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I’m 15 years going into sophmore year & I have an autistic brother who’s 6 years old. My brother is very high on the spectrum and he requires a LOT of needs. He harms himself & others, makes loud noises, and overall needs a lot of attention and care.

I have sacrificed a lot for my brother such as my teenage life. I always had to first ask myself “ who would watch …..” “ if it’s on a weekday I can’t go” and “ I need to take him with me”. It’s honestly so mentally draining because all I do is go to school and spend hours watching him and my other 2 siblings. I don’t even have time to do my homework sometimes.

I sometimes blame him and my parents but it’s irreversible. My freshman year I attempted to play softball which was successful but I often had to come home early or all in all not attend because my older sister had work or my parents would not be able to watch him. I was always angry because out of 3 seasons I couldn’t even do 1 season without me having to constantly miss practice.

Now, it’s my SOPHMORE year and I’m trying to play soccer which is a fall sport. The first week is going good because it’s before school thing and practice/tryouts are going from 9-noon.
Now, I looked at my calendar to next week & realized that it would go from 2:30 - 5:00 due to teachers going back to school & practice ending after school when it starts.

Now I’m sad because my brother’s bus comes at 4:00 & I would have to walk 30 minutes back home for that. My mom’s work is at 3:30 - 11:00, my dad’s work differentiates, my sister is in college now, and my younger siblings are still in elementary school and they arrive later.

I do not want to quit soccer, it’s the first time I’ve felt happy and not missing out. What should I do ?

I’m 15 years old going into sophmore year and I’m a girl. I have a Hispanic friend that constantly uses the N-word and makes fun of me but he claims he it’s a joke and it’s a back-and-forth thing, but I’ve never done it to him. For example he makes fun of my ethnicity because I’m a Nigerian such as calling me, Nigerian names and laughing. I have constantly told him that it is not OK for what he’s doing in which he apologizes and says he won’t do it again but it’s been month and nothing has changed. I recently unfriended him, but my sister on the other hand still hung out with him even after I told him what he did to me. The main thing he did was make his friend. Call me a bad word in which his friend proceeded to call me a N-word. That was the last straw and it made me block him and completely block ties with him. My sister said that I was wrong because it wasn’t him who said it and he even apologized, but I don’t really think I wasn’t.

A week ago, my sister kept begging me to be friends with him again in which I had agreed because I got mad with her constantly hanging out with him and she said he wanted to be cool with me.

I unblocked him and followed him in which she sent me a long apology, apologizing for everything he had done in which I accepted.

Now yesterday he messaged me and he said the N-word and I am getting mad again because he never changed even after months and also when I had blocked him, he tried to talk to me the next day in which I ignored him, and I used to say him and talk bad about him, but I feel like it was deserved

AITAH

I am 15F and I feel like my autistic brother has taken away a part of my life. I know it is not his fault but my parents treat me as if I’m his caregiver. I’m practically a full time mom as I spend all my time with her. He requires a lot of responsibility and time which makes me spend so much of my energy on him. I can barely go out with my friends or even study without my parents saying “ who will take care of your brother when you are gone”

I have other siblings but their age range isnt close & my sister is going to college in less than 3 months so I’m scared I will have to take care of my high demand brother + my other 2 siblings.

I catch myself screaming at him often and hating him but I quickly feel bad. I got into a major argument with my mother I dislike due to my autistic brother. I love him but he’s brought so much struggle and guilt that I’m so excited to leave.

I am 15F and I feel like my autistic brother has taken away a part of my life. I know it is not his fault but my parents treat me as if I’m his caregiver. I’m practically a full time mom as I spend all my time with her. He requires a lot of responsibility and time which makes me spend so much of my energy on him. I can barely go out with my friends or even study without my parents saying “ who will take care of your brother when you are gone”

I have other siblings but their age range isnt close & my sister is going to college in less than 3 months so I’m scared I will have to take care of my high demand brother + my other 2 siblings.

I catch myself screaming at him often and hating him but I quickly feel bad. I got into a major argument with my mother I dislike due to my autistic brother. I love him but he’s brought so much struggle and guilt that I’m so excited to leave.

I am 15F and I feel like my autistic brother has taken away a part of my life. I know it is not his fault but my parents treat me as if I’m his caregiver. I’m practically a full time mom as I spend all my time with her. He requires a lot of responsibility and time which makes me spend so much of my energy on him. I can barely go out with my friends or even study without my parents saying “ who will take care of your brother when you are gone”

I have other siblings but their age range isnt close & my sister is going to college in less than 3 months so I’m scared I will have to take care of my high demand brother + my other 2 siblings.

I catch myself screaming at him often and hating him but I quickly feel bad. I got into a major argument with my mother I dislike due to my autistic brother. I love him but he’s brought so much struggle and guilt that I’m so excited to leave.

Will I change?

Hey, Ive been having problems these past couple of months after a heartbreak and mom issues.

I am 15Y and I just feel so empty. My mom did something to me that I still haven’t forgiven because Everytime I talk to her I just remember .

My ex cheated on me and instead of addressing him I just blocked him and months later im still on it. ( I know I did the right thing )

I just feel so empty and tired all the time. School has probably taken a toll but it was manageable for me.

Everything gets me mad. My cat I once loved with all my life I barely interact with her now ( feed her and move on with my day)

I feel like crying almost every single day but I never do and I don’t know why. I think my mom caused me to be emotionless due to the amounts of times I would cry.

I don’t want to self diagnose because people always say “ you are just a kid you don’t know depression” but I think it’s getting bad .

I don’t have any suicidal thoughts or “ they are better without me” I just stopped doing everything I liked to do.

So, am I depressed?