u/ArcheronMission

holy fuck I literally ruined my friends love life I'm so pissed at myself. He's such a nice guy but he's so autistic and quiet he has such low confidence and he always believed that no one would like him. I'm so fucking stupid I went and talked to the girl he liked and I befriended her and a few hours ago when I was showing him my merch he just suddenly told me 'I think I could have had a chance with (name) if I didn't tell you.'

holy shit I'm so fucking stupid I messed up his chance like I was talking to her on a school trip and she told me 'yeah, I was like, honored that he liked me, but I just didn't feel the same' but I still feel so bad. I'm so sorry but i don't know what to do he won't accept my apology, he just says its okay you don't have to be sorry. I'm so fucking stupid

one of my friends is a huge fucking asshole. I literally can't do anything because he's such a big part of my friend group and he's like one of those people who are friends with everyone. it's so fucking annoying I can't ignore him because he'll just spam my name or make it a big thing where he bas

basically announces that I'm being a bitch.

He literally frames me as a bitch like every time I get pissed at him he asks me if I'm on my period like I've told him I don't like him and I don't want to be around him but he takes it like I'm joking and then complains to our friends that I'm a horrible person and I'm mean to him.

Last week we all went to a barbecue and we were talking about how we should go to the mainland to have fun for like 2 days (Mainland China) and we were discussing sleeping arrangements. That night, not even a day later, genuine HOURS after our conversation, he starts going on a rant about how I'm a horrible person and I treat him badly. A direct quote 'honestly, I feel bad for everyone around (name). But mainly I feel bad for myself.' and my friend who's mostly on my side asked him why he's still my friend if he has so many complaints and he said he cares about the friendship a lot and he doesn't want to let go of it. Literally what.

Obviously he doesn't, like what kind of asshole thinks they're important enough that they can complain I'm a horrible person and DEMAND I change for them?? I actually don't know what to do he legit gaslit me to the point I don't even know if I'm actually in the wrong like ik what he's doing is bad but am I really being so hurtful to him that he's actually the victim?

I know every story has two sides but I literally have been trying to change for him but all he does is complain. All I can do is try and ignore him. I can't stress this enough I HATE him so much he makes my life miserable I want to cry when I spend time with him because EVERY conversation we have leads to him making some kind of statement that frames me as a bitch or a horrible person

Like ik he thinks it's funny but really, is it? Is he really that fucking pathetic he has to ask me out loud 'oh are you on your period, haha?' in order to make the group laugh? it's so fucking obvious I don't find it funny. I don't even enjoy his presence mildly like he used to be one of my closest friends but he's actually so fucking horrible I don't even know if I'm in the wrong anymore. I genuinely want to stop being around him but I can't I want horrible things to happen to him and the worst part is I don't feel sorry anymore.

If anything, he made me into the person he hates the most by constantly reminding me what I am.

I don't feel empathy.

I really dont feel any empathy, and I've avoided thinking about it and talking about it especially because it really sounds like I'm trying to be tough like 'I don't feel emotions. I'm a psychopath.' but the more I think about it I really dont care about a lot of things I probably should care about.

I know I'm not a psychopath because I do feel emotions, just very minimal when it's to other people.

My friends made a list on all the things they hate about me and I cried, but then I just didn't care. I know they wanted me to change for the better, but I really couldn't be bothered. I haven't cared about a lot in a while, even when bad things happened to other people, I just feel pissed because they're telling me about it.

For example, I was talking to a friend while playing games, and he suddenly started talking about how he was hurt by my words and actions because I was being mean to him, but all I cared about was how annoying he sounded and how he wasn't performing well in game. I think in really selfish because I don't care about things if they don't affect me. Like I'll be worried if someone thinks I'm a bad person, but only because it affects my reputation. Does that make me a bad person? I guess, but then again, if I tell someone, they'll think I'm horrible or they'll say a bunch of stuff about me and I genuinely can't be bothered. I don't even want to reply to people. I don't care what they have to say if they're not going to affect what other people think of me, but I'm posting because I'm worried. Is this normal? is it because I'm depressed or because I'm autistic?

I really dont feel any empathy, and I've avoided thinking about it and talking about it especially because it really sounds like I'm trying to be tough like 'I don't feel emotions. I'm a psychopath.' but the more I think about it I really dont care about a lot of things I probably should care about.

I know I'm not a psychopath because I do feel emotions, just very minimal when it's to other people.

My friends made a list on all the things they hate about me and I cried, but then I just didn't care. I know they wanted me to change for the better, but I really couldn't be bothered. I haven't cared about a lot in a while, even when bad things happened to other people, I just feel pissed because they're telling me about it.

For example, I was talking to a friend while playing games, and he suddenly started talking about how he was hurt by my words and actions because I was being mean to him, but all I cared about was how annoying he sounded and how he wasn't performing well in game. I think in really selfish because I don't care about things if they don't affect me. Like I'll be worried if someone thinks I'm a bad person, but only because it affects my reputation. Does that make me a bad person? I guess, but then again, if I tell someone, they'll think I'm horrible or they'll say a bunch of stuff about me and I genuinely can't be bothered. I don't even want to reply to people. I don't care what they have to say if they're not going to affect what other people think of me, but I'm posting because I'm worried. Is this normal? is it because I'm depressed or because I'm autistic? (I'm diagnosed professionally, not asking for a diagnosis)

hi, to all other minors in this subreddit, why do you experience the urge to do it with other people? personally, I only remember having the urge once before, and I've never busted. So it's really only something I do like once a week because I think its comfortable, but it's really not an overpowering feeling. I think my sleepiness is actually more intense than my urges. To me, I know I'm way too young for doing it with other people, so why do my peers or other people (14-16) feel the need to do it with others? Genuinely curious, not shaming anyone for how old they were when they did it.

side note : am I too young to bust or is there something wrong with me? (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑) ik other people my age are able to bust and I'm physically unable to. am I not trying hard enough?