u/Dragonvarine

I have mild-ish PSSD. Hypothesia, pleasureless orgasm, low libido (however extreme emotional numbing).

For 3 months now I have these days where my brain kinda has a light switch turned off and I get really bad PSSD symptoms as mentioned above. I literally feel it happen and it's like i've been drugged. I cant feel anything at all and I feel "heavy".

Then I start getting these panic attacks when I come out of it every single time. I have panic attacks often since Ive been off but propranolol usually helps. In these panic attacks, they DONT. It only helps the heartrate.

The panic attack symptoms: sounds feel like daggers, like extremely irritable and scary to me. Racing thoughts, walking around feeling wired. Breathing becomes harder. This weird magnet feeling on my head. And it lasts for like an hour. DPDR goes up too. Tingly feelings around my body. Way worse orthostatic hypotension.

But thing is afterwards my PSSD symptoms are alleviated more. I get actual orgasms, my libido is slightly better, the emotional numbing is a bit better, and my head doesn't feel heavy. Happens every single time I get these kinds of panic attacks.

My idea is that glutamate becomes higher in these moments from GABA going down (because recovery; its bound to change the chemicals) and that GABA being alleviated helps my symptoms as it might be the source of my PSSD?

My emotions are fluctuating between extremely numb (alongside mild pssd symptoms) to having a bit more emotions (still not pre-ssri). Like things are bothering me but not to a hardcore extent as they use to yet. Includes high anxiety.

Ive dealt with emotional numbing on medication for a few years so its probably ingrained like crazy. I havent had a pre-ssri emotion in 10 months off medication.

What did emotions returning look like??

The scariest part about having anhedonia is figuring out what is causing it. It's easier to blame medication but what if it isn't.

So I'm just wondering about other causes that aren't chemical.

I'm beyond frustrated. I quit for the sole purpose of removing that zombie feeling and i'm like 5x number than when I was on SSRIs.

In total now ive been emotionally numb for 3 years. During my early 20s too so im wasting my "best" years to this disgusting medication/withdrawal. Life feels like it has zero meaning, im even more anhedonic. Only good thing is that my fatigue has cleared up, took about 9 months though.

I havent had a single window of emotions. It just gets number. Im hoping by the next year I can have ONE emotional window, just one so I can remember what its like.

I have severely low folate and ive been taking folinic acid, not even that high of a dosage (500mcg), but I dont know if its related but Ive been in this wave for a week now which is the longest ive been in a "pssd wave" these 3 months.

Im wondering if the increase of serotonin from correcting my folate levels would exacerbate the issues with PSSD? Does that fit the model?

Quit ssris 10 months ago. I literally only got symptoms on my 7th month. Its been 3 months and 2 weeks since ive had low libido.

It seems every single month theres a new set of symptoms.

Last month I had more emotional blunting, skin feels blunted (just feels off), hypothesia. This month happened again and its been like this for a week. And now my orgasms arent that good, I think i went in and out of an orgasm? I would consider my PSSD mild 2 months ago, it just seems to be getting worse.

Problem is what the fuck do I do. Reinstating might fuck me more. Or I might be stuck and have PSSD forever?? I cant even feel the crazy anxiety I use to have associated with PSSD. I feel so fucking blank.

So been on SSRI since 17 (8 years, quit for 10 months). I recently got mild pssd symptoms (severe emotional numbing though), and I don't know if quitting the SSRIs in general done this or the PSSD symptoms but I'm noticing new hairs appearing on my temple. There was even a shedding that happened a month back.

I did read that SSRIs could impact the terminal hairs a bit but not in a MPB pattern way as far as I should know...

My androgen signalling is still perfectly fine, I have crazy acne, chest hair growing, can build muscle, no strength loss, etc etc. so why tf is my hair potentially growing back

I have mild PSSD, though my libido is pretty damn shot right now.

It fluctuates a lot week by week.

Happened about 9 months off SSRI.

So while on SSRIs, I had the worst stomach ever. Constant sharp pain that I had to see a doctor a few times. This was after years on it so clearly some damage started happening. If I ate even slightly spicy food I would get extreme pain and wouldnt be a good experience in the bathroom.

On LSD, this pain was magnified so bad and it would come in waves for hours of extreme pain.

That was a few months after quitting.

Now my stomach is completely fine, I can even eat spicy food again, but I wonder if damage has been done? Maybe I just need to repair it? How?

I got PSSD symptoms genuinely like 9 months into withdrawal. I had lower libido maybe month 5 that fluctuated for a while.

Do I wait 6 months from now to consider if its PSSD or would you consider it PSSD?

Symptoms I have is hypothesia, lower libido, severe emotional numbing, DPDR, anhedonia, I had no erogenous pleasure for a few days only, brain fog. The biggest problem definitely is the emotional numbing and libido, the others are a bit more mild.

Other physical symptoms of SSRI withdrawal have cleared up by month 9. Im now month 10.

I took SSRIs for 8 years. Mostly prozac but changed it a few times nearer the end because of crazy fatigue and emotional blunting. I quit for that reason.

It's been 10 months. Around 9-10 months, im talking weeks here, Ive got hypothesia on my genitals and a little for my skin in general.

Like a week ago I literally couldnt even feel pleasure from erogenous zones. But it came back in a few days.

It seems it changes a lot week to week. First time it happened it lasted a day. Second time for a few days and happened because I was ill.

I had no PSSD symptoms (other than cognitive but had that throughout withdrawal) literally 2 days ago and now its back.

Im trying to imagine whats happening in a "build up not being removed" way but why am I getting symptoms and windows of these symptoms day by day.

My theory is my body is adapting to whatever build up is causing it and once that build up reaches an apex my body flushes it out like crazy and that causes it to adapt and then cause a collection of build up. Kinda like a pendulum.

What do you think?

Had emotional numbing that got worse over the last 2 years of SSRI usage, quit for that reason, emotional numbing and anhedonia got even worse for 10 months now.

When did it get better for you? Feels like my brain isnt improving.

I remember almost 9 years ago when I first took prozac, I had side effects like dry mouth and shaking, but after that it felt like heaven. I remember how good I felt. Like everything would look more beautiful and it saved me from ending it.

Years later man they have SCREWED me. Anhedonia, extreme fatigue, emotional numbing, everything looks white and gray, sleep unrefreshing.

This was about 7 years in.

Ive quit them cold turkey and its even worse as im recovering but I think back to when I first took them and he had no idea how good he had it then. It was the best I ever felt in my life. Unfortunately every single SSRI/SNRI stopped working for me.

Tbh if I knew the outcome was this I would have absolutely never have taken it. 2-3 years of bliss is not worth this dehumanising condition.

Another CareADHD vent.

Lets say they are doing a last in, first out approach now to save themselves.

Why are people who are then diagnosed a few weeks before me also getting appointments?

Ive been diagnosed mid November, handed forms in asap each and every time.

I stopped getting health form emails.

They keep replying "you have not been forgotten" but its the same bot.

The issue here is that its clearly not a queue at all. Regardless if its first in first out or last in first out. I'm not getting my appointment? Why should I suffer because of the timing?

I dont know what to do. Should I just choose another provider? I hate this damn provider man

I've been on SSRIs for 8 years, technically the last year I was on venlafaxine and mirtazapine.

I quit cold turkey and endured horrible withdrawal for 10 months so far. A lot of my physical symptoms got better, even my anxiety, but my emotional blunting has gotten WORSE in fact. More anhedonic. No, it's not any depression returning, I was very emotional before getting on meds. No trauma or events occured for me to become this at all.

Im actually feeling more energy and less zombielike but I cant seem to get passed this symptom. I got blunted maybe about 6-7 years into the medication.

I havent tried anything else for it yet since im in the UK NHS and they are being extremely difficult about referring me to a psychiatrist

I grew up angry, i was always emo as hell until I lost my emotions.

I miss anger. It was the emotion that pushed me to do to better. In the gym, in academics. Im constantly wronged by people like im a pushover.

I had body dysmorphia where i needed to become as muscular as possible (naturally) and now that I lost my emotions I stopped going gym, ive lost muscle and ive had girls im talking to tell me they prefer more muscle.

Wheres the motivation? Why arent I angry and pushing myself in the gym? At least with body dysmorphia it made me move to do something about it.

I miss the competitiveness I had. I wasnt ever the brightest kid, or the most athletic but this passion I had to push myself because theres people better than me was my joy to enduring life.

Im nothing now.

Life is cruel. I have never known a state a human being can be in so fucking disgusting.

I was on SSRIs from 17 years old for my overly emo ass. Little did that boy know that 8 years later he would be hit with anhedonia.

I quit 10 months ago because I wanted to feel everything again. I thought maybe in 3 months I would feel at least some more emotion, I wasnt actually fully numb or anhedonic. I was still at least able to enjoy life to an extent, enjoy games, socialising, music, etc.

In these 10 months my anhedonia has gone severe. I stopped feeling pleasure from my own skin, erogenous pleasure, the only emotions I feel are primal ones like anger, anxiety/adrenaline, and despair (like that pit in your stomach feeling).

I can even cry. But it's like trying to get an orgasm out when medicated. I cant cry for more than a second.

WHEN DOES IT GO??? WHAT CRUEL JOKE IS IT? I CANT EVEN REINSTATE?! I CANT PROCESS ANY EMOTIONS PROPERLY AND IT CAUSES MY SITUATION TO GET WORSE.

Sometimes my erogenous pleasure comes back, maybe at like 70%. But the emotions dont. I havent been able to bask in the warmth of the sun or walk through nature or chillax with a nice hot drink.

90% of my emotion is sheer panic. Im so fucking tired. When does it go back.

Most tools I'm placing need to be counted which is great, the count tool does that.

In fact you can display a label on them too.

What is weird is that every other object that can have a label can display custom captions such as "Data" or something and it would display the actual value of that.

Why is it that on count tools you cant?

It just comes up as "<<Data>>". Ive seen posts for 2 years saying they have this problem and it's still not fixed????

I now have to create a permutation of every single tool to keep the count functionality.

I guaranteed if snapshots could have labels, I could add my own count column and have both the data caption displayed and have a count too.

Avoiding finasteride of course.

Doubt we can get Clascoterone 5% so was wondering if its worth to get 1%?

I was using finasteride for maybe about 2 years; It was a 0.3% finasteride, 5% minoxidil topical solution.

Here's the thing, I used it very sparingly. I think it took me a whole year to get through 3 60ml bottles of it. It did pretty okay to maintain my scalp actually.

Essentially when I stopped taking SSRIs in september (on them 8 years) I also completely stopped taking finasteride after a couple months due to fear of it clashing with my nervous system (as something like coffee gives me panic attacks now). I had a fear that I would more likely get PFS if I took finasteride during my protracted withdrawal.

I had zero noticeable side effects while on finasteride.

About 5-6 months into my SSRI withdrawal out of nowhere my libido crashed and my head felt weird? It's not like brain fog but like my body felt disconnected from my head, like i just couldnt get aroused properly at all. Massive difference because I had insane libido before quitting SSRIs.

About 8 months in libido came back strong, head felt better, etc wasnt 100% back but it was good. Then it crashed again and I had very extreme emotional numbing, weird "everything is metaphorically cardboard" feeling, and loss of erogenous touch.

I cant tell what would treat it because I cant tell if its PSSD or PFS? I know technically they overlap but still. How do I know which one it is?

I quit SSRIs after 8 years ten months ago.

The severe fatigue I had while I was on SSRIs (nearing the end) has dissipated more and more. Physically I feel less ill and better.

But my emotions pre ssris have not come back or improved at all. Its like im constantly stuck emotionally numb. I quit for the sole reason to have them come back. Only benefit I had quitting was strictly the increase of energy. In fact I have temporary PSSD symptoms (sometimes it lasts a day, or a few days) where Im even number.

Has anyone got mild PSSD before their emotions came back? I feel like its correlated.