u/Amada--Sama

Well yay. It's the 100th day of daily wholesome Beako posting, and it’s also my birthday.

It was fun doing this, and I'm glad y'all were with me this far in the Beako posting streak.

It was fun while it lasted... Kashira.

You know, this does take me back to when people used to call me the “Beako gooner” on r/Witch_cult.

The story behind that is pretty funny.

Two years back, on my first account, in r/Rezero, I used to post memes. I also made a habit of freak commenting so I could be noticeable and different then others

I kept thinking about the limits I could take it to. Although it was mainly Rem, Echidna, and Priscilla... a few times I did hit a jab at Beatrice from time to time for the lols and shock value, while saying I was 15.At that time, I believed that was more than enough to protect me from any bans or bad rep. I drew a red line at Petra, cause even back then, I knew that was one thing that shouldn’t be done.

Since the physical age of Beatrice and me at this point is 3, which is the accepted limit in my books.

Moving forward, I got banned once. u/jakeforever unbanned me. Got banned again, turned out u/ILoveHiyoko is the mf who kept banning me at that time (no shit. There were only 2 mods back then), he was 14 at the time and didn't accept my reasoning for the jokes.

He permanently banned my alt, and I used my main by accident, resulting in a permanent IP ban.

Moving forward with my account. I used it for a while before u/ILoveHiyoko nuked me again for god knows what reason (note: we are both on very good terms now somehow lol. Apparently, he had a revelation that it wasn't so serious back then).

At the time, I had already been planning on making a meme sub since posting memes on r/rezero counted as spam.

Made the sub with u/EducationalService63.

Started posting memes and glazing Regulus.

After three months of posting, I made a rant post talking about my ban in r/Rezero, and a certain part of it was making beako goon jokes. Even though I had already stopped and walked away from those jokes by then.

The “yeah I goon to Beako” or “beako best waifu” jokes are the ones I’m talking about.

People ignored everything and picked up the Beako part. For the next week, they kept bullying me with that info. I went: “You know what? Since everyone is calling me a beako gooner half-heartedly just to tease me, why not vibe with it?”

And just like that, I was there as the number one Beako fan. I made my own limits and followed the rules I made on r/WitchCult moving forward.

The very first “no minors” rule was basically four sections due to the whole lolis thing.

1- Pandora and Capella are not counted as such.

2- Saying anything even mildly sexual about kids like Meili and Petra is completely prohibited.

3- People from 14-16 are allowed to simp after Felt, cause of her age and such but no degenerate shit

4- And most importantly, loli baits being allowed to simp for but no degenerate contact on them at all. Having them in a waifu pool, etc, actual goon posts about them resulted in a ban.

I made the community in the hopes of giving everyone room to breathe under bearable limits.

And just like that, I larped as a soft lolicon for funsies and bullied every other beako simp just in case they were actual lolicons. And it worked.

Moving forward half a year.

New people came, the old people knew of my beako jokes, being sarcastic, and that I don't actually goon to her and was a lolicon.

Not like I said it here https://www.reddit.com/r/Witch\_cult/s/ycfzKv93OA or here https://www.reddit.com/r/Witch\_cult/s/WDQCo2JQhH or here https://www.reddit.com/r/NaobitoAgendaHQ/s/4eM167Dhti or here https://www.reddit.com/r/WitchCult/s/92tyeIe6n6 (you get the point)

And that made a whole ass war on the sub for a while (you can see it in the WitchCult history book in the pinned post).

A TL;DR: basically, they thought I was an actual lolicon. I showed them I'm not, we had a few exchanges and more, and everything went back to peace.

And truth be told….I never liked Beako all that much. She's barely in my top ten

Now you might be wondering, “Hey, why haven’t you stopped till now?”

And the reason is: I hate change.

I always hated the concept of things evolving over time and people changing…I always wanted the image of the same person every time I face them.

If I saw you as a good person, I want you to stay that way forever….if I saw you as a vile person, never change that view.

So I tried halting that change within me.

The reason I had this gyro PFP was to do a pic with my friend. After his account got banned, I kept it.

I didn't give a damn about SBR at this point; I had a JoJo pfp despite not being that big a fan.

I kept it…I didn't want to change it, I kept it till now, and will keep having it.

And everything new I do, I stick to it and don't change it. I refuse to change it.

Because my initial intuition is always correct, even the slightest interest I have is always correct, and I prove it.

My first ever agenda was glazing Regulus. I didn't know much about him, nor did I bother because I was a half-larper at that point..

Time passed...

Turns out he's a very well-written character and interesting with regards to his abilities and way of speech.

I had a few agendas from that age and still do for now.

Regulus glazing, which is still doing well till now because he's a very good character...

Rem glazing…

Oh Rem, my sweet rem https://www.reddit.com/r/Witch\_cult/s/Fr2rCm9efU

I didn't care about her much at the start, but I was drawn to her more than Emilia for no reason, and I was proven correct…my intuition was right once again…and it scarred my soul with her image, to the point where I refuse to look at her lustfully.

Anti-half-elf agenda. It's still correct. Emilia is a bum. Fuck you, Emilia. You too, Satella.

And Beako simping…which is a special case…as time passed, I wasn't interested in her genuinely, all because of that very old agenda…perhaps it was because I never picked her up myself and that everyone else pushed me to it…?

As time passed, I became more distant and was slowly making fewer posts about her. The last thread is this daily series, which ends today.

This intuition of mine followed me everywhere I went, in every community, which made me very hated by most.

Especially in the Jujutsu Kaisen fandom, as some of y'all know, they love using my past to frame me as a pedo. I ignore it for everyone else’s sake. Cause the best reply to a fool is silence.

But now, some people try to use that same tactic to justify gooning to Rezero kids without even trying to paint it as a joke.

…

I have 2 things I value on my level: the people who are helpful to me, and this sub-Reddit

I wasted hours...

Days...

Weeks...

Months...

And even years of my life cultivating this place into what it is rn. To the point where I forgot why I even made it, and had others reminding me.

I won't let it be ruined due to my mistakes…not again.

Even if I'm forced to change…even if it meant throwing one of my very first agendas away for the sake of this domain of mine…

Quite ironic, isn’t it? The guy who hates changing to his very core is changing on multiple levels now.

I'm now 17, I guess I should treat myself as an adult and let go of things I held onto for very long…things that harmed me and others around me…things that ruined my mentality, things that caused me to not sleep well.

Heh. What a joke

A few people made this place fun for me…for a while, at least.

u/EducationalService63 and u/tuff_sigma67, who I built this community with from the start, both are barely active now…guess that's another change in them I need to accept.

u/Amada--Sama the bum, who we met from my very first fanfic, which was mid, this editor who goes into dramas with people, and I'm forced to get involved because he's a bum, as we all know. (Editor’s note: Fuck you)

I…had fun.

And u/lovely_nun for always commenting under my daily posting and having my back on other subs.

Always “not as wholesome as you forever-kun”... And liking me for being an amazing person.

But I'm not a good or an amazing person; I'm a horrible person in every way.

So prideful... I place my intuition and ideas above all. Viewing others’ opinions as less than worthy of my attention.

So wrathful. I always argue with people online, leaving groups of angry people behind without a second glance.

So greedy, I can't get enough of being surrounded by others, arguing or agreeing, and it's never enough for me.

So gluttonous. I can't fill the void of self-understanding by myself, and need others to be the judge…having 6 different personalities for each person to adapt to their way of talking and wanting them to understand me.

So lustful, my desire to grow this place overpowered my passion for being a rezero fan. (Editor’s note: Niqqa, you ain’t slick. I have a record of every gay reel you sent me on insta).

So envious. I can only see those who are liked for their unique takes, and wishing I could become more popular for that rather than simply for my identity as the owner.

So slothful…I didn't even bother changing.

Whenever I question if I'm a good person, I always say yes, I know deep down that I'm wrong…But I need to keep my ego, or else all of the hate would pile on me, shattering it and turning it into depression. And I won't allow myself to be genuinely sad because of the internet.

You are a good person, u/lovely_nun, and a very kind and nice one of that from all i know…I don't know why we keep doing this act, but I hope you can see me like this, the worthless person who you said was amazing.

The same person who doesn't bother changing anything with his life, and when pushed, is too lazy to say no.

Your comments and posts brought me an odd feeling of joy. Having someone constantly going after my account only to support and have my back is new.

I'm used to people stalking my account to hate me…or stalk it to find reasons to accuse me of things.

Yet you were a special case in between all that…and I don't deserve any of that from you or anyone else…I need to change, I want to change, but I can't truly change myself just yet to be anything better than a pathetic, random person on the internet who wanders around.

I don't deserve any of that around me

Special mention of u/Slight-Reporter-1878, who has a raging boner for hating me and spreading the false rumour of me being a pedo everywhere I go.

I'm still me after all, I don't know which me exactly, but I'm still u/the_forever_wild who promised everyone to stay wild forever.

holy shit, y'all proved his point. Fucking hell there isn't that much yaoi to begin with. Y'all just wanted a reason to hate and act like chuds💔

https://archiveofourown.org/works/68839481/chapters/228459246

Forever wild is actually complex as hell.

His view of things is different from others; the only judgment for what he sees is logic and how useful it would be.

From his pride in being above most people with his reputation to his fear of losing those who are useful to him.

He views a person based on how much they can benefit them. If you can draw, write, protect, and support, he views you as someone to keep close, as if those who hold no use would simply be discarded and ignored.

His nature is complex because he adapts to whoever he engages. He makes use of his MPD to interact with all those across the internet, without remorse for the bluntness of his words.

You see him as a bad person, another sees him as the best, another sees him as a normal n*gga, and some try to understand his mentality and what he actually believes in. Of course, they inevitably fail in the end.

The way he determines if you are worth keeping around or not depends on the first few interactions you had with him, whether you're hostile, useful, both, or neither.

His basic nature is nice and neutral till provoked, upon which the rest of his personality is built. Even if you hate or love him, you must admit he's very complex.

You know who I'm talking about...