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My friend has made a huge, busy, successful life for herself after high school. She has many friends, is incredibly smart and well-spoken/travelled, and she is very confident in who she is. She doesn’t care what other people think of her. I, on the other hand, only just realized what I want to do with my life. I live with my parents. I struggle with binge eating disorder. I have one boyfriend and two surface level friends that I rarely see. Most of my free time is spent getting high and watching tv shows. And I’ve always kind of been like this, even in high school. But in high school, I still had a pretty solid personality and was fun to be around and was very relaxed and open around the friend in question.

But ever since she moved away to college, whenever we come back together to hang out, I am so awkward around her. I just don’t know what to say to her. I’m not really as funny and relaxed as I used to be; I’m mostly weird and self conscious. How can I relax and be myself again?

Edit: I also want to preface that I do go to school as well and I engaged in some things that interest me, but none of it seems to be helping make me into a whole person again.

I just finished reading intuitive eating today. I have struggled with binge eating for most of my development years. I’m twenty two now (and a woman). I have tried practicing intuitive eating for the past few weeks, but I am really struggling. I am either surrounded by women whose main priority is to lose weight and be thin, or around women who already are thin.

My mom and my dad have been dieting on and off for as long as I remember. The stuff that my mom says makes me feel really sad and bad for her. She’s almost 60 and she still hasn’t released herself from the clenched jaws of diet culture. My boyfriend is kind of starting to be orthorexic vibes, being obsessed with seed oils and “perfect nutrition” and is not shy of preaching to me about his beliefs. Even my older sister is constantly making comments about how she needs to be dieting. It’s really just the language that they use that really affects me.

I live with my parents and they rarely keep the fridge or pantries stocked with anything super substantial or tasty because they are dieting. I plan to do my own grocery shopping and find some stuff that I like, but I have yet to do so.

I have been relapsing and bingeing basically every night for the past week or so. I have been really stressed with my schedule, and everybody’s obsession with losing weight is really starting to weigh on me and make this hard.

Does anybody have any advice on how I can tune out this diet talk when it’s kind of…constant?

I’ve struggled with BED since high school, but it got pretty bad 2 years ago. I’ve been weight cycling and dieting and relapsing over and over for the past two years. Recently, I started reading the Intuitive Eating book and I have begun my journey to becoming an intuitive eater and recovering from BED. I am still in a very fragile period, and still bingeing when I am particularly stressed out.

My boyfriend is very supportive and loving. But he has unfortunately fallen into the seed oils, raw milk, organic vs non-organic, etc. food trap. I don’t have enough information and tact to debate him on the topic, and he is completely convinced. He will preach to me about the importance of healthy eating and condemns “junk” food. He talks poorly about his weight and appearance and criticizes me and himself for making “poor eating choices.” He sends me instagram reels of that one guy in a suit reacting to people’s eating videos and making “jokes” condemning their eating choices…that might be a niche reference.

He doesn’t outwardly criticize me or try to tell me that I am making a bad choice in a controlling kind of way. He just makes kind of…wayward comments. For example, I had had a whole week of “clean” eating and I expressed to him over text that I was really craving some chips. He then says, “why would you want to ruin a whole good week by eating that crap.” I told him off and told him not to make pointed comments about my eating like that because it makes me uncomfortable. Luckily, he hasn’t said anything quite as direct since then.

It is triggering me because it makes me feel judged and feel guilty about my own eating habits. I try to explain to him how his words affect me, but I have a really hard time speaking in a concise way to get him to understand me. How can I talk to him
about this in a way that he will really get it? How can I cope and not let his comments affect me?

I’ve struggled with BED since high school, but it got pretty bad 2 years ago. I’ve been weight cycling and dieting and relapsing over and over for the past two years. Recently, I started reading the Intuitive Eating book and I have begun my journey to becoming an intuitive eater and recovering from BED. I am still in a very fragile period, and still bingeing when I am particularly stressed out.

My boyfriend is very supportive and loving. But he has unfortunately fallen into the seed oils, raw milk, organic vs non-organic, etc. food trap. I don’t have enough information and tact to debate him on the topic, and he is completely convinced. He will preach to me about the importance of healthy eating and condemns “junk” food. He talks poorly about his weight and appearance and criticizes me and himself for making “poor eating choices.” He sends me instagram reels of that one guy in a suit reacting to people’s eating videos and making “jokes” condemning their eating choices…that might be a niche reference.

He doesn’t outwardly criticize me or try to tell me that I am making a bad choice in a controlling kind of way. He just makes kind of…wayward comments. For example, I had had a whole week of “clean” eating and I expressed to him over text that I was really craving some chips. He then says, “why would you want to ruin a whole good week by eating that crap.” I told him off and told him not to make pointed comments about my eating like that because it makes me uncomfortable. Luckily, he hasn’t said anything quite as direct since then.

It is triggering me because it makes me feel judged and feel guilty about my own eating habits. I try to explain to him how his words affect me, but I have a really hard time speaking in a concise way to get him to understand me. How can I talk to him
about this in a way that he will really get it? How can I cope and not let his comments affect me?

Last night I did a candle ritual for the strawberry moon. I didn’t know exactly what I was doing, but my friend, who is a little more experienced, told me vaguely what to do over text. I had four candles and I placed them in a square for structure in my life. I had a green, orange, pink, and white candle. I meditated a little and wrote affirmations in my notebook. Then, I tore the paper and burned them, matching the candle color with the type of affirmation. For example, I wrote of abundance and wealth and burned it using the green candle.

Today I am feeling extremely irritable. Everything and everyone is pissing me off. Like, an abnormal amount. And I am not in a point in my menstrual cycle where this would be normal. I was wondering if maybe this has something to do with the ritual…is this normal post-ritual? Did I maybe do something wrong? Or is this merely coincidence?

The only thing that went a little awry during the ritual was that my neighbors were setting off fireworks and they were scaring me. I had to cover my ears a lot. Maybe this ungrounded me and messed with it?

What could this be?? Any advice or input would be helpful. I dislike feeling this way.

I keep trying to watch Pen15 and every single time it pauses like 10-30 seconds in. I will wait to give it a second and it says “an unexpected error occurred.” If I press the back 15 button, it works for a few more seconds before pausing again. And this is LITERALLY only when I try to watch Pen15. I watched ALL of BroadCity after first failing at watching Pen15. I now came back to trying to watch Pen15, in hopes it would work. But it’s STILL PAUSING!! Why! Help pls

Me and my boyfriend came to Iceland for the week. Day one we got super drunk and slept in late the next day. Day two he got sick and we slept in again. And then the next two days we have slept in until 10-11 o clock for no reason. Even though we set an alarm. Our bed is just too comfortable and it feels impossible to wake up in the morning. It is really bumming me out because the days go by so much quicker when we wake up later, since we spend most of our days driving to places 2-3 hours away. And then by the time we get back, all the restaurants are closed and we are completely beat. Does anybody have any tips or tricks to help with this issue?