Everything was fine until daughter got married and son in-law entered. Then the mother in law started to form distance between her daughter and daughter in law. DIL kept initiating that she wants to meet her SIL but MIL would keep two parties way. Why could that be the case?
Growing up I wanted a child. Reality hit and I couldn't imagine why anyone would want a child while considering current state of the world. But there are pressures. It seems like this should be the next steps. I never want my children to take care of me, and at the same time, vulnerability that all humans carry makes me question if I get alone and old in the world, it would be nice for at least one person to check up on me when I'm in nursing home.
Yesterday I thought how would my life be like if I didn't have a child? To my surprise, just this thought brought be such paralyzing bone deep relaxation in my body that it's still hard to move my body. It's like my body could rest. All the goals of my life would change - I wouldn't work as hard enough, I wouldn't stay at shitty jobs, I would want to move into areas where life is slow. I want to love and take care of myself. But then fear hits in - what if I'm getting old and I have nobody.
I know the organic answer is: try having friends or build relationships with children of your family or friends. However, I'm a true introvert and relationships simply drain me. I just don't want to create relationships so that I will benefit from them after 10 years.
How do you guys deal with it