u/Adventurous_Fig3579

I know for sure that what I eat affects my skin. But the issue is there’s so much I cannot eat, and I keep discovering more and more foods that I can’t eat or else I’ll have pretty bad cystic acne.

I just feel everything is starting to revolve over what I’ll eat and I can never just get to not think anymore and eat whatever groceries I have. No dairy, no sugar, no processed food, no fried food, no oily food in general, no white bread, no to most bread actually, eggs and avacados are not my best friend, and make it worse which was sad to learn. obviously no sauces or anything as they have seed oils, definitely no outside food at all, no spicy or else I just have the biggest pimple ever. Im a coffee addict and ofc had to give up making it any way besides all black which is fine I like it like that. Atleast it’s kinda helping me not crave MUCH.

Im sad cuz I had a sweet treat as an outing w some friends and im now here with a really bad breakout that two ppl already made fun of and it’s been one day. I feel like I can’t hang out w ppl anymore bc wtf am I gonna say no I won’t eat while everyone eating??

currently on the strictest cut (diet), anyone doing the same and wants to yell at me cuz sugars looking too good rn

I notice my biggest struggle is talking bout myself in any way. For some reason when it comes to talking to new ppl I actually find it easier then within friend groups. One on one is fine, but it always is somehow always easier with strangers. Anyway Ive got some bad insomnia so i cant sleep right now and would be down to talk

I guess a little about be: I’m 23f, arab & muslim, east coast, have an alt vibe, in my last year of grad school, im 50/50 homebody and outdoorsy, and i have a bit of an adrenaline addiction unfortunately lol

I pray and I feel nothing I feel like I have to crawl myself to my prayer mat to pray again. Mouth feels zipped shut when I try to ask for help and I can’t express anything unless it’s to Allah. Now I feel stupid and embarrassed for that too

I feel like I’m now that I’m 23 almost done w college and have no time to attend anything halaka related on campus I rlly have a hard time making Muslim friends. I do have some but not a strong bond I feel like when it’s ppl irl it’s harder bc there’s an expectation to go out a lot but my circumstances don’t allow me to have that freedom just yet. I’m also tired of feeling like I can’t be open and talk ab anything w muslim girl friends bc I’m afraid if they judge me, I just want a friend whose supportive in a way that’s isn’t trying to “fix u” bc I’ve had that and it felt a little belittling and I could just talk to my mom lol. idk how to explain but it’s definitely a difference in that type of support.

I also feel like a lot of the girls that I am friends with and are Muslim are tight on the culture we share and I’m ngl I hate that a lot 🥹 I just want a Muslim girl friend whose not ab culture so much as she is Islam itself and navigates life without such a cultural lens bc it has traumatized me so much lol.

I also just desire to be around emotionally intelligent people. I’ve always been a quiet observer and I don’t like to “perform”. I never fit in a friend group bc I don’t fit a “status quo” of the friend group rather than have that couple friends within it I can vibe with, who then ofc naturally exclude u (not mad at all it’s okay). I do have friends ofc they are just in diff parts of their life all my besties are married w kids lol and I’m not so it’s been lonely ever since they all so busy all the time ofcourse I understand it.

It’s all so hard to explain honestly, I wish I can articulate all my thoughts better.

Idk if anyone has any advice on how to have more Muslim girl friends I feel so shy and awkward to just dm or go up to someone

I’m 23f rlly bored would like to talk to someone around my age girl or boy idc but pls for the love of god if it’s a boy I truly just want to be friends. I’m tired of thinking I have a genuine friend in a guy who I can tell is a rlly good person and could be great friends with and then he says something questionable 🥲 makes me sad. I’m currently in a locked in grinding mode in my life tryna be the best version I can be it’s be fun if someone is also that way (studies work gym diet mind peace all of it) and we can talk ab it too amongst other things. If u dm pls just tell me a little ab urself

I’m rewatching tvd in my 20s now and it’s kind of a hard watch but the vibes are comforting. My pre teen self couldn’t imagine me now relating to aunt jenna

I’m truly at the point where I feel it’s time for me to move out as a girl even tho I know my entire family will hate me for it. There’s nothing more I desire than to WANT to stay home with my family, to feel safe, to feel supported, to feel loved, to feel accepted, to just be content with going home. But I’m constantly anxious and my nervous system is a mess living here. I hate that moving out would cause such huge issues and I wish I could still be supported and it wouldn’t feel like such a drastic ultimatum where I have to choose. I’m genuinely depressed everytime I have to go out from school.

Muslim parents ( in my culture) hate the idea of their daughters moving out alone yet so many examples of girls despising going home and being depressed at home. If u dont want ur daughter to ever leave home, then why don’t u make home a safe space? It doesn’t make sense to me. The issue isn’t only the lack of all I said, it’s also just the anger hostility yelling and constant talk down. Still not being allowed to go out with friends more than once a month and even calling/texting friends is a problem my whole life. Then make snarky comments that I’m not as social as they want me to be. It doesn’t make any sense. It makes me just wanna leave and not care what happens after.

I also hate when there’s talk ab girls “running with a man” and absolutely ruin her. (When men don’t get social consequences atleast here they dont). Bc girls are not doing it for pleasure of being with a man as a man would, moreso the freedom that will come after and feeling safe for the first time. it’s never about the man, it was neverrr ab that, it’s ab the feeling of freedom to girls who arent able to move out alone due to things such as probably not being allowed to work. So even tho those girls are wrong i have empathy for them. They’re 99% in abusive homes.

I’m just so sad I have to feel like I have to make this decision. I hate how much I care about ppl who don’t care about my feelings at all.

I’ve only smelled city of stars and it’s sooooo good but what do we think of “imagination” “symphony” “attrape-reves” and other ones, ive never smelled a bad one from LV tbh but its hard to choose

I want something fresh and still feminine ( the feminine note can be floral/sweet either one but the freshness of the perfume I want to be the main note)

I’m not picky about scents, I like it all, I just am in the process of learning what smells good on me specifically

soo currently I’m at a low point in my life. Some really bad things happened and I’m trying to work through it alone ( I like it better that way) and it’s lowkey been getting in the way of schoolwork but I’m slowly catching up. I’m a little embarrassed bc my professors noticed and I’m basically mute when they ask me if everything’s okay, feels like a 🔫 to my head lol.

Anyways I’m actually in my last year of grad school and taking summer classes which is why it was hard. And the workload was a lot I took time off my part time job. Right now I really wanna apply again to make some money ( I’m saving up but also want one last whatever job before real life starts).

I really wanna get into night shifts ( atleast for the summer) and applied to stocking jobs so I don’t have to interact with people. My mind can’t take it. Shift is 3-10am which sounds fine since I have insomnia and can’t sleep. But just about everyone in my life is telling me not to do that lol. Esp that my workload is intense. What do u guys think should I take on this job for the summer or recover mentally before the semester starts (I’ll be doing clinic work mornings) and just start a real job.

I also kind of need an escape during these hours bc my mind is insane and I don’t sleep anyway. Idk kinda worried I’ll crash but I already feel like I did lol

I’ve been in so much depression and I’m either crying really hard or feel absolutely nothing. I listened to some Quran and that’s when I cried uncontrollably hard my blood vessels under my eyes popped and there’s genuinely no more tears. I wish I could ask for help I’m so desperate for some sort of help it never got to the point I need reach out to a therapist or something or atleast I never admitted it like this. I genuinely wanna die so the pain can stop or someone can rip my heart out so the sadness can go away. Idk how to go about anything bc therapy is “wrong” and my family won’t let me

Just really need a friend rn I’ve never felt so sad in my life,can’t sleep can’t focus ,can’t do work lol. Would be nice to just talk to someone ab anything

I read somewhere that ppl with bpd don’t often make it past there 20s and I understand why now. This is the worst I’ve ever felt and it’s all my fault. I’m constantly grieving people who are still alive and it hurts so bad, I’ve promised myself to live the rest of my life alone bc I rlly can’t take it anymore