u/Comfortable-Arm-8477

I rarely see anyone talking about the french course in here. It must have its benefits cuz it's the french city of India but I also got BHU for the same though not in the main campus. as per my research, what i'm getting is i shouldn't miss out pursuing french in pondicherry.

The other option I have is Pondicherry University — B****A (hons) French - translation and interpretation. Which one is more worthy**?**

Not even 24 hrs mei compartment hai. Vector 3d aata toh hai but when doing PYP merko kuch palle nhi padta. Can anyone recommend koi short video jisme concept ya identities cover ho rhi hai. Every other video is 1-2 hr long

i have my math compartment in 2 days. I've done the whole syllabus. Tho there are chapters I'm more prepared for than others. I'm not touching any new topic or doing more revision for the ones I'm weak in because I think rn doing revision jitna hua hai is better.

The problem is when I'm doing pyqs i struggle to understand the questions. Blame it on my low IQ ig. I really really need to pass because i repeated my 12th year and still failed in one subject and if i fail again I'm sure I'm gonna end it for myself. The most I'm scared of is if they'll grant me marks for even half attempted answer bcz last time they didn't (osm)

I performed passing marks jitna in my 12th maths exam but when results came i failed really badly. I received my answer sheet and the checking was just so unfair. Anyways I moved on and prepared for compartment and I have done every chapter though I'm not really confident in integration, differential eq. and relation function. I'm just focusing on revision and pyqs now but my speed is really slow. I'm not very smart either, it's hard for me to understand questions even if ik how to do the answer step by step

the most I'm scared of is osm checking. Because in my answer sheet they didn't give me a single mark for even my half attempted answer. I'm happy even in passing

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this is showing for the last 3 days im trying to sign in. i think it's the issue from their side maybe.

so i'm from India. a really conservative place for lgtq people. i have never had crushes on boys but like just lil ones not that big like meh maybe 1 or 2? but i do know i like men unfortunately. never have been in a relationship once (18). i got sent to an all girls boarding school (13) where i learned there's a thing called homosexuality. i saw girls hooking up all the time and i was homophobic bcz this bitch was trying to fit in. now you'd think how can a homophobic person be gay?

well, i noticed (now that i look back). i was a lil crazy about this one girl who i shared a really close bond with. she used to make my heart beat sometimes, also she was into girls too (i actually helped her get back with her gf) but ig my homophobic ass just thought oh it's all friendly. i went crazy like super crazy when we had a friendship breakup. she was all i could think about. later i found new friend group (my roomies some of'em) aaaand there was this another girl who i always looked for. i had a big soft spot for her. we used to get all clingy sometimes it used to make me heat up all inside. somewhere i felt that it's mutual but we never confronted it and graduated off.

so coming back, i spent some time alone with myself and started to love queer people. got more educated. i've been by myself for a long time idk how liking someone feels. i do see myself having a relationship with a woman. i do imagine myself kissing them like yk feeling feelings and all those emotions. but sometimes i feel i lean towards men more...ig idk. they sometimes make me puke but ya im into'em too.

Yk i don't even care atp, I HATE how sexualised women bodies are. It's not even about breasts anymore like just even showing your arms and legs is such a taboo.

I have to change back from my shorts when papa comes home. Have to wear a bra 24/7. Today I was ordering myself a sleeveless vest bcz it's literally 42 frickin degree outside and my mom says papa won't let you wear this. While papa can roam around in a piece of fabric with I'm sorry to say man boobs. i genuinely hate this fckin society so bad. Even if you come from a good family it's crazy what goes down in there with girls. I can't talk about my periods much (my mom makes a disgusted face as if she doesn't have them herself), can't talk about genital issues and oh don't roam around without bra because you're a 36 C it's your problem and we're gonna sexualise you more because it's your fault you have them big.

Being a loud feminist in a desi family is not for the weak. F*ck these people genuinely. and ykw im gonna go out my way and do what i want these ppl can suck my cl*t