So... what are the first steps?
Talked with my ex wife in the morning yesterday about her being distant for a few days now. She mentioned that she was done trying to make the relationship work and that she wanted to get a divorce. I tried to keep us together and tried every avenue I could think of but she said that she didnt want to. ***This next part is long as its just context so im not sounding like im being biased you can skip if you want but its just backround information that led up to the divorce*** Just to make things fair, we got married when we found out our child was on the way. I didnt like that the marriage was so rushed and pushed, that our child wouldn't be in our home the first year of her life, that every early birthday was going to mainly take place in her hometown. We live an hour away and there was never any talks of hosting somdthing down here just always up there. I built up resentment and I acted cold during the 3 years of our relationship. She caught me watching porn once and drew the line there, I continued and she caught me again and we had a serious talk and almost divorced then. During this talk I thought we were finally on even ground. The secrets, the resentment & our thoughts just came out into the open. It felt liberating. I worked on things she mentioned and tried to dial myself back. There's issues I have like my anger where I just shut down instead of talking through it, going to Church and being stronger in my faith. Now its about 4 months later and she suddenly wants a divorce. During those 4 months it was like we were just a normal husband & wife. Nothing i could notice that our relationship was getting worse just better. We started doing game nights & Bible studies. We recently started looking for a bigger home so I haven't been able to go to church for I believe 7 weeks straight cause of work hindering the days we could tour homes or something else needing attention. This is now the 3rd time shes wanted to "break up". I dont know where my minds at but I know for sure im not turning to the worst. We have a child and shes at the forefront of my thoughts. I know this is a low time for me but what I can do to make things easier for myself and my mental health? What do yall recommend?