u/Careful_Routine_4391

Four days ago i tried to kill myself with three cuts one at my throat and the other two on each wrist i passed out a few seconds after but someone called an ambulance maybe one of the teachers or a classmate so the paramedics rushed me to the hospital they told me i lost about 2 liters of blood and they had to give me 3 blood transfusions to save me

But i still feel the pain that i tried to hide for so long i just want to die and rest forever

For context a package for mearrived today and i was wearing a collar and some feminine clothing and my mom saw me in this outfit i blushed instandly and she just gave me the package and said nothing but the good thing is she already knows that i'm a femboy

last week i tried to end this nightmare but i ended up in the ER because i lost a lot of blood and the medications arent helping my arms are covered in bandages and scars

Just like the title says it happened again they tied me up and abused me but this time they made some little cuts on my arm and my neck everything hurts now i'm in the hospital my arms covered in bandages thankfully the police arrested this idiots and i go for another round of depression and PTSD

I'm getting little notes and letters with hearts and drawings of me in feminine clothes how did this person found out that i'm a femboy? And in one of the letters was a collar