u/Agreeable_Fault_1426

18,5’2 , female, 44kg, taking: sertraline 50mg, amitryptiline 10mg, cerrezette. vape. diagnoses: pcos, asd and adhd, heavily suspected fibromyalgia and/or me/cfs.

i get these weird palpitations at random intervals, most commonly after standing up OR lying down but also will happen constantly randomly.

a few days ago my heart rate spiked to 185 simply from sitting up from lying down. i always have tunnel/dark vision when standing up, my iron is fine.

i went to a&e twice at the start of september for severe panic attacks that came on with no trigger, i just got chest pain and tightens all over. ECG, bloods and Xrays were all fine.

i have a lot of pain all over my rib/chest/back area and it’s difficult to know if i ever needed to go to hospital.

together forever in my heart ik its odd but they are just adorable

done edibles every night for a year and a half, tried RSO and ho ly shit. i love this stuff. i got this weird click in my hip and i blinked and bam im fried. im so unbelievably high right now my ears are ringing.

Over the last 2/3 years i developed a really intense phobia of flying, even though i have traveled plenty my whole life with no incidents.

i have tried the easyjet course, meditation, panic control methods, literally everything out there and nothing has worked. every flight it gets worse. my last flight was istanbul-manchester and i was by myself. i cried the entire time, i think i had a continuous panic attack for the whole flight, i almost screamed (and actually did a couple of times) whenever i could feel a tiny shift.

im already panicking about this flight, im going manchester-hong kong then hong kong-Philippines (cant remember which island we are flying to as we are moving around a little). im going with my mum, who used to be terrified like me but got over it after we did a fear of flying course together which didnt work for me.

i literally just feel like getting on this plane is going to be a death sentence, even though i know how safe it is. i am so unbelievably desperate to go on this holiday, its for an amazing sounding wedding but im genuinely worried i will end up not being able to get on the plane. in my minds eye i just see everything going wrong and its burnt into my brain, i cant get it out.

i know all the statistics, trust me. idk if its partly being trapped that makes it so scary, the fact that in a car if something goes wrong its easy to stop and get out but not so much on a plane.

im panicking and crying every day already, i dont think i can cope with how anxious i am over this for much longer, i already take anti-anxiety meds but this just seems to override them. im completely fucking terrified.

went to the doctor yesterday, i already suspected MECFS but he brought it up independently saying it was the most likely cause for these symptoms, and for some reason it really upset me.

i have so much i want to do, and im already missing out on everything my friends get to do, or when i do do it i cant do anything else for days. i cant work, ive had to delay university, i just want to be able to live like everyone else.

i want to be an actor. ive loved it all my life, its all i can see myself doing and now to think that might not be a possibility is heartbreaking.

i dont know how to deal with these feelings, and im not even actually diagnosed. i cant imagine how it would feel if i am diagnosed with this. if anyone has any advice on how to cope with these feelings it would be much appreciated

hey guys my flight number is pc7313 sabiha gokcen-manchester, im on the plane waiting to take off and im really panicking as im flying by myself for only the third time
thank you!!

one of my very close friends (call her daisy, 18) broke up with her boyfriend on Thursday, its now sunday morning. we are in college for acting, they had to do a show opposite each other on the friday, the dress rehearsal was a mess and she was barging him on stage etc. he was cheating on her with the same girl he cheated on his ex with.

they had been arguing for months. he was her first boyfriend ever, they had been together for almost a year. she is absolutely heartbroken, and they were both at this party last night.

They disappeared for 2 hours talking and i was honestly panicking after a little while that something had gone really wrong. it hadnt but he went home (around 10:30) and she came back in absolute bits.

she wanted to go and see him at home and we were all begging her not to but she did, and she was meant to come home with me. she didnt and ended up staying with him (she said in his guest room but im not sure) even though i told her to come to mine afterwards and i would get her an uber. she has a history of quite severe mental health issues, and i just feel awful for her and dont know how i can help.

apparently her mum is really worried, she said she might not be allowed to stay at mine because her mum thinks she is going to run away or even something more drastic. but she was allowed to stay at mine in the end even though it didnt happen. im so worried, i havent heard from her yet and i want to know that she is safe but i just dont know what to do.

hey! im looking for some specific merch (some of which i dont know much about) for my friends while im here. here is a list!

- sk8 the infinity
- bluelock
-jjk (gojo specifically i wanna get my friend a body pillow AS A JOKE)
-yuri on ice

im also looking for a fun “weird” record shop to grab something funky for my friend who collects records. any area or specific shop recommendations would be greatly appreciated!! thank you!!

specifically south mcr ik people say sainsburys stock them but the one near me doesnt 💔💔💔 im desperate and too lazy to make myself

im only asking this to see if anyone has had a similar experience.

One of mines got to be her saying (paraphrasing but pretty accurate cos she went on about this for like 10 minutes) “yeah no it doesnt really matter that you arent sleeping. doctors are always sleep deprived and its not like you are doing lifesaving work”.

another contender (same session) after telling her i have issues with self harm when i cant sleep and she said “plenty of other people have sleep problems and they arent self harming .

i was 16 during this appointment.

i desperately want to go to someone else but as my adhd is privately diagnosed we couldnt find ANYONE who would even see me until i had a diagnosis from their provider.

yeah let me know your psychiatrist struggles!! wanna feel a little better about mine 😬

One of mines got to be her saying (paraphrasing but pretty accurate cos she went on about this for like 10 minutes) “yeah no it doesnt really matter that you arent sleeping. doctors are always sleep deprived and its not like you are doing lifesaving work”.

another contender (same session) after telling her i have issues with self harm when i cant sleep and she said “plenty of other people have sleep problems and they arent self harming .

i was 16 during this appointment.

i desperately want to go to someone else but as my adhd is privately diagnosed we couldnt find ANYONE who would even see me until i had a diagnosis from their provider.

yeah let me know your psychiatrist struggles!! wanna feel a little better about mine 😬

EDIT: wow guys im so sorry for everything people have been through this fucking sucks right.