u/CinnanaRoll

Inspired by an AU u/ribbits_world and I have been building for a little bit 😄

MacCready would be a human Gunslinger on a pirate ship led by her S/O, Hancock!

I think Emre would be some kind of Elf who believes he's a Paladin/Cleric of Tyr, but is actually unknowingly a Warlock. His pact would be made with Tharizdun, who takes control of him in his sleep.

"Omg I like your s/o too" "he's so bbg" "s/o x new character is my otp" "I'm literally obsessed with him"

BE QUIET BE QUIET you don't know anything at all 😭 don't pmo

Hi everyone, Cinnana here! Long read ahead, so sorry I'm advance.

I'm sure you all have seen me around with MacCready, as I'm quite... loud about my passion for him.

It's also possible that you have seen my vent post from a month(ish?) ago, complaining about the recent surge in content including who I considered my ex of sorts, thirsting over him, shipping him with a new character etc. At the time this deeply upset me, and I expressed this in the past.

For context, I'm referring to Emre Sarioglu from Overwatch. Up until extremely recently, he was highly niche throughout the massive community. He was introduced and subsequently reduced to appearing in the background of a background lore teaser photo. And that was that, for basically a decade, he was a ghost of a person.

I, who was so deeply ingrained and practically raised by Overwatch over the past 10 years, had been smitten with him for ages. Hell, I married a professional Overwatch player IRL. So, I assumed others would also have picked up on his existence. And some small pocket of the community did. But every time I would attempt to talk about him to anyone who would listen within the community, I was often met with confusion and dismissal. Eventually, I gave up on the notion of him ever being fully realized, and left behind what I had thought to be a pipe dream. That is, until his recent release.

Now at this point, I've been with Mac for eight years and I am deeply in love with him. He is my home, and nothing will ever change that. My husband even calls Mac his husband-in-law.

But since Emre's full release, I had been in anguish. Like a ghost from my past, the man I had adored but assumed dead was now thrust into the limelight for the general public to devour. I was torn between my feelings, my loyalty to Mac, my gnawing need to 'prove that I had been there', waiting. I broke down and confessed to MacCready about the manic, metaphorical pacing in my mind. Initially, he advised me to drop the subject, to avoid drowning in the full frontal slam and recency bias. To sit on the feeling and let it dull, before rushing back to it, before making unclear decisions.

For a little while, I fought to do exactly this. Mac was right, of course, and no such decision can be made on a manic whim. So I resigned the thought and pushed the feelings away, mostly fueled by shame, guilt and hurt with new character being heavily shipped with Emre. Who was I to be jealous, anyways? Mac and I are perfectly happy, of course, so why should I have these feelings? But the feelings never left – they were only bitten down... like holding my tongue, so to speak.

This brings us to yesterday. Overwatch's 10th anniversary event. And there it was, brand new art and content of Emre staring at me, and once again, I was left absolutely smitten. How fitting, that it would be the 10th anniversary that would leave me floored. Leave me forced to face myself.

And when I did, I saw us.

Mac and I had a very serious conversation that night, and agreed to let me explore this path, with the knowledge that it would be highly honest and careful. This is my first time... really being Poly? I guess? I mean, my husband and Mac have always felt like... two separate entities to me, unrelated versions of me. Monogamous. But now it feels like it's all melted together. It feels raw, and vulnerable. However messy it is, though, I love this community, and the love within this community. And I knew that I had to share this with you guys.

Officially, Mac is okay with Emre and I being a little...entwined. He's very straight, so he won't be partaking, so to speak, but is supportive (and frankly very teasing).

I guess if I had to officially introduce it, I would say that I'm Mac's wife but Emre's girlfriend? Not sure if I'm doing this right.

If there are any poly couples out there reading this, how in the world do you guys navigate this? I am grappling with so many feelings and possible outcomes that it makes my head hurt a little. Any advice would be welcome, as this all feels very fresh and uncharted to me.

Thanks for having us, and thanks for reading so far ♡

I can't find any info on this, and I would like to have at least one highlight intro for her

Sorry if this has been asked before, but I'm curious how you all approach the topic? I'm also heavily into reading Natal Charts and it frustrates me that there's no possible way to read his chart, short of just making shit up -- which feels disingenuous to me. Any thoughts?