u/ElectricalBad2973

I was walking with my boyfriend and I thought he slapped a fly off his face. he then started rubbing his hand across his lips and I freaked out and tried to knock/pull his hand off his face b/c I thought he was smearing fly guts on his lips. i apozied and he said it was fine and I didn’t hurt him but I’m so worried I was physically abusing him. we of playfully grab/ play punch each other but I’m worried I meant to harm him and now I can’t stop crying. Im going to turn myself in for abuse in the morning b/c I can’t take this

hey im in a lot of disteess so I’m hoping you all can help. I’m having an ocd moment that’s tearing me up. >! when I was a kid around 13ish I think I took a picture of my sister on the toilet !<. I asked a hotline and they said this was problematic sexual behavior. the thing is I’m not sure this memory is real? it’s very blurry and certain things keep changing at first the picture was with a phone but then it was with a camera and the door was open in the memory which was weird. I think I might have thought about this memory being real before but I don’t know. the memory itself feels weird. I want to take accountability if this memory is real and I’m worried I’m just thinking it was false b/c I don’t want to face the consequences of my actions. what do I do? any advice is really welcome

I’m struggling with real event ocd and now I’m feeling hopeless and completely lost. when I was a kid 12ish I took a picture of sister in the bathroom as a joke and then ran away laughing. when she got upset I deleted the picture this memory has never brothered me until now when I learned about problematic sexual behavior and I’m worried this be fits that description or is even CoCsa !< I cant stop thinking about this. I’ve been having panic attacks and getting sick to my stomach. I’ve even been making up rituals like having to count to certain numbers or I‘d have done these things. I’m just stuck with no idea what to do and this is too horrible to speak about with anyone

sorry if y’all get ?s like this all the time but im at a loss. when I (F21) was 12 I tried to get a tampon in with my moms help and ended up screaming in pain. I finally got one in but that was the one and only time I’ve been able to do it. I’ve tried since and it’s like my body is just closed.

recently I got my 1st bf and we tried umm >! fingers up there !< (idk what im allowed to say on reddit) I enjoyed it over clothes but the moment they were off it got weird. my Body wasn’t responding anymore and he couldn’t get in. I’m also pretty sore now although that could have been the underwear k was wearing. I don’t want to go the doctors if it’s nothing but I don’t want to ignore this.

I don’t have any trauma that might have caused this reaction as far as I can’t remember (although I’ve always been weird about things like this) so maybe it’s just my anxiety disorde?? idk. I’m looking for any help I can get at this point

thank you all sm

I contacted a helpline for ppl concerned about their sexual behavior about my childhood behavior b/c I was worried it was abuse. ( >! self touch during play !<) the person on the other end said it wasn’t abuse if it could be considered problematic. then she said that she thinks the word inappropriate might fit better. then she said it was inappropriate and potentially problematic. now im so confused. is my behavior be problematic or not? she said inappropriate and problematic can be interchangble a lot of the time is this true?

I have a question about if something would be reassurance seeking or taking accountability or wrong I may have done.

I had ocd about some behavior from when I was around young. Ive been worried i committed a horrible crime !>cocsa!< in my childhood. (>! self touch during and to story games!<) I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse. one therapist who specializes in this stuff also told me it was developmentally normal behavior and common. one therapist agreed that it wasn’t harmful or abusive but said it crossed boundaries which made me worry it was problematic.

i found another therapy hotline and even though its owned by the same organization of I asked before I’m thinking of messaging them and asking if my behavior was problematic tho not abusive. a friend who knows a little bit about my condition though not the details thinks this would be reassurance seeking. I’ve already apologized to the person who the behavior was with and they told me it was fine and they weren’t harmed.

if I did hurt them I don’t want to ask again and re traumatize them so this feels like my last chance at accountability. I don’t want to feed into my ocd tho so I’m not sure if I should reach out to the hotline

ive been having real event ocd for the past ish years right now. I can’t stop reassurance seeking to be sure I didn’t commit a horrible crime >! CoCsa !< in my childhood. I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse. one therapist who specializes in this stuff also told me it was developmentally normal behavior and common. one therapist agreed that it wasn’t harmful or abusiev but said it crossed boundaries which made me worry it was problematic.

so although I’ve been told it wasn’t harmful by prof and the person involved but Now I’ve decided it was problmatic instead. I just checked in again for the 2nd time in less than 24 hours and it was vague and didn’t even make me feel better and I’m so exhausted now. I’ve been trying to get an ocd therapist but it’s been very difficult. I have an appointment in may where I’m going to be reading out to my doctor about seeing an ocd therapist but I would love some advice on anything I can do to combat this reassurance seeking while I wait to get counseling because the guilt and shame is ruining my life to the point I’m throwing up out of guilt.

thank you so much!

ive been having real event ocd for the past ish years right now. I can’t stop reassurance seeking to be sure I didn’t commit a horrible crime CoCsa in my childhood. I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse but Now I’ve decided it was problmatic instead. I just checked in again for the 2nd time in less than 24 hours and it was vague and didn’t even make me feel better and I’m so exhausted now. all I want to do is sleep. I need this to be over please. I can’t get a real lasting therapist and I can’t tell anyone this anyway. I’m exhausted

ive been having real event ocd for the past ish years right now. I can’t stop reassurance seeking to be sure I didn’t commit a horrible crime >! CoCsa !< in my childhood. I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse but Now I’ve decided it was problmatic instead. I just checked in again for the 2nd time in less than 24 hours and it was vague and didn’t even make me feel better and I’m so exhausted now. all I want to do is sleep. I need this to be over please. I can’t get a real lasting therapist and I can’t tell anyone this anyway. I’m exhausted