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Not dreaming that I'm gambling more like being scared in the dreams that I will gamble again. Started on day 9. Can anyone relate?

I used to think about winning money every day for 4 months because I desperately needed money for treatment of my health problems. I still need the money but since stopping online gambling after I realized that I'm addicted, I'm now scared of winning any money and even scared of money in general. It sucks so much. When I would get paid, I would always divide my money first for groceries, pets, necessities and then gamble with the rest that was free. Now I'm scared of all of the money in general. Will that ever go away? I also dreamt for the first time about gambling. Even in the dream it was about unfinished gambling that needed to be done to win money but I was scared to get back to it myself, so I was begging someone else to do it just so we could get the money. Weird dream and I hated it. I wish I could delete the whole gambling part of my life permanently.

I used to think about winning money every day for 4 months because I desperately needed money for treatment of my health problems. I still need the money but since stopping online gambling after I realized that I'm addicted, I'm now scared of winning any money and even scared of money in general. It sucks so much. When I would get paid, I would always divide my money first for groceries, pets, necessities and then gamble with the rest that was free. Now I'm scared of all of the money in general. Will that ever go away? I also dreamt for the first time about gambling. Even in the dream it was about unfinished gambling that needed to be done to win money but I was scared to get back to it myself, so I was begging someone else to do it just so we could get the money. Weird dream and I hated it. I wish I could delete the whole gambling part of my life permanently.

Doing everything I can for this in the mundane world, too.

I unfortunately developed gambling addiction after becoming suddenly mostly bed bound due to health problems and needing to get money for expensive treatment. That turned into a coping mechanism and I only realized after 4 months went by that it turned into an addiction. Not new to the demonolatry in any way. Been one week free from gambling as of rn. Don't have any debts from this fortunately, only the addiction.

I was wondering if there was any demon that could help me to get rid of this. I read about Buer, Zagan, Belial, Beelzebub. I'll take any suggestions. Thank you.

Has anyone read it and did it help?

And I don't mean in terms of gambling responsibly. I don't believe 'gambling responsibly' should even exist. I think casinos should be illegal.

I mean in terms of not thinking daily about gambling, it not looming over your head. Not having urges. Being able to handle your own money. Being able to walk past or even stand next to someone in casino and not be tempted to gamble. For it to become your past, not to be something you have to live with for the rest of your life.

I'm on day 6 after 4 months of daily gambling and struggling to see the point of anything. I don't want to be addict for the rest of my life because of the 4 months.

I used to have binge eating disorder(I also had very bad case of anorexia). Took years to get fully over it. And I don't get urges anymore or feel tempted when I'm next to my 'binge food'. It's something in the past but I would never start overeating again to not trigger it in any case. I know that it's very different than gambling addiction but I don't know what else to compare it to.

Would appreciate any responses from people who were able to stop this.

It's day 6 after stopping. I hate what I have done to myself. I keep waking up thinking about how I have ruined my life. I started playing online casinos in very desperate times after becoming bed bound from health problems and needing money for expensive treatment. I never got the money for treatment and my health never got better. But still if someone could grant me a wish to be physically healthy or to be free of this addiction - I would choose the latter. Gosh even if I could go back in time and win millions on the first spin I would rather decline that and choose instead to never start gambling. The anxiety, guilt, regret, urges and fear that came after stopping are not worth anything.

It's day 6 after stopping. I hate what I have done to myself. I keep waking up thinking about how I have ruined my life. I started playing online casinos in very desperate times after becoming bed bound from health problems and needing money for expensive treatment. I never got the money for treatment and my health never got better. But still if someone could grant me a wish to be physically healthy or to be free of this addiction - I would choose the latter. Gosh even if I could go back in time and win millions on the first spin I would rather decline that and choose instead to never start gambling. The anxiety, guilt, regret, urges and fear that came after stopping are not worth anything.

It's day 5 after stopping. And I don't think about winning money or regret losing any money. I don't think about chasing losses. I wake up everyday feeling anxious and angry at myself for developing this evil habit. For making myself dependent on it. The anxiety, restlessness, inability to focus, guilt..it's so much more important than the money lost. I regret registering in the online casino in the first place..the house always wins even if you win some money the way it damages your brain is it really a win? You are the one losing your healthy mind. And no money is ever worth that. So I spend the whole day wanting to erase that part of my brain that discovered gambling. I miss my quiet mind. I have serious health problems that got me into this mess and I swear to God I would rather struggle mentally because of them if it meant that I could erase the memory of gambling entirely.

It's day 4 for me. Yesterday I felt better before I went to sleep and thought that maybe I will get through this but I just woke up and it's awful again. I miss the quiet mind that I had when I was playing online casinos. The anxiety, restlessness, the feeling that this is forever and I will never feel normal again. And I just want it all to stop, that's when I think about playing again. I fell into this after becoming bed bound from health problems to get money for expensive treatment. But my health problems never got better and I ended up using this as coping mechanism for past 4-6 months. I'm so scared that I will feel like this permanently. And I have no distractions and I hate myself so much that I started gambling in the first place. I keep thinking back to when I was healthy and never needed this. I never drank, smoked or anything. I was in casino when I was healthy and never played anything or even thought about playing because I didn't need it in my life.

Hoping this will get better and easier. I plan on writing emails to all online casinos to delete my accounts and to ban me from reentering. Self excluding from the state would be better but I'm not able to leave my house currently because of my health problems that got me into this gambling mess so this will have to be enough. The first two days were extremely bad. Today has been maybe 20% easier. I hope that I can get past this and never think about playing ever again. I am still ashamed and hate myself for developing this evil addiction in only 4-6 months of playing it. I keep reading how probable is the recovery. I already recovered from binge eating few years ago, and recovered from anorexia 12 years ago, which is supposed to have the highest mortality rate so I'm really hoping that I can beat this one too. Stay strong everyone.

It's only day 2 for me after 6 months of gambling (had 6 weeks break at the start, should have never gotten back to it).

The constant restlessness and anxiety is horrible. I want it to stop and that's when I think about online gambling again not because I want to play but because I want this awful feeling to stop. My mind keeps telling me that it will NEVER go away and that I will relapse.

It's only day 2 for me after 6 months of gambling (had 6 weeks break at the start, should have never gotten back to it).

The constant restlessness and anxiety is horrible. I want it to stop and that's when I think about online gambling again not because I want to play but because I want this awful feeling to stop. My mind keeps telling me that it will NEVER go away and that I will relapse.

I used to suffer from binge eating when I was young 12-13 years old. Very badly. Took me maybe 8 years to fully recover. In the end I stopped craving junk food entirely and haven't touched it in past 874 days. The thing that helped me tremendously with the recovery at the start was book called Brain over binge. So I was wondering if there's a book that was helpful when stopping gambling addiction?

I used to suffer from binge eating when I was young 12-13 years old. Very badly. Took me maybe 8 years to fully recover. In the end I stopped craving junk food entirely and haven't touched it in past 874 days. The thing that helped me tremendously with the recovery at the start was book called Brain over binge. So I was wondering if there's a book that was helpful when stopping gambling addiction?

I have this restless tension feeling inside of me and anxiety since I found out that I have no money to spend on online gambling anymore. It's what scared me into stopping. I started to gamble about 6 months ago. Got scared after first three weeks managed to went 6 weeks without it, then relapsed and since then it's been 4 months of daily gambling. I am only 240 in debt so not a huge loss when it comes to money. But the anxiety that started when I couldn't play anymore and decided to quit scares me badly. I am scared that this feeling won't go away. How long does this anxiety usually last?

I have this restless tension feeling inside of me and anxiety since I found out that I have no money to spend on online gambling anymore. It's what scared me into stopping. I started to gamble about 6 months ago. Got scared after first three weeks managed to went 6 weeks without it, then relapsed and since then it's been 4 months of daily gambling. I am only 240 in debt so not a huge loss when it comes to money. But the anxiety that started when I couldn't play anymore and decided to quit scares me badly. I am scared that this feeling won't go away. How long does this anxiety usually last?

Hi. Sorry for my English in advance. Trigger warning maybe for some. I'm 26 years old. I never wanted to gamble in my life until I started to have extreme health problems and became bedbound. I lost some money after three weeks of playing online casino and became scared and stopped for 6 weeks. Then I started again because I desperately needed resources for some treatment. I didn't realize it was becoming a problem and didn't realize that I could only go 2-5 days without it. It became my escape from reality, where I could spend my day so I would not think about my health problems since I had nothing else to do and I became desperate to do anything so I could get better. I only realized yesterday after 4 months when I didn't have anything to pay to play anymore and knew that I will have my paycheck in 15 days and suddenly anxiety hit me. That scared me badly that I suddenly felt anxiety because I can't play. I blocked all online casino sites but the feeling of being extremely restless and deep tension didn't leave me. I couldn't fall asleep until it was like 10 hours later. I just woke up after 4 hours and the feeling of anxiety and restlessness is back. I'm angry at myself because my health problems are already bad enough and I'm struggling mentally because of them without this being added on top of it. I'm really scared right now because I'm bed bound so it's not like I have any distractions. I never played anything when I was healthy. It's been 15 hours since I stopped and the anxiety started. I don't know what to do. Is there anyone that could help me? How long do this stage last? I'm ashamed of myself because I already have enough on my plate and I messed myself up even more.

Hi. Sorry for my English in advance. I'm mid 20s. I never wanted to gamble in my life until I started to have extreme health problems and became bedbound. I lost some money after three weeks of playing online casino and became scared and stopped for 6 weeks. Then I started again because I desperately needed resources for some treatment. I didn't realize it was becoming a problem and didn't realize that I could only go 2-5 days without it. It became my escape from reality, where I could spend my day so I would not think about my health problems since I had nothing else to do and I became desperate to do anything so I could get better. I only realized yesterday after 4 months when I didn't have anything to pay to play anymore and knew that I will have my paycheck in 15 days and suddenly anxiety hit me. That scared me badly that I suddenly felt anxiety because I can't play. I blocked all online casino sites but the feeling of being extremely restless and deep tension didn't leave me. I couldn't fall asleep until it was like 10 hours later. I just woke up after 4 hours and the feeling of anxiety and restlessness is back. I'm angry at myself because my health problems are already bad enough and I'm struggling mentally because of them without this being added on top of it. I'm really scared right now because I'm bed bound so it's not like I have any distractions. I never played anything when I was healthy. It's been 15 hours since I stopped and the anxiety started. I don't know what to do. Is there anyone that could help me? How long do this stage last? I'm ashamed of myself because I already have enough on my plate and I messed myself up even more.

Hi. Sorry for my English in advance. I'm 26 years old. I never wanted to gamble in my life until I started to have extreme health problems and became bedbound. I lost some money after three weeks of playing online casino and became scared and stopped for 6 weeks. Then I started again because I desperately needed resources for some treatment. I didn't realize it was becoming a problem and didn't realize that I could only go 2-5 days without it. It became my escape from reality, where I could spend my day so I would not think about my health problems since I had nothing else to do and I became desperate to do anything so I could get better. I only realized yesterday after 4 months when I didn't have anything to pay to play anymore and knew that I will have my paycheck in 15 days and suddenly anxiety hit me. That scared me badly that I suddenly felt anxiety because I can't play. I blocked all online casino sites but the feeling of being extremely restless and deep tension didn't leave me. I couldn't fall asleep until it was like 10 hours later. I just woke up after 4 hours and the feeling of anxiety and restlessness is back. I'm angry at myself because my health problems are already bad enough and I'm struggling mentally because of them without this being added on top of it. I'm really scared right now because I'm bed bound so it's not like I have any distractions. I never played anything when I was healthy. It's been 15 hours since I stopped and the anxiety started. I don't know what to do. Is there anyone that could help me? How long do this stage last? I'm ashamed of myself because I already have enough on my plate and I messed myself up even more.