in general posting i usually see the twoversions listed seperately. considering paradise is almost just born to die deluxe, why?
to say my mom's religious is an understatement. she is crazy for Jesus. and i (16f) wouldnt blame her. she came from a holy home near several catholic churches. i have a bunch of friends who are religious too. in my opinion, church is just an odd way of teaching morals, but if you arent rude about it, youre fine.
if only this religion didnt lead to selfishness and so many isms.
my first interaction with this shit was in kindergarten. she told me to make friends with only catholic kids. weird, and i ignored it. right i was.
one time, i was a fucking 8yr old at disney world and she started going off at some guy about how he was racist (he literally just bumped into her by accident). she eventually got to the point of "JESUS HATES YOU " and shit.
then, at some point around 13, i started reading heartstopper. its cute, its gay, and it teaches self-acceptance. my mom found a few screenshots i had from the comic and she literally started to talk about and preach about how gay people shouldnt exist and are against jesus. i was so confused, since it was around that time i realized i was also a fello bisexual and got my first girl crush.
she also gets really quiet when i talk about some of my friends who are lgbtq. i had a friend who now goes by they/them, and my mom loved their "previous self and gender". i then corrected my mo once and told her they were trans, but she continued to ignore their new pronouns saying "trans was fake". she even got to the point of being transphobic in front of said trans friend.
and i guess i havent touched much on how she blames all problems on me. she usually says stuff like "since you pray youre perfect" and stuff. when something goes wrong, she says something like "well you should have reminded me!" and stuff and ignores us when we argue back. as someone who debates, this stinks. i always know shes not telling the truth, but there is no way im going to push too much at this point. she knows its her fault that she forgot completely about paying for a debate camp. she knows its her fault she forced me to buy a specific brand of cheap amazon grow lights that she realized 2 days later were "really hot and probably flammable" so she took them away. she knows its her fault that she told me to put nuts in the banana bread and then said "oh i didnt mean those ones" when the ones she wanted we have NEVER FUCKING BOUGHT BEFORE.
now, our town got impacted by the big midwest storm tornado. kind of hard. our town just got our lights back on, and we were happy, right? then i left for a walk, and i get this fucking text in our family group chat and it says:
"You forgot to say prayers. Powers out again."
and according to my little brother, my older brother just accepts it and prays then and there. and when i get home, my dad just watches and looks at me dissapointed, like he always has when this shit happens. and my younger brother goes along woth his day, not knowing what the fuck just happened. then they all look at me as if its MY FAULT the lights are not working.
i dont even know what to think anymore. this is just shit at this point. but here's my prayer: dear God, if you're real, please get my mom to stop using you as an excuse.
last year i (16f) have a really tough season and lost many rounds. this dropped my confidence quite a lot.
i trained a lot for the newer season this summer with research, online practice rounds, and even debating a local debate coach in person. i was perfectly confident in all of those.
this week i participated ina local debate camp. it was formatted world schools. i was 3rd speaker and participated in two rounds. i had a panic attack during both and struggled to voice my arguments.
i knew the exact responses and everything. im not quite sure what went wrong. my opponents in other rounds praised my rebuttal, but im not sure whether if that is true or not. my mind blaned immediately after i did a brief summary of the round and i could barely make clear arguments.
i want to know what happened that triggered the attack and how i can deal with it.
thank you.
ive been taking vocal lessons for a while, but ive been having some doubts recently.
so yeah. i dont know whether i should leave especially since i do a lot of different types of things with my voice. id be grateful for input :)
lost my beat solo buds while both were in their case, and find my isnt helping at all. it simply says "location not found".
this isnt a first time occurrence for me. no matter where it is. it says no location found unless i used it very recently before.
any tips? ty
at the moment, our area's core files (ENDI) have not been released to public. What should I study for the year? at the moment i have studied mostly just health insurance terms and how it works
so im losing my hair. used to wash my hair every day, one shampoo, sometimes conditioner. a few months ago, i switched to washing 2-3 times per week (mon, wed, sat). i started losing hair about 3 weeks ago. is this normal?
routine is currently head+shoulders 1st wash, pantene ultimate care shampoo 2nd wash, conditioner same as 2nd wash but their conditioner
hair type idk bc its thick but straight (asian black)