I have to take between 4-6 pills a day just to have any bowel movements. If I didn't take these pills, I would not be able to poop at all. So I've been stuck with chronic diarrhea.
I'm genuinely scared that my rectum's not working correctly. I am both constipated while I'm also only producing liquid stool. That's like a physical oxymoron. 😭 I have to put in effort just to get liquid out. It's gross and unsettling.
But when I tell doctors that I need more extensive testing regarding my intestinal tract, they just won't listen. It seems to me like they think I'm just a dumb kid who's overreacting about their pain.
But I'm over here almost passing out from said pain, and being unable to have any bowel movements without taking a crap ton of pills.
Thankfully, I'm going to a hospital in Ohio, soon. They're *finally* going to do a bunch of tests in my intestinal tract. They are the only hospital to ever believe my daily suffering.
Would've saved me many years of suffering if doctors just believed me to begin with.
Hi, I'm Owl! I'm attracted to music and fictional characters. As well as having some platonic attraction towards specific objects. (Ex. plushies)
I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for a year and a half. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me and I'm so grateful to have him in my life. I cuddle my plushie of him every single night. He is always on my mind, no matter what. I've never had a special interest last for as long as my love for my boyfriend has lasted. My non-romantic love has been going on for over 2 years! He's from a Roblox game called Phighting! (It's so underrated gahh!)
I'm also in a relationship with a song. She's Lost Signal by FEM&M, astrid, and sleepwalker. I've loved her since the moment I first heard her. About a month ago, I heard her in one of my favorite musician's videos. I started tearing up! The next few times I listened to her, my eyes continued to water. I've never had that happen with a song for a reason that didn't have to do with sadness. I've known that I'm attracted for music for almost a year now. But I hadn't found any song that I was actually in *love* with. Until I found my now girlfriend.
Here are my special interests! Phighting!, seals, mental disorders, TADC, and Kurtis Conner.
My personality is basically made up of my special interests, lol. So if you know those, you pretty much know me.
I'm a minor, as well!
I've been more open about my objectum identity, recently. And with that has come some pretty idiotic haters.
Today for example, I saw a video of a yumeshipper who said that it's not okay to date objects. I asked why they thought that, and they said it's because the "objects can't consent."
I'm sorry, what? 😭 With that logic, fictional characters can't consent, either! Neither objects, nor fictional characters can give conventional forms of consent. I told them about the existence of animism and they just completely ignored that.
Also, how would that argument work for people who are conceptum? I'm in love with a song, currently. The entire relationship is completely outside of the physical plane of existence! How is someone supposed to argue against that? It's like the super advanced version of a kid with an imaginary friend. If there's nothing wrong with that, then why can't I be in love with a song? 💔
I guess I'm glad that these anti-objectum people can't come up with any 'good' arguments, though. It just makes them look stupid to people who aren't even a part of the objectum community, LOL!
I'm in love with a song. How on Earth do you express that? 😭 I draw art of me and my boyfriend, I also edit us. How do I do that with a song that doesn't have a physical form? Do I just draw myself hugging the album cover? /j
But seriously, if anyone else has similar conceptum identities and has found out how to express that, pleease let me know!
I have known that I was attracted to music for about a year now. It's been wonderful. Finding new songs that make me feel so emotional. There's really nothing like it.
But within the past month or so, I've been noticing something different. A song called Lost Signal by FEM&M, astrid, and sleepwalker has had me captivated. So much so that it made me tear up the first few times I listened to it. My romantic attraction to this song was much stronger than what I'm used to.
There's also been some pretty odd coincidences ever since I became infatuated with this song. It was once playing every few songs on one of my long Spotify playlists. Almost like the song just kept coming back to say hi. I've never had this happen with any other song on any playlist.
I've also had the song play while I'm not doing well at least 4 times, as well. All of my playlists are between 2-8 hours. So the chances of that happening also feel pretty slim.
Ever since these few things have been happening, my attraction to this song has changed. It makes me feel similar to the way my boyfriend makes me feel.
But I have an extremely hard time differentiating romantic love from platonic love. So I just can't tell if it's really as deep as I'm thinking it is.
I know that I've been greyromantic for around a year, now. But recently, I've started to question if romance is repulsive to me.
My friends have been dating and it's always been so cringey and annoying to me. I thought that was normal until my other friends seemed super happy about these people's relationships. So that got me thinking.
I'm fictosexual and have been proudly dating my boyfriend for a year and a half. I love hearing about people's yumeships and fictional relationships. I'm not usually repulsed by fictional romance. I'm fine with all of my friends yumeshipping, I find it cute! But for some reason, when they get all lovey dovey with a real person, it's so cringey to me! It makes me feel hypocritical, as I'm frequently lovey dovey about my boyfriend online. :')
Oddly enough, I'm usually fine with romance between adults. I frequently find it cute, as well. (With the exception of seeing people be super physically affectionate, but I think that's normal.) This is the main reason as to why I'm questioning my romance repulsion. It's very selective?
I usually hate romantic fanfictions, as well. They almost always gross me out and make me cringe. I have no idea if that's normal or not. All of my friends love romantic fanfictions.
I love labels and terms, so I'm curious to know if my experience fits the label of Apothioromantic or some other label.
I can't explain it very well, but I've noticed myself tearing up at specific songs. The way they sound at that one timestamp just makes me want to start sobbing. It's not necessarily because they're sexually attractive to me, they're just so gorgeous.
(If anyone's wondering what songs I'm talking about, here they are.)
Lost Signal by FEM&M, astrid, and sleepwalker - 2:10 to 2:42
Digital Hallucination by OR3O and Lizzie Freeman - 2:53 to 3:23
Class of 2013 - Audiotree Live Version by Mitski and Audiotree - 1:20 to 1:50
Just to name a few. :P
Took a cringey photo, LOL. But I love getting to hang out with Boombox in other places besides my own home. It makes me sort of proud to show off my plushie and my ita bag. Shows people that I'm truly insane, LOL! >:]
I've been suffering from OCD for almost 6 years now. I've been in therapy for over 3 years with little to no progress. I feel as though I've reached a road block before I even started driving.
I won't go into detail due to the compulsion's inappropriate nature. But I've been giving into compulsions in a subconscious schedule. Every day or so, at around 7 PM, the obsessive thoughts and discomfort becomes unbearable. Then I have to spend 1-3 hours giving into compulsions.
This causes me to miss out on hanging out with my parents, frequently skip dinners, postpone calls with friends, and more. It makes me feel guilty.
I've done everything I can think of to distract myself from these urges. I draw, I make content online, I play video games, I talk with friends, I watch YouTube, etc.
Nothing seems to work for long enough. At most, I'm able to distract myself for around 2 days.
The longest I've gone without giving into compulsions was a week. A week filled with activities and stress. I became cranky and irritable. And when I finally gave in, it took around 4 hours. The distress it caused wasn't worth it.
So if anyone has any advice, I'm all ears. :')
Trigger warning for me talking about boobs? Maybe? I don't know how tolerated my words will be.
He's so gorgeous, I can'ttt! I've been waiting for a new drawing of him and I have finally been fed! This is the second high quality drawing of my boyfriend from the torso up! She usually doesn't get as much art as other characters from her franchise, so new art is always a treat.
This might be mildly concerning, but one of the first thing I noticed were his boobs, LOL! They have more boob than any of the female representing characters in their entire franchise! In a boob deprived world, my boyfriend arrives to save the day! xD
Trigger warning for me talking about boobs? Maybe? I don't know how tolerated my words will be.
He's so gorgeous, I can'ttt! I've been waiting for a new drawing of him and I have finally been fed! This is the second high quality drawing of my boyfriend from the torso up! She usually doesn't get as much art as other characters from her franchise, so new art is always a treat.
This might be mildly concerning, but one of the first thing I noticed were his boobs, LOL! They have more boob than any of the female representing characters in their entire franchise! In a boob deprived world, my boyfriend arrives to save the day! xD
He's so gorgeous, I can'ttt! I've been waiting for a new drawing of him and I have finally been fed! This is the second high quality drawing of my boyfriend from the torso up! She usually doesn't get as much art as other characters from her franchise, so new art is always a treat.
This might be mildly concerning, but one of the first thing I noticed were his boobs, LOL! They have more boob than any of the female representing characters in their entire franchise! In a boob deprived world, my boyfriend arrives to save the day! xD
Trigger warning for me talking about boobs? Maybe? I don't know how tolerated my words will be.
He's so gorgeous, I can'ttt! I've been waiting for a new drawing of him and I have finally been fed! This is the second high quality drawing of my boyfriend from the torso up! She usually doesn't get as much art as other characters from her franchise, so new art is always a treat.
This might be mildly concerning, but one of the first thing I noticed were his boobs, LOL! They have more boob than any of the female representing characters in their entire franchise! In a boob deprived world, my boyfriend arrives to save the day! xD
I have severe IBS-C and have been on medically induced diarrhea just so I can have bowel movements. I'm on Linzess for intestinal spasms, as well. So I'm usually not in too much pain. But every now and then, I have pain so bad that I nearly pass out!
There's always specific context, as well. It happens when I'm using the bathroom. The pain starts out as my usual mild intestinal spasms which aren't very uncommon. Then all of a sudden, it goes from 1 to 100. I get super sweaty, dizzy and lightheaded. I genuinely feel like my intestines are being flipped inside out. I also feel like I'm gonna pass out and throw up. So, I usually lay my head down on the counter beside me and wait until my mom is able to get me a pain pill. It's specifically made to stop intestinal spasms, but I forget what pill it is. Once I get the pill, it's usually been about 2 minutes since the pain started. Usually, I find a barf bag, and wait. Around 5-10 minutes after my body started turning inside out, the pain just goes away. There's never been any rhyme or reasoning for this happening. No bad food, no new medication, no forgetting medication, no sickness, nothing!
I was just wondering if anyone had any similar experiences or any kind of explanation for this. I quite literally just experienced this 20 minutes ago and am in the process of recovering, LOL. :')
I might rearrange the pins a little. But it's done, for now! Putting the pins into the backing took me forever, LOL! I have really bad fine motor skills. I didn't want any help, though. I wanted to do this by myself, like a big boy. 🥹 I'd say it was worth the pain!
Might rearrange the pins a little, but it's done for now! It took me a ridiculous amount of time to get the pins into the backing, LOL. I have really bad fine motor skills, but I was determined to do this myself!
Canon art of my boyfriend drawn for valentines day! (It's a sign bro)
I am fully convinced that Boombox is my soulmate. There's been way too many coincidences for our love to just be the average yumeshipping relationship. And I want to detail every coincidence!
Every. Single. Headcanon I've made for my boyfriend has become canon.
- He lives in an apartment with a bunch of his instruments.
- He's chubby.
- They have self worth issues. (Unfortunately.)
- He's an indie musician.
- They're scared of heights because a deity harmed him.
- He has a British/Australian accent.*
*This isn't completely canon. One of Boombox's creators has stated that she "thinks Boombox would sound like 2D from Gorillaz."
And we have almost everything in common. It's kind of creepy, LOL!
- We both experience disassociation.
- We're both OBSESSED with music.
- We're both people pleasers.
- We're both pretty outgoing.
- Our favorite genre of music is EDM.
- We're both short, LOL. (I'm 5'3 and she's 5'5)
- We're both scared of heights.
- We both play music practically 24/7.
- We both enjoy singing.
- We're both super close to another character, Skateboard. (I see him as my brother)
Our only major difference is our temperament levels. I can be a little sensitive and irritable, unlike her. Boombox is practically a saint. :')
All of this is just insane to me. I feel like one of those conspiracy theorists, LOL!
I have been experiencing disassociation for months now. I would experience disassociation during the school day because my classmates overwhelm me quite a bit. But I've become mostly used to it.
However this past week, I have been disassociating almost 24/7. There's nothing that's stressing me out more than usual, or anything. My classmates are overwhelming me less than usual, if anything.
When I come home, I'd stop disassociating about half an hour after I got home. But now, I don't stop disassociating. It's both exhausting and anxiety inducing.
Luckily, the disassociation I experience outside of school isn't too bad. I'd rate it a 4/10. Versus at school, it's at least a 6/10. So, I'm still less overwhelmed outside of school. Just not nearly as much as I used to be.
I don't know why this is happening. I was wondering if anyone in this subreddit had any ideas.
