I miss you so much; so so much. I am sorry my BPD cost our friendship. I'll do better I promise. I swear to you I won't spiral on you anymore. I'm sobbing over losing you; you were everything to me. I'll strive to be your best friend; to support you.
Please come back. Please.
I cannot live without you.
Im a female turning 21 yrs old and i feel like my BPD rn is in full trajectory. I don't know how to explain it other that i feel like i am going insane. My mind feels like its glitching moving back and forth between different thoughts too fast and everything is very upsetting and i am unfortunately being very reactive as well. Tje grounding techniques and other skills from DBT are not helping and i feel like i am about to crash and stop working like a computer
👋🏼 hi! So 2018 I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in conjunction with bipolar type 1, generalized anxiety disorder, & ptsd. 2019 It got so bad I was in active psychosis. I hated my life, I lied like I was being paid for it, abused marijuana and alcohol, I felt hallow; if that makes sense. I wanted to feel good. So I picked my poison.
2019 the facade ended. I was hospitalized for nearly a month, took time off of work to heal. Did partial hospitalization, group therapy, individual therapy DBT, & CBT,med management monthly, & a case worker. I was on 7 different cocktails and 2026 finally on life changing meds and a therapist I have a rapport with and who will support me but call me out.
All to say, my psychiatrist and therapist both said they don’t see symptoms of bpd any longer. I’ve worked so hard to get here. Does anyone have a similar story or can relate? How’d you find hope? What made you straighten up? How’d you get over the stigma?
I think initially in my 20’s I was fearful of being stigmatized but there really is hope ☺️.
me and my FP have had a very rocky relationship since 2024 we ended things romantically august 24 but still engage sexually and platonically things have gotten worse the past few months usually due his frustration of dealing with my breakdowns. he blocks me and unblocks me as he needs space and i struggle to leave him but this time things seem more serious i’ve decided i should leave him alone for two weeks so i can deal with my issues and so he can have some space i know we will bounce back as we always do however i really want to change and we had a really bad argument and he was adamant on being left alone which i did after a lot of back of forth. i was wondering should i let him know i will be back in two weeks or just say nothing then message him in two weeks (currently blocked but i have another account he knows i have multiple accounts so the message wont be a surprise) also how can i manage my bpd without getting therapy and meds i am working on that but its a long process please give me tips in the mean time hes an amazing person and unfortunately my bpd has lead him to frustration and hes been pretty mean lately what can i do to improve things any help would be appreciated
Researching BPD “cringe moments” where a DBT/grounding skill actually worked.
Not asking for trauma. Just: the embarrassing moment + the 10-second thing that helped.
Examples:
- Spiraling over a text. Skill: “Check the facts.” Flicker: They were just at work.
- Panic in store. Skill: Cold water on wrists. Flicker: Could walk to checkout.
- Convinced friend hated me. Skill: “Opposite action” - texted a meme anyway. Flicker: They laughed.
Yours? 1-2 sentences: Moment + skill that flickered.
Rules: No graphic details. No names. DMs off. Anonymous. Just for research.
Drop your “cringe + skill” moment below.
Hey All!
I have wanted to make an age 30+ Discord because it’s something I need and if I need it, others probably do too.
I had joined one with mostly 20 year olds a little over a month ago and I could not relate to them at all or receive proper support. People in their late teens, 20s and those that are 30+ grew up with different cultural environments and societal norms. We are at different milestones, levels of responsibility and maturity on average.
I want this to be a truly healing place where we share tips and tricks, have fun and support each other on harder days and in harder moments. A little venting is okay, but not too much, since we are not clinicians. Please be in recovery and able to follow basic/ reasonable guidelines that any standard Discord has.
I have never had my own server before and would love help, moderators, advice etc.
I would also like to gauge interest.
I have created the channel, there’s just nothing on it right now. I will be building it out all this week.
Please leave a comment on this post if interested and I will DM the link when it’s ready.
Edit: I have now begun sending the link in DM!
Edit2: If you use this post as a venting space or attempt to derail it in anyway, I will not let you in the Discord because at that point you have proven that you cannot or will not follow basic directions. Thanks!
I was a gestational surrogate with a successful delivery in 2024. I recently decided that I wanted to pursue a second journey while I’m on the right side of 40. During my first journey I went to therapy thinking it was a smart, protective measure. I started seeing the therapist in the third trimester and thru the 4th. Unbeknownst to me she diagnosed me with a couple conditions, borderline personality disorder and social pragmatic communication disorder. This was brought to light when the new agency I wanted to work with did their medical record review.
I’m so frustrated. Mental health diagnoses like that are kryptonite for surrogacy candidates I guess. I’m really not sure what my next step should be, should I just give up this dream of helping someone grow their family?
For those with BPD older and in recovery/remission does it ever get easier?
Does keeping and maintaining a sense of self and good relationships happen?
I am just so desperate for some kind of positive recovery story because I am running out of hope
i am officially dignosed with bpd but i have a feeling that maybe i am bipolar too. i know for a fact that i have bpd so its not about having bipolar instead of bpd and also if im bipolar its probably bipolar II but one psychiatrist said that i have cyclothymia like a year ago so i am really confused. can someone tell me what is it like when someone has both bipolar II and bpd?
I just started my lamictal today and I’m having the worst anxiety about it because I’ve seen on TikTok about people getting SJS and the rash putting them in the ICU. I am prescribed it for bpd and stayed today with 25mg, I just already have bad healths anxiety and I’m nervous. Please does any have any advice or any peace of mind about the medication and how to handle this anxiety. I’ve always been more dizzy and lightheaded today.
I lost the only person i’ve ever loved after a 3 year long relationship. i’m 22 and he was 26 and we had dated for a little while. He was very patient with me kind, gentle, understanding. Things weren’t perfect, but we really loved eachother.
To make a long story short, we broke up and I made it super messy because of my own emotional immaturity. I would keep him from sleeping, I would stop him from leaving, and chase him around. It was abusive and toxic and horrible.
I dont know what the hell is wrong with me in my head, but I hurt him. Even though I can never get him back and i don’t want to be this person forever and I don’t want to lose anyone else.
I want to be a good person who reciprocates the generosity and kindness people around me give.
How can i take the steps from an abusive/toxic individual to a good person?
Any help and advice is welcomed.
I don’t know what to do. I’m on the very verge of crisis.
I feel like I’m playing as someone in my life, and I’m aware of it and it feels really uncomfortable but it’s also the version of me that functions. I eventually feel that part of me start to disconnect and feel unbelievably overwhelmed, and then eventually I don’t exist and then there’s crisis and I have all of these different versions of me talking and the main voice is either gone or unrecognisable. I lose control and it feels like the person of me that has been ‘functioning’ no longer exists. I feel like I’m going to sabotage my life and end my relationship or doing something to myself. I wake up everyday with worsening dread and I know that a breakdown is coming but my awareness of it makes it so hard to allow to happen because I have no professional support and am finding it so hard to access.
I have had appointments with my doctor, phone calls with 111 and private talk therapy, but at that time I was much less aware of my issues and would subconsciously mask through sessions. My therapists were also not specialised in what I know I have going on so I felt I couldn’t be fully honest.
I’m pretty certain I have BPD, and definitely a dissociative problem. I also have OCD and ADHD and feel it could be AuDHD. I have no answers and I feel like I’m going crazy, and the breakdowns are so painful and unbearable without any explanation that hasn’t just come from my own studying.
I don’t know what to do at all. Posting on here is my last resort for advice. I’m going to ruin my life and I need help now. I can’t speak to someone again and be dismissed, it will be my last straw.
Hello everyone. I’ve recently gotten into a relationship, it’s been abit over a month now.
A couple days ago he left his phone with me. Stupidity I got nosey and found photos of his ex. The photos of them together are stuck in my head and everytime I think of them I get filled with anxiety I feel like my brain is about to combust. Obviously it’s very unbearable and I’m not really sure how to move past this. my brain keeps telling me to break up with him because it will be safer and I can’t get hurt.
I would really appreciate any advice on this situation and how to cope.
My best friend (36F) and I (37F) have accidentally started a business. She graduated from Longwood University and then obtained her PhD in Psychology. I went with Education and then earned my Master’s Degree specializing in School Counseling. We lived on total opposite sides of the US and ran into each other at a family friends wedding. Fast forward 2 years, we have decided to test the waters with our own practice, rather than conforming to text-taught, old school, transactional and expensive methods and established local businesses.
We are in the start up process and are looking for feedback, so for now- we are offering free services.
We both come from different walks of life but have lived through addiction, trauma, grief, breakups, and so many relationships.
We are peer mediating and it’s been working.
The approach of joining a Family, not as a therapist or with judgement, but as a friend and mentor.
We have been doing prescreened phone calls as introductions, and gone from there.
It’s actually incredible the success we’ve had and the bonds we’ve made from individuals and families all over the states.
I’d love to hear your feedback and how you think we could help service more people! I was a Life Coach licensed out of Maryland before this journey and I am trying to jump to mediation entirely.
Thanks so much!
C & B
I’m just so angry, I can never not be angry, my moms dead, I’m a pos to my girlfriend, she refers to me as dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde and it hurts me knowing that I hurt her in ways I don’t remember but she tells me and I regret existing most of the time. Why did I have to be this person. Why do I have to be so angry. Why am I here, what purpose do I have that all I do is destroy?