u/BraveJob5998

Im 19, I live with my girlfriend who I have been with for around 5 years. We have decided to split and she is moving out. We're on amazing terms and talk quite a bit. We're best friends. Here's my issue:

Toward the end of the relationship, I found myself developing feelings for a coworker who I found out was actually quite a bit younger than me. She's almost 17, I'm almost 20. I found myself seriously having a crush, and I felt deeply ashamed. I also have severe OCD, so it didn't help me obsess over if I was a creep. Anyway, I opened up to my gf/ex about this because it was weighing on me, and I wanted to be completely honest. She also started to catch on with me staying later at work or taking extra shifts. I am seriously unhappy with myself. Anyway, I decided I wasn't going to act or pursue this because it simply is inappropriate. To my knowledge, and show me if I'm wrong, please. Is that the feelings are out of control, but how I react and act is. I've decided not to act on it. My girlfriend went to her friends and told them, "dude, my boyfriend is hitting on a 15 year old girl." Which, I can't blame her. I understand that to her this feels shitty and she wants to complain to her friends. But her bestfriends boyfriends are my friends. One of them isn't responding to me when I asked to hangout. I assume this is why. And I know it'll get around. I'm ashamed, embarrassed, and I didn't really act on it. So I am worried everyone will get a twisted story and it'll ruin me and how people view me. I already feel incredibly lonely. I have no friends, really beside the 2 that are about to hear this. And I barely see them. I work 2 jobs, and I'm losing my gf. On top of that, thousands of dollars of bills to pay to stay in the apartment, vehicles, etc. I'm really broken right now and need some advice.

I am 19, my life is pretty good. I have my sets of struggles, both with sins and with worldly stuff like relationships, etc. I currently live with my girlfriend, and have a great apartment(ik we shouldn't live together), which I afford well due to having two great jobs, I am obsessed with motorcycles and have 2. My family is amazing, everything I want, I end up getting. It may be to my own detriment. What made me realize this, or ask this question, "why does God bless me so much?" Is this:

It was late, I was riding my new motorcycle, that I had just gotten and traded my car for. My second bike. I popped into a store to grab an energy drink for work tomorrow, and I locked eyes with this man who had an Electric bike. Now, I'm assuming here and don't know his story, but I immediately wanted to cry. I zoomed out and thought: "I'm riding a new motorcycle, a second one at that(no one needs two motorcycles), at 19 years old, and this man is middle aged on an electric bike." Again, I don't know his story , maybe he has 20 motorcycles and he just happened to take his E bike, but the point still stands. Why do I get blessed and some others not so much? I've realized that I need to learn to have more gratitude and humility.

Is there an answer to why this is? And could you guys pray that I might have some humility and gratitude? Also, could I have some prayers to come back to church more? I've been away for a couple years...

I'm 19 and have an R7. I got it a little over a month ago and I love it. I've been riding for a year and my first bike was a R3. Loved that thing. Most of my riding is 5-15 minute rides everyday, and I'm not going to lie, the R7 can feel overkill. People don't consider it a true sportbike, sure, but it's fast as f*** and also uncomfortable. Don't get me wrong, I love it and it's always been my dream bike, but for what I need I need something more economical. My R7 is a blast when me and my friends are getting a little ahead of ourselves and ESPECIALLY in the Twisties. Man that thing corners like a beast. Anyway, I digress. Would a little rebel 300 be dumb to get for a little "errand" bike? I love the look of it, and it sounds like a blast. I found a good one for 3k which I can afford! The 500s are a little more pricey and I don't want to spend that much on a second bike right now. I also am 6ft 200lbs. So I'm wondering if I'll be too big. I've sat on them and felt fine, but not sure. I also won't be doing much highway riding at all. Thoughts?

I just got a pixel 10 base model, coming from an iPhone 15. My dad use to love android and worked on them all the time, but he eventually went to iPhone. I got one to try, and I love it. Everything about it is awesome, but I will say, tiktok runs like pure ass..I'm not sure why, but it is so laggy, and I'd say a solid 30-50 percent of the time, it's so laggy that it gets stuck and I have to restart the app. Nothing about it is fluid, and it's so annoying. I make content on tiktok for fun, and use it alot in my downtime. Is this an android thing? Or is something wrong with my pixel? Everything else is smooth as butter and lightning fast EXCEPT tiktok.

I am struggling the worst I ever have with mental health. I mean really bad. I am currently living with my girlfriend, which has been horrible since our relationship hasn't been very good the past maybe 2-3 years, I struggle to get up and go to work every day, even though i make really good money and balance my two jobs well, I find most days are boring, etc. I don't really know what to write, so I am just going to rant and hope it's cohesive...

I'll start with my girlfriend. We met when I was 12 or 13, and we were best friends immediately. She really liked me on and off, but I just didn't feel the same way. I eventually moved to California when I was 15, and she and her friend would visit and stay with my family every couple weeks. One time, her friend couldn't make it, and it was just her that came up, she stayed in my room, so you can imagine the rest. Long story short, we sat on the beach and decided to give a relationship a shot. It was amazing. There was no rush or honeymoon, she just felt like home. Comfort, care, love, etc. genuinely the best, loving partner you could ask for. She was also very close with my two little sisters, who are my absolute best friends. We did the long distance while I was in California pretty well, and eventually I moved back. After around the 2 year mark, things shifted a bit. We started fighting a lot more, arguing, getting frustrated, etc. Pretty normal for relationships, but as time progressed, it's gotten horrible. It's been 4 years now, and It feels as if we hate each other. We fight everyday, constantly go after each other, find something wrong with the other person, all of the above. I wish I could put into words how toxic things are. It's bad. She's very insecure and struggles with things like: "do you find other women attractive?" "Do you love me?" And to be honest, I feel as if I am too open about finding other women attractive, or going out of my way to say something hurtful just out of resentment. I'm not proud of it. In fact, I hate that I do it, but I find myself being an asshole 99.9 percent of the time, which makes her even more resentful of me, and she becomes an asshole. We're stuck in a loop. After moving in together, shit just went south. Everything is amplified. I have no safe space to retreat to in the apartment, so I spend a lot of my time at my parents house with my family to get away.

It's so sad. I can't believe we got here, and I never imagined we would've been this angry, hateful, and spiteful of each other. I almost feel as if I don't recognize her and she's not the person I started dating 4 years ago.

Besides that, I've been struggling to find any meaning in anything lately. Every day feels like it's on repeat, and I have no drive for anything. The only thing I do in my free time to get away is to ride my motorcycle. Work is hard, balancing tasks is hard, I'm not pulling my weight around the house and I'm leaving a lot of tasks to my girlfriend because I'm depressed, and I want to help out more. I don't want to be that kind of guy.

I find myself conflicted on what to do. Is this relationship not right? Or am I looking for an easy "grass is greener" way out instead of putting in the hard work to better myself and the relationship. I just feel so exhausted and done, and I don't know what to do. I have been having suidical/self harm thoughts, too. Not to be all winey or emo, it's just that's what I'm thinking of because I feel a genuine loss of hope.

I'm sorry if this was just a spew of words, I just need some advice. I also don't want it to seem like my girlfriend is the issue, I've played my part as well, I was just ranting.

What is your guys' advice?

My dad was a huge android guy but eventually switched to iPhone, and I for some reason, wanted to get an android. I've never had one and figured why not try it. I got a pixel 10 maybe 2-3 days ago. It was pretty "laggy" but I realized I was just use to the fluidity of ios. I'm use to that and my dad helped fix it quite a bit with enabling smooth display which I didn't know you could do! Here's my thing, the phone is stupid fast and stupid smooth everywhere, however, on apps like Instagram and tiktok, I'm constantly experiencing lagging, non fluid scrolling, frame drops, and it looks like the videos are at like, 480p. It's very frustrating because I love this phone, but I'm worried this is something I can't fix. How can I solve this?

I have ridden an R3 for a year, and I just bought an R7 yesterday. Fantastic bike. Can’t lie, though, I’ve been having some fun and pushed it twice on the highway. I’ve noticed that at higher speeds, my handle bars jiggle when accelerating and shifting. Not death wobble, just a slight shake/wobble. The front end also feels very light. I let go of the handlebars at 80mph, and no wobble, just kept going straight. Am I just not use to the power and handling of the bike yet? I don’t think anything is wrong with the bike, but it definitely unsettles me. Someone told me I just haven’t gotten use to how light those bikes can feel at high speed, though. What do you guys think?