u/Certain_Astronomer85

I'm a fucking POS. I adored you. Have the best life.

30days without booze, and nothing is better. Sure, my body feels better but I just dont see the point. I was slowly ending myself with booze and drugs, i thought getting sober might change that. However, it's only become more clear I dont belong or dont want to be on this planet anymore. I don't have hobbies, I dont want to make connections or friends just to be forgotten and used. Im done. Sobriety has taught me one thing, there is only one escape.

Hope you had a great day! I fucking adore you. Goodnight H-cat. I miss you

I wonder if you even remember anything good about me or if you made me a villain in your head? I told you that was my purpose for people in life. To be the stability and good so they can get healthy and disappear forever like I was nothing. Always giving unconditional love is blessing and curse. You finally convinced me someone had chosen me for once, I was special to someone for once. Poof you're gone. Fuck I miss you. Where are you H-cat

Hope you had a great week. Stay cool and hydrated! Let me know when you get home safe! Goodnight my H-cat, sweet dreams. I love you.

You didn't deserve that and either did I. I knew from the moment I saw you. You were to be my only real love in this lifetime, however brief. I never felt at home or peace until I was just in your presence. Perfect, Perfect, Perfect 👌 I love H-cat, Forever and fucking always.

Yours truly,

TPR

I saw you in my dreams again. You looked so happy and sober, I couldn't have been more proud. I can't seem to make it more than a week and get shit faced crying about you haha you couldn't have been more right, I'm a needy emotional 30yr old loser.

I miss you. I watched you try to kys and then you disappeared on me after everything. The person I love the most is just a ghost in my life and no one else's, in a way you died that night but im the only one with the grief. I selfishly wish i could share this pain, it's too much. That's partly my fault because I wasn't strong enough for you, emotionally intelligent but insecure.

Ill never get to see or speak to you again. I wish I could just hug tou goodbye. Have an amazing life H-cat. I love you. Forever.

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My mind will never let you go. No matter who I meet, the adventure Im on, or the happiness I experience. It will always be you Hallie. I fucking dreamt about you for 29yrs and I finally met the person of my dreams. As an atheist, that wasn't easy to accept. And now, I need to accept ill never hear from you again. I love you Hallie-cat, just please leave my memories.

Real love is unconditional to me. No matter the abuse or ill treatment you gave me, i told you you were part of my soul and I love you till the day we die. Im glad you're sober and healthy now, I dont have a "me" in my life and its falling apart without you. Idk why you had to cheat on me but ill love you till they day I die. Hallie you wete suppose to be my wife but im glad I at least got you to find yourself and the amazing woman that so many men before raped and abused. Ill never speak to you or hear from you again but I love you forever Hallie-cat. I adore you 😘

Im sorry but I really wish there was an "activity ability" filter when it came to women. Sorry if you're double me, we ain't matching. Petty but real.

I've only ever hated myself but the hate I have slowly developed towards you is something else. I know I'll always love you but the way you left and had your family treat me was unbelievable. Fuck you. Seriously, before you get fucked tonight by your new guy, take some accountability and apologize. Fuck you and your "soulmates"

I want one fucking minute not still being in love with you. You know how much I'm an old man when it comes to people I loves safety and now I'll never know. I know you're healthy and happy, I can just feel it inside my soul. I hope this new soulmate treats you well and helps you continue your healing journey. But I fucking miss you. I adore you HG

Fuck you. God I want to hate you. I'm torn between wanting you to feel the way I feel or you finally having happiness. Everyone keeps saying "You saved her life". Fine, I SAVED YOUR LIFE and I STILL FUCKING LOST YOU. After everything, why couldn't you just say goodbye like we promised? Fuck I miss you so much. I'm truly glad you're happy and healthy with your "soulmate" but I miss my friend. I love you