u/Available-You8416

If anyone recognizes me i use to post a lot about said ex and everything he done to me. groomed me, manipulated me, and still to this day iv been made to feel like everything i do is wrong. we both loved each other very dearly and made a lot of plans to get married in the future .
We got back together 2 weeks ago and today we broke up, because he went through my messages with my group chat (my only source of contact with anyone) and saw screenshots of me and his messages , me and my friends talking about how he pushed me off his bike and gave me sepsis and he left me. He said we’re done. i knew i made a bad choir getting back with him and iv honestly never regretted anything more in my life and i genuinely want to kill myself. Being with him i thought woukd break things in me and they did for a while but now im more broken then i thought.
im sick of always thinking im doing it wrong.
I kept trying to grab my phone and because i was , he said “i know im going to find something i know i am!” so i started getting upset and just kept trying to grab my phone. He then threw it and nearly broke it.

i tried to shower but i literally couldn’t. it was painful, i got obe drop of water and i jumped and nearly fell . I put vaseline on it cus i read somewhere that jelly thing help it heal.

I really wanna be a sugar baby and spice my life up a lil. I’m open ✌🏽(18F)