u/Angelic_d011

Title says it all. So i have only had one job which wasn't even a proper job because the guy was really dodgy and paid in cash plus he paid my shift like a week later. I only worked one day there as a waitress and did not even get a break. It was basically child labour ngl because most of the other workers there were students too (i was 17 at that time)

Anyways i never went to uni but i did BTEC adult college courses for childcare, art, travel and tourism and i have passed my english, failed maths oops.

I searched for a job for a whole year before doing my study for childcare but never found one. I am now searching for a job before i go to uni in september because it would be good to earn some money for myself and incase i really need to move out due to personal stuff i have to hide from my family otherwise they could disown me or pressure me into not being able to be myself. ik that sounds really dramatic but it is a possibility which is why i am really desperate for a job.

i applied for many but they all say no or they ask for refrences and i have none... please help i am 21 and i feel so depressed and overwhelmed. i am trying my best to look for jobs suitable for me.

So i am going to explain why i think this. Firstly i noticed most people i feel comftable with or end up having close friendships with are neurodivergent. My ex best friend had dyslexia (i also think she may have had NPD or BPD but im not sure-) and my current best friend has ADHD and autism.

My family seem to think i am autistic because i do not fit in and i have some social anxiety. I was ranting to my best friend about how bad my procrastination is. That i will tell myself i will do something like laundry but then do not do it for so long even though i keep telling myself i will and i keep feeling guilty about not doing it. She said she also relates and when we were talking about stuff she said i might have ADHD.

I also have really bad memory and get distracted easily and find it hard to process information or learn new things. Like i get overwhelmed when there is something everyone understands but i have no idea about it and i keep overthinking about it and feel the need to know it well.

Anyways i really do not understand what i could have but i just have a feeling i might be neurodivergent.

Also some of my family members are; my brother is autistic and my other brother has learning difficulties. oh and my parents are cousins soo....

So i am going to explain why i think this. Firstly i noticed most people i feel comftable with or end up having close friendships with are neurodivergent. My ex best friend had dyslexia (i also think she may have had NPD or BPD but im not sure-) and my current best friend has ADHD and autism.

My family seem to think i am autistic because i do not fit in and i have some social anxiety. I was ranting to my best friend about how bad my procrastination is. That i will tell myself i will do something like laundry but then do not do it for so long even though i keep telling myself i will and i keep feeling guilty about not doing it. She said she also relates and when we were talking about stuff she said i might have ADHD.

I also have really bad memory and get distracted easily and find it hard to process information or learn new things. Like i get overwhelmed when there is something everyone understands but i have no idea about it and i keep overthinking about it and feel the need to know it well.

Anyways i really do not understand what i could have but i just have a feeling i might be neurodivergent.

Also some of my family members are; my brother is autistic and my other brother has learning difficulties. oh and my parents are cousins soo....

i am 21 from England and looking for some writer or creative friends. I have a hype fixation with a story i plan to write and make into a comic someday, i love yapping about my characters i made and also have drawn some of them.

If you would like, i can yapp about them on voice chat and i would also like some professional or expert writing advice.

i am 21 from England and looking for some writer or creative friends. I have a hype fixation with a story i plan to write and make into a comic someday, i love yapping about my characters i made and also have drawn some of them.

If you would like, i can yapp about them on voice chat and i would also like some professional or expert writing advice.

Okay so i have been daydreaming many years about this fantasy/adventure/action story in my head about magical flowers that grown once every 200 years when they do grow there are certain people picked who are meant to be destined for the flower. This means that the people destined for the flower, they can use it's full magic and strength but also any ordinary person can use the flowers magic or strength. okay i'm waffeling too much about the story..

So in the story there are a group of friends who represent the flowers and they need to collect all the flowers before the main villain and the villain's followers do. These are the characters who represent the flowers: Brownie (also the MC),Freddie, Jee(freddie's brother),Bella, Sam,Stella,Elvira.

then there is also more characters on the side, who help these heros, they are; Leo,Raya,Ayame,Iko,Max,Marson,Poonya,Esmiray.

I got really attached to these characters and loved working on their personality and adding depth to their character however i realised i had too many characters and now i think i might have to delete some, perhaps 1-3. But i also did delete 3 characters before so... i really do not want to delete any characters since i already gave them some depth and feel attached to them 😞 what shall i do? is there anything else i can do? i was thinking perhaps i should make the story a bit longer or something idk-

Okay so i have been daydreaming many years about this fantasy/adventure/action story in my head about magical flowers that grown once every 200 years when they do grow there are certain people picked who are meant to be destined for the flower. This means that the people destined for the flower, they can use it's full magic and strength but also any ordinary person can use the flowers magic or strength. okay i'm waffeling too much about the story..

So in the story there are a group of friends who represent the flowers and they need to collect all the flowers before the main villain and the villain's followers do. These are the characters who represent the flowers: Brownie (also the MC),Freddie, Jee(freddie's brother),Bella, Sam,Stella,Elvira.

then there is also more characters on the side, who help these heros, they are; Leo,Raya,Ayame,Iko,Max,Marson,Poonya,Esmiray.

I got really attached to these characters and loved working on their personality and adding depth to their character however i realised i had too many characters and now i think i might have to delete some, perhaps 1-3. But i also did delete 3 characters before so... i really do not want to delete any characters since i already gave them some depth and feel attached to them 😞 what shall i do? is there anything else i can do? i was thinking perhaps i should make the story a bit longer or something idk-

So idk if anyone else noticed or feels this same way, but i noticed in some "comedy" or "thriller" films there is a sorta misogynistic way they potray female victims or characters when it comes to those characters facing violence. I really do not know how to explain it but i feel this strongly, it is almost like they mock the woman that is in distress or try make the audience laugh at them. For example; a movie potraying a woman who's hair is set on fire and she starts screaming and running around like crazy, i feel like they would try portray it in a more comedic way then tragic. It just feels misogynist.

title says it all, i had joined dm servers on discord to try make more female friends online but all i got was dms from males and even though i hate males i still tried to be nice and tried to befriend them but they all ended up weird or annoyed me. Some were dry and then would call me dry when they are dry themselves, some would be weird and creepy asking for pics of myself, some would say they are nice and chill but then randomly give me their rude and unwanted opinion , men need to learn to stfu for once in their life.

that is why i really just want more female friends online but i struggle so bad with socialising and always have my whole life. Whenever i try to talk to women it feels like they do not wanna talk to me and i never know what to say!! argh! i wish i had better social skills, i feel so lonely ..