u/Due-Impression2899

Very long story before getting to the point so I apologise in advance😭

I met her at the start of the year through a mutual friend of ours and we instantly got along and were talking. We very gradually started flirting with each other (I was super nervous at first) and it became romantic quite soon after. Shes such a wonderful person to be around, she’s cute and absolutely gorgeous and she’s so effortlessly herself it’s really admirable. I felt butterflies in my stomach when we was talking which I haven’t felt since I was much younger and haven’t while in other long term relationships it felt sooo good. We kept talking and things kept building and eventually we met up properly for the first time. We had a great day out together and upon her request, I stayed the night at her house. I can’t begin to describe how great the sex we had was not just for me but for her aswell. I’ve had very unhealthy sexual relationships with my past relationships so it meant quite a big deal to me. She had also dealt with similar issues.

After that night we continued talking as normal but she slowly started pulling away and would get super nervous when I’d ask to see her again. About a little over a month ago she ended things with me and she she said she was feeling very avoidant with me, that she doesn’t think she’s ready for a relationship and she wants to figure all of this out with other people. I was admittedly very heartbroken and I usually get super emotional and try to fight for them to stay in these kind of situations but I just respectfully said I understood and wished her the best.

A few weeks later I still can’t get the sex out of my mind so I figured I didn’t have anything to lose in asking if she’s be interested in something casual with me which she was surprisingly very for. Thing is she is currently right in the middle of exams and doesn’t want to do anything until afterwards which is perfectly understandable! Exams are super stressful. But the issue is that we’ve been talking to each other every single day since and it’s like we never ended things. There’s no calls or romantic flirting necessarily but there’s a lot sexual flirting. Like what we’ve been doing to the thought of each other, what we want to do with one another, dynamics all that stuff it’s very exciting. But I can’t help but feel like I can’t keep my feelings for her down and out of the way. I’m seriously in love with this girl and I really thought I could do a one time, casual thing with her without it getting complicated but idk now.

I think the answers already very clear that there isn’t much in the way of a chance that we could develop into something from this but I wanted to ask for opinions anyway.

I say i understand but I truly don’t sometimes, we get along really great even without the sex and I know she wants to be loved deeply and I truly think I’ve never wanted to love someone like that more

Title about sums it up. I feel irrelevant to most of my friends most of the time and I’ve had a very hard time adjusting to the my new “life” I guess. I split up with my long term girlfriend just before the end of last year and I’ve been a weird “in between” sort of phase of my life where I’ve not been working towards much.

My ex lived a decent bit away from me, so I was always going to a from and interacting with all these different people and it felt good, like another world. I obviously don’t have that anymore and it’s made me kind of hyper-focus on my friend’s lives and how I’m barely a part of it.

I miss living with agency and having my own world that makes me not care about what others are doing if that makes sense? Wondering if anyone else has been in a similar spot and when did/if it changed for them?

I’m at a bit of a loss of what to do. I’ve been having just an absolutely foul taste in my mouth (feels like it’s kind of at the roof of it?) for a few weeks now. It’s tastes like rotten crap. It’s not constant only happens when I swallow something. I’ve been absolutely convinced it was a tonsil stone but I’ve tried all the home remedies like warm salt water and it’s not helped.

I had a dentist check up yesterday and asked if they could help but they said they can’t and they don’t see anything of concern. Idk if it’s a tonsil stone that’s really deep or if it’s something else entirely.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated

This year has been pretty much nothing but a downhill slope for me and every time I think I see things getting better I’m brought back down to an entirely new low. I’m 18m and in September of last year I had a nasty breakup with my lost term girlfriend which was already heartbreaking enough before I found out she got with her guy best friend whom she told me not to worry about not even a month after we split. The same guy best friend I trusted her to be alone with at his house not long before we broke up.

For the entirety of this year I’ve been unemployed living with my parents and doing pretty much nothing but trying to get my driving license. The job market where I live is basically in the gutter for young people though I’m the only person my age I know of who seems to be struggling so much to find even one place that will let me work for them.

I started the year off with a very solid group of friends (two couples and myself) who have now only got time for themselves and their friends meaning I don’t get out and socialise anywhere near as much as I used to. It used to be so effortless.

One of the couples in my group had a very close female friend who they would often hang out with. She started following me a few months back and we began talking and when my friends found out they explicitly told me not to talk to her romantically. Both of us wanted to keep talking to eachother despite this and we hit it off really well and were dating in secret with the promise of telling them when we were ready to. We had sex about a month ago on the first time we met and she then since would keep avoiding the topic of seeing me again. This ended last week when she told me she’s not ready for a relationship because she basically wants to try things out and make mistakes etc.

I always wondered why my friends that are a couple were so protective over her and I’m pretty sure it’s because they want to have a threesome with her. Pureply speculative I will agree but they’re has definitely been some weird stuff that very much points to it being the case and I’m not the only person who’s thought this. Anyway the three of them hangout and get drunk at eachothers house basically every weekend so I can only assume. It makes me feel sick

These might be little people problems idk I just feel so hopeless and i miss when things looked like they were going well for me. I miss when I was excited about life because I’d always be doing something and have plans. I miss when my phone was full of messages from friends and someone I loved. I miss when I was working towards something

I’m desperate can someone please talk to me

This year has been pretty much nothing but a downhill slope for me and every time I think I see things getting better I’m brought back down to an entirely new low. I’m 18m and in September of last year I had a nasty breakup with my lost term girlfriend which was already heartbreaking enough before I found out she got with her guy best friend whom she told me not to worry about not even a month after we split. The same guy best friend I trusted her to be alone with at his house not long before we broke up.

For the entirety of this year I’ve been unemployed living with my parents and doing pretty much nothing but trying to get my driving license. The job market where I live is basically in the gutter for young people though I’m the only person my age I know of who seems to be struggling so much to find even one place that will let me work for them.

I started the year off with a very solid group of friends (two couples and myself) who have now only got time for themselves and their friends meaning I don’t get out and socialise anywhere near as much as I used to. It used to be so effortless.

One of the couples in my group had a very close female friend who they would often hang out with. She started following me a few months back and we began talking and when my friends found out they explicitly told me not to talk to her romantically. Both of us wanted to keep talking to eachother despite this and we hit it off really well and were dating in secret with the promise of telling them when we were ready to. We had sex about a month ago on the first time we met and she then since would keep avoiding the topic of seeing me again. This ended last week when she told me she’s not ready for a relationship because she basically wants to try things out and make mistakes etc.

I always wondered why my friends that are a couple were so protective over her and I’m pretty sure it’s because they want to have a threesome with her. Pureply speculative I will agree but they’re has definitely been some weird stuff that very much points to it being the case and I’m not the only person who’s thought this. Anyway the three of them hangout and get drunk at eachothers house basically every weekend so I can only assume. It makes me feel sick

These might be little people problems idk I just feel so hopeless and i miss when things looked like they were going well for me. I miss when I was excited about life because I’d always be doing something and have plans. I miss when my phone was full of messages from friends and someone I loved. I miss when I was working towards something

I’m desperate can someone please talk to me

This year has been pretty much nothing but a downhill slope for me and every time I think I see things getting better I’m brought back down to an entirely new low. I’m 18m and in September of last year I had a nasty breakup with my lost term girlfriend which was already heartbreaking enough before I found out she got with her guy best friend whom she told me not to worry about not even a month after we split. The same guy best friend I trusted her to be alone with at his house not long before we broke up.

For the entirety of this year I’ve been unemployed living with my parents and doing pretty much nothing but trying to get my driving license. The job market where I live is basically in the gutter for young people though I’m the only person my age I know of who seems to be struggling so much to find even one place that will let me work for them.

I started the year off with a very solid group of friends (two couples and myself) who have now only got time for themselves and their friends meaning I don’t get out and socialise anywhere near as much as I used to. It used to be so effortless.

One of the couples in my group had a very close female friend who they would often hang out with. She started following me a few months back and we began talking and when my friends found out they explicitly told me not to talk to her romantically. Both of us wanted to keep talking to eachother despite this and we hit it off really well and were dating in secret with the promise of telling them when we were ready to. We had sex about a month ago on the first time we met and she then since would keep avoiding the topic of seeing me again. This ended last week when she told me she’s not ready for a relationship because she basically wants to try things out and make mistakes etc.

I always wondered why my friends that are a couple were so protective over her and I’m pretty sure it’s because they want to have a threesome with her. Pureply speculative I will agree but they’re has definitely been some weird stuff that very much points to it being the case and I’m not the only person who’s thought this. Anyway the three of them hangout and get drunk at eachothers house basically every weekend so I can only assume. It makes me feel sick

These might be little people problems idk I just feel so hopeless and i miss when things looked like they were going well for me. I miss when I was excited about life because I’d always be doing something and have plans. I miss when my phone was full of messages from friends and someone I loved. I miss when I was working towards something