u/Apart-Block8656

So this is my second time having dreams of my girlfriend cheating with my friend. Basically, in real life, before I dated her, me and my friend both tried getting with her. She rejected him because he wasn’t her type, but she said if she dated his race, she’d date someone who looks like him. Later on, we started dating, and I could tell my friend was jealous.

Whenever I had to go to class, they’d both be alone in the dorm. She claims she was always asleep, but one time I woke up and they were both awake. I don’t know what they were doing, but they were both up. For the most part, whenever I got back, she’d be asleep, but he’d show her embarrassing videos of me while I was in the shower and stuff, and I didn’t like it.

One time she was showing me her nails, and he asked to see them. He grabbed her hand to look at them. Another time, when I got out of the shower, I had made her cover herself up beforehand, and he asked her, “Why’d you cover up your ass?” She said, “Apparently it’s out.”

The week she was leaving to move out of the dorm, I told my roommate I wanted private time with my girlfriend, so I asked if he could stay with his girlfriend for the week. Normally he sleeps in her room anyway, but he stayed the whole time and laughed about it. Then I asked my girlfriend why he was doing that, and she said he was probably jealous.

Now fast forward to the dreams. In the first one, I grabbed his phone and saw that she had snapped him nudes. In the second dream, she cheated blatantly in front of me in some room, and both dreams felt super real.

When I confronted her, she told me she had unadded him a while back when he had a girlfriend. I can’t lie, I did accuse her a couple of times, and she got upset. Then she said, “Is he or his friends saying they got with me?”

So I don’t know. It’s just a hard situation overall, and it’s genuinely ruining my mental health because I’m not getting any answers. (She has loved me better than anyone i’ve ever been with though and is very patient with me )

if you have any please comment or dm me

So basically, when I first met my girlfriend, we went from saying we were going to be "fuck buddies" to becoming great friends. But when I finally met her in person, my friend and I were trying to two-man her, and she didn't do it because she said she didn't like white guys. So fast forward we started dating months later after we fell for each otha then i started realizing my homie tryna impress her so she was showing me her nails and he asked to see and came up and grabbed her hand which i should’ve smacked the fuck out him and then he would show her embarrassing videos of me as a pledge and shit when i was in the shower and on top of that the week she was moving out he stayed in the dorm the whole night instead of going to his gfs dorm and i couldn’t have private time with her until the last two days cause her roomate left and i asked her why he was doing that and she said he’s probally jealous and then i started peeping but i asked her if she got with em or sum like that and she didn’t get mad until i kept asking which i was being annoying icl and she was going thru a lot and then she said what do you want me to do🤦🏼‍♀️ i explained everything how i remember it, i told you ion fw them, ion don’t got anyone of them on snap, i told you i was w you and only you and on ur side. “ and then she said “are they saying they got with me ????” and i said no apart of me feels like half of it is my anxiety and overthinking and also realizing my own homie is jealous and he tries talking black even tho he’s not raised like that at all and any time i say something he says he did the same thing too and even my gf said he looks up to me and stuff and copies me and stuff and her energy didn’t change or nun like she never denied sex with me actually we started doing it more and she had my kid but it was a miscarriage ( also he always tryna be around her like i told him im picking her up from work and he asked to come and ask me to invite her now sometimes it’s when he’s wit his gf and stuff but one night i was tryna sleep with her and he wouldn’t leave the room and the he left and came back said hey to her not me and then after left )

So before I went to sleep, and before I start this, I have really bad anxiety. I was hanging with a friend who I used to be close with, but now I’ve got this weird energy with him. I thought he got with my girl, who has never dated his race before, but I also realized he was jealous of me and etc.

Later, I had a dream that me and him got high in the dorms (which we did in real life) and then ran around this big parking garage looking building. Then we went everywhere with the people we used to hang out with and etc. Later, the high wore off and we left, then I went to the dorm scene and I was talking to my gf and she was ignoring me. Then my friend came over and I staged his phone before the dream ended and I checked his phone and they were texting.

Now the only reason I don’t think she did is because one when I asked her she didn’t get all defensive and treated it as if she was telling the truth and then even asked me if any of them were claiming they were and seemed pretty pissed about it so idk.

And during the era I was smoking and etc, I was going through this bad, bad, bad depression and thinking she went against me made it worse, but I had a feeling it was all in my head and I have bad anxiety. And he told me that when i would shower in the dorm she would ask if i had got high and etc she use to buy me stuff and etc and deadass take care of me idk if she’d actually do it but

need it quick

i’m broke but please

i want this song sampled and it would make me famous

please

Can someone please mix and master my song

So a couple days ago, I first started cutting, and it helped a lot. But I ended up moving back home out of my dorm, and I already want to go back, not because of my family, just because I’m so depressed and I don’t want them to see me like that. My grades went to shit, and if I find out I can’t come back next semester, I’ll be hurt even worse and probably end it all, to be honest, because it feels like I don’t have much longer left and probably only one person cares.

I also told my girlfriend, and she keeps getting overwhelmed, so I just stopped telling her. My mom called me two days ago, and I lied, saying I was good, and hearing how happy she was to hear that hurt more. I’m abusing substances like crazy and might switch to pills now.

couldn’t stop crying and decided to do it it works and it is addicting but why does my arm sting so bad

So basically, when I first met my girlfriend, we went from saying we were going to be "fuck buddies" to becoming great friends. But when I finally met her in person, my friend and I were trying to two-man her, and she didn't do it because she said she didn't like white guys. Then later, she said that if she did date white guys, she would want him to look like my friend.

A while later, we started dating. One time, I told her to cover up her ass, and she did. When I went to the bathroom and came out, I overheard him asking, "Why did he make you cover up your ass?" and she said, "Apparently it's out." Then they got quiet when I walked in. I said, "Why are you worried about my girl's ass?" and he didn't say anything.

Later, she came over and was showing me her nails, and he came over, grabbed her hand softly, and was looking at them. I was pissed off. Then I'd have to go to class, and they'd be alone in the dorm together for an hour or two because she would say the night and didn't have class, and the dorm would usually be locked, even though I unlocked it.

She also doesn't have him on social media but has his other friend on there and she said she unadded my roomate after she found out he was dating some girl.

And when i vent to her about him and the shit he does she never fully goes against him she just says he's probably jealous but beats around the bush

and she also started listening to songs of the artist he loves they randomly got in her playlist and she never listened to it before

and before she moved out the dorms that whole week he took forever to leave the dorm and would stay the night some nights instead of going to his girl and it would piss me off and i told my gf and she said “he’s doing it on purpose and he’s probably jealous “

and when i asked her if she fucked the roomate or his friend ( to be fair two of them are chopped ) she said “what do you want me to do🤦🏼‍♀️ i explained everything how i remember it, i told you ion fw them, ion don’t got anyone of them on snap, i told you i was w you and only you and on ur side. if i could go back and change it w the info ik now i would but i can’t. i mean idk what else you want”

So basically, when I first met my girlfriend, we went from saying we were going to be “fuck buddies” to becoming great friends. When I finally met her in person, my friend and I were trying to two-man her, but she didn’t go for it because she said she didn’t like white guys. Later, she said that if she did date white guys, she would want one who looked like my friend.

After a while, we started dating. One time, I told her to cover up her ass, and she did. When I went to the bathroom and came back, I overheard him asking, “Why did he make you cover up your ass?” and she said, “Apparently it’s out.” Then they got quiet when I walked in. I asked him, “Why are you worried about my girl’s ass?” and he didn’t say anything.

Later, she came over and was showing me her nails. He came up, grabbed her hand softly, and started looking at them. That pissed me off. Sometimes I’d have to go to class, and they’d be alone in the dorm for an hour or two because she would stay the night and didn’t have class. The dorm would usually be locked, even though I unlocked it.

She doesn’t have him on social media, but she does have his friend added. She said she removed my roommate after finding out he was dating someone.

When I vent to her about him and the stuff he does, she never fully takes my side. She just says he’s probably jealous and kind of beats around the bush.

She also started listening to songs by an artist he likes. Those songs randomly showed up in her playlist, even though she never listened to that artist before.

Before she moved out of the dorms, that whole week he would take forever to leave and would even stay the night sometimes instead of going to his own girlfriend. It annoyed me, and when I told my girlfriend, she said, “He’s doing it on purpose, and he’s probably jealous.”

When I asked her if she ever hooked up with my roommate or his friend, she said, “What do you want me to do? I explained everything how I remember it. I told you I don’t mess with them. I don’t have any of them on Snap. I told you I was with you and only you and on your side. If I could go back and change it with the info I know now, I would, but I can’t. I don’t know what else you want.” tl;dr am i crazy for thinking my gf is cheating

So basically me and her met on snap and agreed to be fuckbuddies at first but then over time we became friends and then she got a bf because she loves football players and one day she randomly texted me saying she lost her anal virginity and then i asked her if she was good and if it hurt and she said a little and etc but then me and her started fucking each other while they were tg and then they broke up but once me and her got together it was good and then she said she texted her ex to come get his hoodie i was pretty pissed off about that and then later i’d try anal and she never would let me which is cool i understand it’s her body but what upsets me is now she’s saying she never did it with him and stuff . And i keep getting this feeling that’s she’s cheating