u/D1etCokeGirl

I chose to leave my marriage in 2008 and went through years of post separation coercive control. I was stuck in same home with him for 4 yrs after as we parented young children.I was able to move out 4 years later in 2012.

In the summer of 2016 he was diagnosed with terminal cancer. 7 months later he was asking me in legal documents to allow his girlfriend to coparent the children when/if he died. I did legal consults at that time and was told she has no grounds etc.

Anyhow 2 months before he made the request I was rear ended 5 minutes from home on my drive home from work. Weather was not a factor. It was as we drove. My car hit the next car. My car was a total loss.

I suffered a concussion and was sick for years with post concussion syndrome. I still have some symptoms of fatigue and a few memory issues. I always thought his family was capable of doing something violent to me. I once heard his father make a comment about a hit man back when we were still married. Like knowing about this service or how to access it maybe.

All these years I didn’t really connect the two things or suspect that the car accident may have been a set up. But suddenly the thought crossed my mind recently. He and his family went to great lengths to harm me in many ways. I wonder…. The guy who hit me seemed weird. I thought at the time he must have been texting or high. He wasn’t charged though. Police attended but very late afterwards like it took them over an hour to arrive. Probably there was no connection but I’m not 100% sure.

Think that’s the term…. Suddenly there’s more space around you and you’re walking but not feeling like a penguin or pregnant…. So weird…. I’ve only lost about 20 pounds lately but I really notice it.

Lately when I wake up I can’t go back to sleep in the same way. Maybe it’s a good sign. Something about lessening exhaustion or my body walking up better. Not sure. Maybe it’s that I’m eating less and my body is ready to start the day and have breakfast. Maybe I’m less depressed. Not sure. Have been working out and eating well since January 16th and have lost 20 pounds so far.

I don’t get it….