I'm a 26M corporate guy working at an MNC in Mumbai, pulling in 1.8L a month in hand, hitting the gym and boxing ring 5 days a week, and I'm in pretty good shape. On paper, this is everything I wanted.. the job, the money, the physique. But something feels deeply off and I genuinely don't know what to do about it.
My weekends basically run on autopilot... I get on Bumble/Hinge, set up dates for Saturday and Sunday, go out for half the day, come home, have sex, and then just... feel completely hollow. What used to feel like my dream life now just feels like a loop I can't break out of. I have zero motivation to chase a promotion. My parents are financially self-sufficient so I don't even have that pressure pushing me forward. I mostly spend on expensive perfumes, watches, supplements, and the occasional date. I've even had girls over for a full week thinking a relationship might fix this.. tried having a girlfriend too.. but that didn't move the needle either. Mondays feel like a curse and I spend the entire week just surviving until the next weekend.
I know I can't live like this forever and that thought scares me more than anything. I'm not depressed in the clinical sense (at least I don't think so?), but the emptiness after every "good" weekend is getting harder to ignore. Has anyone been through something like this? Is this just a phase, or is there something fundamentally missing that I need to figure out? Genuinely looking for advice, not just the usual "find a hobby" type advice..