How do I even Process this?
Me 19M gf 19F have been together for 3 years or at least were. For a couple months we were struggling with sexual issues. She’s a victim of sexual assault in her past relationship and I’ve been very mindful of that burden placed on her. The day before yesterday I went to a local fair with her family, I was very nice and pleasant. Her dad is a very bad/risky driver so my gf and I as well as her little sister (11) were all carsick. I let her sister lay on me for comfort and I brushed her back to make her feel better. Later that night I got a text from her saying that she falls in love with me everyday.
Yesterday, she went to a rodeo at that same fair with her older sister and best friend. As she was there she saw the man who raped her, and he called her name as she walked past. Obviously I wasn’t there so I had no idea this happened at the time but she called me instantly and said she knew what she had to do was leave me bc seeing him made her realize that she wasn’t attracted to me anymore like she had been with him. She also said that a few guys she saw there she fantasized about sexually and hadn’t thought about me like that for a long time.
To me this is all kinda of fucked up and I’m in so much pain, I thought I was going to marry this girl and she ripped out my heart for a man that hurt her the way he did. I just want my baby back