u/Constant_Battle4171

Hello to whoever might read this. I’m using a throwaway account to write this post because I genuinely can’t believe what I did, and I’m really ashamed of myself for it. For context, I’m a 19-year-old girl, and last year when I was 18, I met this boy online back in March, but I didn’t actually start talking to him until late April to early May. We met on TikTok when I sent him a follow request. I just thought his profile looked cool, and I never knew what I was getting into. At first, we used to just send stickers in TikTok DMs, so we weren’t really talking properly. I then made a second account just to follow him again. I don’t really know why I did this—I think I just wanted him to be interested in me. It worked, because after that we started talking for real. No more stickers, just full-blown conversations. We ended up sending almost 1,000 messages on the very first day we properly talked. I had kind of watched his profile for about a month before we actually spoke because we shared common interests like anime and stuff. Over time, I started to like him a lot—like, head over heels. At first we were just friends, but it turned into a relationship pretty quickly. This is where things started getting really unhealthy on my side. I started acting obsessive, almost like Joe Goldberg. I even created a fake Instagram account and followed everyone he followed just to see who he was interacting with. At one point, I saw a post on one of his friend’s accounts that showed him graduating middle school. I was shocked because I had graduated high school that same year, which meant I was about four years older than him. That’s when I realized he had lied and told me he was 17, but he was actually 14. Despite finding that out, I was already very emotionally attached and continued talking to him anyway. I’m really ashamed of that. We eventually became like an actual couple. Around June 21st, a girl messaged me saying she was his girlfriend and that he was cheating on her. I was completely distraught. I genuinely felt like my life was falling apart. I was supposed to be graduating and going to prom, but instead I was involved with a 14-year-old boy. Even after that, I forgave him for cheating and we kept talking for months. We talked about having kids and being each other’s soulmate. Then in November, I found out he was still cheating on me with the same girl. That’s when I finally stopped talking to him for good. After that, I completely freaked out thinking I could get in trouble or go to jail. At that point, I was 19. Now I live with a lot of regret and guilt.

hello to whoever might read this . i’m using a throwaway account to write this post because i genuinely can’t believe what i did and im really ashamed of myself for it . for context im a 19 year old girl and last year when i was 18 , i met this boy online back in march , but i didnt talk to him until like late april to early may . we met on tik tok when i sent him a follow request , i just thought his profile looked cool , i never knew what i was getting into . we used to like send these stickers at first in tiktok dms , so we werent like actually talking but i stepped it up a notch when i created a second account to follow this boy on it , idk why i did this . i think its because i wanted him to be interested in me . anyways this worked , because we started talking after this point , so no more tiktok sticker , we were having full blown convos . we talked and almost sent 1000 messages in the first day we met . i had stalked this guy for like a month before we talked because we shared common interests like anime and stuff . anyways i grew to like this guy so much , like head over heels in love . at first we were friends but it became relationship not too soon after this . it made me start acting like joe goldberg . i created a fake acc on insta and followed everyone he was following so i could see who he interacted with . i saw that on his friends acc there was a post that showed him graduating middle school . i was in shock because last year i was graduating high school , meaning i was 4 years older than this guy … this shocked me because he lied and told me he was 17 . however , i was madly in love so i continued talking to him despite knowing he was 14 and i was 18 . i’m so ashamed of myself , how could i have admitted i found out about that though ? it would make me look like a crazy stalker . anyways ill spare the details but we became like an actual couple but then around june 21st a girl messaged me saying he was her bf and he was cheating on her . i was distraught . like literally my life crumbled . i literally was like wtf am i doing with my life . i was supposed to be graduating and going to prom but i was talking to a 14 year old boy . i forgave him for cheating and we continued talking for months after that . we talked about children and being each others soulmate and stuff . then i found out he was still cheating on me with that same girl in november … i stopped talking to him for good after that and i freaked out thinking i could possibly go to jail , at that point i was 19 . i live in so much regret and guilt and i cant accept the fact that i might have groomed a 14 year old boy . how do i live my life normally after this ?

hello to whoever might read this . i’m using a throwaway account to write this post because i genuinely can’t believe what i did and im really ashamed of myself for it . for context im a 19 year old girl and last year when i was 18 , i met this boy online back in march , but i didnt talk to him until like late april to early may . we met on tik tok when i sent him a follow request , i just thought his profile looked cool , i never knew what i was getting into . we used to like send these stickers at first in tiktok dms , so we werent like actually talking but i stepped it up a notch when i created a second account to follow this boy on it , idk why i did this . i think its because i wanted him to be interested in me . anyways this worked , because we started talking after this point , so no more tiktok sticker , we were having full blown convos . we talked and almost sent 1000 messages in the first day we met . i had stalked this guy for like a month before we talked because we shared common interests like anime and stuff . anyways i grew to like this guy so much , like head over heels in love . at first we were friends but it became relationship not too soon after this . it made me start acting like joe goldberg . i created a fake acc on insta and followed everyone he was following so i could see who he interacted with . i saw that on his friends acc there was a post that showed him graduating middle school . i was in shock because last year i was graduating high school , meaning i was 4 years older than this guy … this shocked me because he lied and told me he was 17 . however , i was madly in love so i continued talking to him despite knowing he was 14 and i was 18 . i’m so ashamed of myself , how could i have admitted i found out about that though ? it would make me look like a crazy stalker . anyways ill spare the details but we became like an actual couple but then around june 21st a girl messaged me saying he was her bf and he was cheating on her . i was distraught . like literally my life crumbled . i literally was like wtf am i doing with my life . i was supposed to be graduating and going to prom but i was talking to a 14 year old boy . i forgave him for cheating and we continued talking for months after that . we talked about children and being each others soulmate and stuff . then i found out he was still cheating on me with that same girl in november … i stopped talking to him for good after that and i freaked out thinking i could possibly go to jail , at that point i was 19 . i live in so much regret and guilt and i cant accept the fact that i might have groomed a 14 year old boy . how do i live my life normally after this ?

hello to whoever might read this . i’m using a throwaway account to write this post because i genuinely can’t believe what i did and im really ashamed of myself for it . for context im a 19 year old girl i live in the state of new jersey and last year when i was 18 , i met this boy online back in march , but i didnt talk to him until like late april to early may . we met on tik tok when i sent him a follow request , i just thought his profile looked cool , i never knew what i was getting into . we used to like send these stickers at first in tiktok dms , so we werent like actually talking but i stepped it up a notch when i created a second account to follow this boy on it , idk why i did this . i think its because i wanted him to be interested in me . anyways this worked , because we started talking after this point , so no more tiktok sticker , we were having full blown convos . we talked and almost sent 1000 messages in the first day we met . i had stalked this guy for like a month before we talked because we shared common interests like anime and stuff . anyways i grew to like this guy so much , like head over heels in love . at first we were friends but it became relationship not too soon after this . he was in miami , so we had a long distance relationship . it made me start acting like joe goldberg . i created a fake acc on insta and followed everyone he was following so i could see who he interacted with . i saw that on his friends acc there was a post that showed him graduating middle school . i was in shock because last year i was graduating high school , meaning i was 4 years older than this guy … this shocked me because he lied and told me he was 17 . however , i was madly in love so i continued talking to him despite knowing he was 14 and i was 18 . i’m so ashamed of myself , how could i have admitted i found out about that though ? it would make me look like a crazy stalker . anyways ill spare the details but we became like an actual couple but then around june 21st a girl messaged me saying he was her bf and he was cheating on her . i was distraught . like literally my life crumbled . i literally was like wtf am i doing with my life . i was supposed to be graduating and going to prom but i was talking to a 14 year old boy . i forgave him for cheating and we continued talking for months after that . we talked about children and being each others soulmate and stuff . then i found out he was still cheating on me with that same girl in november … i stopped talking to him for good after that and i freaked out thinking i could possibly go to jail , at that point i was 19 . i live in so much regret and guilt and i cant accept the fact that i might have groomed a 14 year old boy . how do i live my life normally after this ? could i have actually faced jail time for this had his parents found out and called the police ? it’s not possible if i stopped talking to him , right ?

hello to whoever might read this . i’m using a throwaway account to write this post because i genuinely can’t believe what i did and im really ashamed of myself for it . for context im a 19 year old girl and last year when i was 18 , i met this boy online back in march , but i didnt talk to him until like late april to early may . we met on tik tok when i sent him a follow request , i just thought his profile looked cool , i never knew what i was getting into . we used to like send these stickers at first in tiktok dms , so we werent like actually talking but i stepped it up a notch when i created a second account to follow this boy on it , idk why i did this . i think its because i wanted him to be interested in me . anyways this worked , because we started talking after this point , so no more tiktok sticker , we were having full blown convos . we talked and almost sent 1000 messages in the first day we met . i had stalked this guy for like a month before we talked because we shared common interests like anime and stuff . anyways i grew to like this guy so much , like head over heels in love . at first we were friends but it became relationship not too soon after this . it made me start acting like joe goldberg . i created a fake acc on insta and followed everyone he was following so i could see who he interacted with . i saw that on his friends acc there was a post that showed him graduating middle school . i was in shock because last year i was graduating high school , meaning i was 4 years older than this guy … this shocked me because he lied and told me he was 17 . however , i was madly in love so i continued talking to him despite knowing he was 14 and i was 18 . i’m so ashamed of myself , how could i have admitted i found out about that though ? it would make me look like a crazy stalker . anyways ill spare the details but we became like an actual couple but then around june 21st a girl messaged me saying he was her bf and he was cheating on her . i was distraught . like literally my life crumbled . i literally was like wtf am i doing with my life . i was supposed to be graduating and going to prom but i was talking to a 14 year old boy . i forgave him for cheating and we continued talking for months after that . we talked about children and being each others soulmate and stuff . then i found out he was still cheating on me with that same girl in november … i stopped talking to him for good after that and i freaked out thinking i could possibly go to jail , at that point i was 19 . i live in so much regret and guilt and i cant accept the fact that i might have groomed a 14 year old boy . how do i live my life normally after this ?

hello to whoever might read this . i’m using a throwaway account to write this post because i genuinely can’t believe what i did and im really ashamed of myself for it . for context im a 19 year old girl and last year when i was 18 , i met this boy online back in march , but i didnt talk to him until like late april to early may . we met on tik tok when i sent him a follow request , i just thought his profile looked cool , i never knew what i was getting into . we used to like send these stickers at first in tiktok dms , so we werent like actually talking but i stepped it up a notch when i created a second account to follow this boy on it , idk why i did this . i think its because i wanted him to be interested in me . anyways this worked , because we started talking after this point , so no more tiktok sticker , we were having full blown convos . we talked and almost sent 1000 messages in the first day we met . i had stalked this guy for like a month before we talked because we shared common interests like anime and stuff . anyways i grew to like this guy so much , like head over heels in love . at first we were friends but it became relationship not too soon after this . it made me start acting like joe goldberg . i created a fake acc on insta and followed everyone he was following so i could see who he interacted with . i saw that on his friends acc there was a post that showed him graduating middle school . i was in shock because last year i was graduating high school , meaning i was 4 years older than this guy … this shocked me because he lied and told me he was 17 . however , i was madly in love so i continued talking to him despite knowing he was 14 and i was 18 . i’m so ashamed of myself , how could i have admitted i found out about that though ? it would make me look like a crazy stalker . anyways ill spare the details but we became like an actual couple but then around june 21st a girl messaged me saying he was her bf and he was cheating on her . i was distraught . like literally my life crumbled . i literally was like wtf am i doing with my life . i was supposed to be graduating and going to prom but i was talking to a 14 year old boy . i forgave him for cheating and we continued talking for months after that . we talked about children and being each others soulmate and stuff . then i found out he was still cheating on me with that same girl in november … i stopped talking to him for good after that and i freaked out thinking i could possibly go to jail , at that point i was 19 . i live in so much regret and guilt and i cant accept the fact that i might have groomed a 14 year old boy . how do i live my life normally after this ? god i’m really sick in the head , i can’t live with what ive done at all .