u/Expert_Fig_7561

TW: SH, suicidal ideation and depression

I'm in the process of getting referred to Riksen, and the past couple months my mental health has gotten really bad, bordering moderate to severe depression. I've started SH again and daily contemplate taking my own life.

I had my first call with the mental health evaluation guy before getting referred, I'm not proud of it but I lied about my depression, I said I haven't been depressed since 2022/2023. I'm scared that I'll get refused if I'm honest, but it's getting so bad and I'm at a point where I think I really do need help. I've been fighting to get a referral for the past 5 years.

I don't know what to do, if anyone knows how Riksen reacts to moderate-severe depression, please share your experience if comfortable. I'm really at a crossroads and feel like I have to choose between top/bottom surgery and getting help.. what do I do?

A little TW for brief mention of medical gastlighting

After 10+ years of basically having to fist fight doctors(not literally lmao) and horrible stomach issues, i finally have a celiac test scheduled. I have never had an allergy test, i have never been physically examined, never been referred anywhere. Ive been gaslit and manipulated by doctors for 10+ years. I switched to my current GP not long ago, today was my first appointment with her and SHE made the suggestion for a celiac test within the first few minutes of talking. My jaw dropped, I didn't have to push for testing, that wasn't even my intention with this appointment! Had to restrain myself from hugging her and crying. I'm so angry and happy at the same time. I can't believe it was this easy all this time.

Time to stuff my face full of gluten for the next 2 weeks! Been eating a lot already today and I'm already in pain, so wish me luck :')

24(AFAB) , for around 4-5 days I've experienced green discharge and pain/burning when peeing and lower abdominal and back pain with nausea. I'm getting a bit concerned cause now it's bloody as well, it's a very very little amount of blood but still. I don't get my periods anymore so the blood isn't that. It doesn't smell, it itches a tiny bit but not like yeast infection as I've had those before. I'm wondering if anyone knows what this could be and what I can do about it?

probably good to mention that I have a 6 year old copper IUD, idk if it's relevant but worth it to throw it in here

I have two vertical helix piercings and they're both struggling to heal. They have one huge bump each on top, and smell very strongly of how an infected wound smells like. It's giving me a severe headache. My body feels like I have a fever and im freezing but temp says 36.8⁰C and I've been insanely nauseous lately but I'm unsure if that's related or not.They feel a little warm but not pulsing or anything, just numb. It's around 2 months since I got them pierced, titanium labrets, internally threaded. Cleaning daily with sterile saline spray. not gotten a chance to downsize yet.

is there anything I can do at home to help them? I'm not really in a position where i can go to my GP or my piercer

I have a sensitive nose and get migraines from different scents. I'm wondering if there are and brands or sites that offer small samples of their men's deodorants? Anything I can find in person in my country all smells very soapy and the soapy smell is one of the triggers. I have tried a couple different brands and scents, and nothing on them say that they should smell like soap, but they all do!

I'm intrigued by the Dr. Squatch "wood barrel bourbon" but I'm not sure I want to spend 14€ on something I don't know what smells like. So if anyone has tried that specific deodorant, please would you let me know how it smells and if it smells soapy or really strong?:)

(unscented deodorant + cologne is not an option for me)