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I can't take living with the constant anxiety, pain & struggle everyday and it feels like it's all for nothing, and there's never any rest or relief, it's just relentless and like there's never any relief. I just feel so overwhelmed by even doing the smallest of things and the world is just so dark I can't cope.

I've not been able to get my prescription for lamotrigine 100mg (once daily) as my doctor has been off sick. Have been off it a few days and still have to wait until Monday. I feel a bit like I have the flu and am emotionally unstable, but I suppose I can endure it...But is it dangerous?

I have BPD, anxiety, ocd and depression and now life is just impossible, even with the best intentions. I still work and always have , have always given all my best in my relationships and never deliberately hurt anyone and sacrificed myself and my needs and mental health etc and taken more than accountability for myself and attempted to end it. I have the resentment and disgust of mental health professionals and even given my savings to go private, but see that us not enough. I won't do anything whilst sober due to the pain it would cause on my family. But I everyday I wish it would end. I know I've exhausted options in terms of medication and DBt is no good for me. I need a miracle, maybe I am just not meant to be in this world I have known that for so long and all there us suffering and misunderstanding from others, but the pain it would cause to my parents, but everyday I just want it to end soon and sleep and hope that will take me. Recently met someone on here too who told me the cruelest things about myself but maybe that's true, maybe I'm the worst.

Last night I missed my dose so took half of it this morning. I've got a weird pressure sensation in my head and kind of dizziness..It seems quite extreme for missing just half a dose?

Also, one night I missed my dose completely and the next day my heart rate was 130, I had terrible anxiety and it was like a weird panic attack. Was this from missing the dose?

I didn't take my clonidine last night so just took half of my dose this morning. I'm feeling a kind of weird dizzy sensation and pressure in my head. Is this just from not having had the full dose?

Also when I've skipped it one night before, my heart rate was 130 and it felt like i was having a weird panic attack the next day?

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So I have BPD, anxiety, depression and OCD. I've had 4 breakdowns in the last decade and long deep debilitating episodes of depression with hardly any breaks in between.

I'm out of the worst of my depression in that I don't feel suicidal nearly as much, am taking a bit better care of myself and going out slightly more. However, there's still a way to go and I just have no energy or motivation for anything. My job exhausts me and takes more out of the bank than I have and then I can't wait to finish so i can go back to bed. I want to sleep to escape most of the time, and also due to feeling so drained like I have nothing left & just want to stare at the walls.

I'm not really excited by anything anymore, I used to love watching my shows, but just don't have it in me anymore to make the effort to concentrate. I can't remember the last time I had motivation and drive.

I'm trying DBT, I've just started distress tolerance, but finding it hard with my lack of motivation, the constant stress from work and living with my parents.

The loneliness of being single at nearly 40 is also so agonising, as well as having to grieve the life I will never have, but had always dreamt of. I'm on medication too, but feeling like there's no hope if none of this is working & I don't have the strength/ energy in me to make massive changes myself.

I'm just so mentally exhausted from everything all the time. For the last few years my favourite thing to do is sleep and daydream & it's mainly all I want to do. I haven't even been able to follow a TV series for years as I just don't have the energy for anything anymore...

So I have BPD, anxiety, depression and OCD. I've had 4 breakdowns in the last decade and long deep debilitating episodes of depression with hardly any breaks in between.

I'm out of the worst of my depression in that I don't feel suicidal nearly as much, am taking a bit better care of myself and going out slightly more. However, there's still a way to go and I just have no energy or motivation for anything. My job exhausts me and takes more out of the bank than I have and then I can't wait to finish so i can go back to bed. I want to sleep to escape most of the time, and also due to feeling so drained like I have nothing left & just want to stare at the walls.

I'm not really excited by anything anymore, I used to love watching my shows, but just don't have it in me anymore to make the effort to concentrate. I can't remember the last time I had motivation and drive.

I'm trying DBT, I've just started distress tolerance, but finding it hard with my lack of motivation, the constant stress from work and living with my parents. The loneliness of being single at nearly 40 is also so agonising, as well as having to grieve the life I will never have, but had always dreamt of. I'm on medication too, but feeling like there's no hope if none of this is working & I don't have the strength/ energy in me to make massive changes myself.

So I have BPD, anxiety, depression and OCD. I've had 4 breakdowns in the last decade and long deep debilitating episodes of depression with hardly any breaks in between.

I'm out of the worst of my depression in that I don't feel suicidal nearly as much, am taking a bit better care of myself and going out slightly more. However, there's still a way to go and I just have no energy or motivation for anything. My job exhausts me and takes more out of the bank than I have and then I can't wait to finish so i can go back to bed. I want to sleep to escape most of the time, and also due to feeling so drained like I have nothing left & just want to stare at the walls.

I'm not really excited by anything anymore, I used to love watching my shows, but just don't have it in me anymore to make the effort to concentrate. I can't remember the last time I had motivation and drive.

I'm trying DBT, I've just started distress tolerance, but finding it hard with my lack of motivation, the constant stress from work and living with my parents. The loneliness of being single at nearly 40 is also so agonising, as well as having to grieve the life I will never have, but had always dreamt of. I'm on medication too, but feeling like there's no hope if none of this is working & I don't have the strength/ energy in me to make massive changes myself.

When sober I won't do it fue to the effects on others. I live withBPD, anxiety, depression, ocd and probably CPTSD..! And everyday hurts now that I'm 38 and little chance to meet someone and have kids now..so my whole life dreams are shattered. What do I do? I've tried giving my life to helping others and it just backfires on me..I live with my parents at nearly 40 and in debt and feel embarrassed and humiliated by my circumstances, but more than so sad at the loss of the life I will never have...and so far from it, not even meaning in this one, I've tried helping others with everything I have and all ends up backfiring..I really feel not mad for this earth, but have to stay for my parents.

It's so painful 💔

It's so hard to go without some form of affection for so long, it hurts. How do we get over or in some soothe this? We are all humans at the end of the day. When you've had multiple failed relationships and then covid and lockdown and now face how this world is, its cruel and so hard.

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I have BPD, anxiety and depression. I live in a constant state of fight or flight and am always on edge & have to live like this everyday. Lately my job has got 10× more stressful and I have been trying to sort out my debt which has become out of control & live with my parents who just add to it all and complicate my problems and multiply my anxiety. I keep losing it and shouting at my dad because he just doesn't listen and I have to tell him everything like 4 times and it feels like hitting my head against a brick wall. I'm trying to do weekly DBT, but honestly finding it so hard. Recently my stress is getting to me physically, I get high BP, palpitations, pressure in my head and feel sick. I just want to break down and cry and feel i can never recover as the weekend is too short. What should I do,.I keep losing my cool and shouting and feel like acting out in those moments?

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I have BPD, anxiety and depression. I live in a constant state of fight or flight and am always on edge & have to live like this everyday. Lately my job has got 10× more stressful and I have been trying to sort out my debt which has become out of control & live with my parents who just add to it all and complicate my problems and multiply my anxiety. I keep losing it and shouting at my dad because he just doesn't listen and I have to tell him everything like 4 times and it feels like hitting my head against a brick wall. I'm trying to do weekly DBT, but honestly finding it so hard. Recently my stress is getting to me physically, I get high BP, palpitations, pressure in my head and feel sick. I just want to break down and cry and feel i can never recover as the weekend is too short. What should I do,.I keep losing my cool and shouting and feel like acting out in those moments?

I have BPD, anxiety and depression. I live in a constant state of fight or flight and am always on edge & have to live like this everyday. Lately my job has got 10× more stressful and I have been trying to sort out my debt which has become out of control & live with my parents who just add to it all and complicate my problems and multiply my anxiety. I keep losing it and shouting at my dad because he just doesn't listen and I have to tell him everything like 4 times and it feels like hitting my head against a brick wall. I'm trying to do weekly DBT, but honestly finding it so hard. Recently my stress is getting to me physically, I get high BP, palpitations, pressure in my head and feel sick. I just want to break down and cry and feel i can never recover as the weekend is too short. What should I do,.I keep losing my cool and shouting and feel like acting out in those moments?