u/Alarming-Hand-1625

I've been struggling with a strong discomfort about being human and having a physical body. I often feel disgust toward the fact that I am made of flesh, that I'm vulnerable, and that my body produces fluids and smells. And then I realize that everyone is like that and I feel disgust towards everyone. The idea that I am made of many separate biological systems instead of being a single, simple thing feels disturbing to me. I find humans disgusting. I find sex, kissing, hugging, eating, shitting etc just extremely gross. Humans can look attractive from the outside, but realizing that they have weird organs and fluids inside makes me wanna puke.
I sometimes wish I could just be an inanimate object like a plastic square or a doll. something formless, simple, and not biological.
On top of that, I get very aware of my bodily functions in a way that feels intrusive and uncomfortable. I notice my heartbeat, my blood circulation, and my digestion, and it irritates me that I can feel these processes happening inside me. It feels like my body is too present and hard to ignore.

i always knew that there is limitless stupidity in people. But I always believed in decent morality in most people.

Since my father was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, we had to experience the following reactions:

• Someone I was interested in ghosted / blocked me after finding out that my father has cancer. He quietly disappeared without even wishing me strength
• Three people on Facebook thought it was funny that my father has brain metastases
• My father told two acquaintances about his diagnosis, and they bluntly responded to him with: “Well, there’s nothing you can do about it.”
• When I asked a question on Facebook about my father’s vitamin D levels, some people commented things like: “There’s nothing you can do at stage 4 anyway. He’s going to die soon regardless.” And also things like: “Why haven't you found out earlier… your fault, you did something wrong.”

I currently suffer from very severe depression, I am genuinely doing very badly, and on top of that I have to endure things like this. Slowly, I am losing more and more faith that most people have any sense of morality or empathy at all. Can this get worse? I need strength, a few kind words...thats all I am asking for...why are some people such assholes? I am crying for my poor dad.

I really want to order a resinsoul doll,but I dont like their website. Is bobobie also from resinsoull or is it a fake site? Which site do you recommend to order resinsoul dolls please? Thanks

I have two islands now on 2 switches with the same Nintendo account.

Can I use the island backup on both??? Im scared to do something wrong because don't wanna lose data but apparently my new switch isn't working well so maybe I will have to return it....

Also ich habe meine Switch 2 erst seit bisschen mehr als einer Woche und häufig piepst die ziemlich laut (handheld modus), es ist nicht immer da, aber oft... dachte erst, es sei Tinnitus von meinem Ohr. Und es ist laut genug sodass ich es nur überhören kann, wenn ich das spiel laut wie möglich stelle. Ich hatte vorher die switch lite und da hatte ich nie das problem. Ist das noch normal oder sollte man das umtauschen? :/

p.s. Wenn ich den joycon auf der Tinnitus/Piep Seite entnehme, hört es auf.

For the last couple of days I've been seeing a quick and mild light/flashing my right eye in the peripheral vision every now and then, maybe up to 6 times a day. 2 days ago the ophthalmologist checked my retinas and said they're fine. Yesterday, 1 day after my Dr appointment, I saw it more than 15 times. Today it's a little less. I am so scared to get retinal detachment, and I am scared that I have to go to the doctor again.. I have anxiety issues and I can't calm down. I dont wanna get trapped in the circle of going to the Dr over and over. Does someone here have similar issues and how can I learn to calm down? Btw: I asked the doctor and apparently I DO NOT have pvd.

I've been seeing something like a mild flash but more like a quick subtle light in my peripheral vision in my one eye for a couple of days now. Ophthalmologist checked my eye with mydriasie and said retinas are fine. Yesterday, 1 day after the Dr, I saw it not only 5-6x per day, but over 15x times per day...ugh.. does this mean I will have to get it checked again? i don't have a history with retinal detachment.