it’s over (thank you all)
hi all, I wasn’t the most active here, and when i posted i didn’t always reply because of constantly being overwhelmed but i felt the need to share that my dad is finally resting. i spent all of thursday at the hospital with him, he was mostly drifting in and out of sleep, we talked but not a lot, i felt a bad cold coming up so i didn’t want to make him sick as well by being too close.
I went home crying, so tired and feeling that maybe the end was coming for real this time. I woke up friday and my mom had texted that he hadn’t woken up from the night before, that he was breathing but that he most likely wouldn’t regain consciousness
the most surreal day ever, we got there, my siblings and i took turns to sit alone with him and said goodbye (i really hope that he heard what we told him), all of us sat there for a while, and after an hour or so we went to a table on a waiting room next to his bed to eat some breakfast and that is when he left.
this has been the craziest year and half of my life and i’m so happy i got to spend it all by his side. i will never regret this. even though hurts all over in ways i didn’t know i could hurt, i was lucky to get incredibly close to him in this time, he really became my best friend.
I wanted to give the deepest thanks to everyone on this sub, as i said, im not much good at interacting in online spaces but I have read almost every single thing posted here and thanks to that i was able to learn so much, so that i could be the best advocate for my dads health. thank you thank you for all of those that with pain in your hearts find the space to give advice, or share your experiences here. it made a huge difference for me.
i hope that in time, i can do the same for someone else
i’m so grateful to all of you internet people, and i feel so much for you, losing someone or having someone close get sick is really so tough, but it really has been lovely to find a space where i felt understood
wish you all the best in wherever you are in this process