u/FamiliarTea1705

I need some advice for looking for a job. Types of jobs. Like remotely or in person or overseas etc. I'm currently in college. My matric marks are not all that great. I have no experience with anything. I'm not that smart. I feel like I will mess up but I need this. Is there anything that actually pays well or at least decent? I want something that can make me move out of my families house asap.

I hate hate hate these people so much. I'm not even going to explain. I'll just keep this short. I'm so jealous of people's parents that have jobs and get out of the house and do stuff. I see these people's face everyday 24/7. You know I would feel a bit better if they were gone out of the house for hours and come back later. My dad works from home and it pisses me off because his presence makes me sick but my mom is even worse no one in the house even likes her. She doesn't even have a job and is so entitled. My siblings don't like her too. Even her own siblings don't like her. I'm jealous of people that have a good connection with their family and visit their relatives. I never see my relatives. I do sometimes but it's really rare maybe we'll only see a few of them once every decade.

I don't know if anyone else can relate. I was a top achiever. Always got good grades. When I was younger I loved studying was curious about learning but then I growing up that I only did it because I was forced too and scared into studying to get high grades. (at one point I did kinda like it for myself) I studied just to pass not to learn anything. Like the only thing on my mind was the percentage or number I got. I would always study on time and get good grades. Then from 6th grade I just started procrastinating. I think my phone addiction made me slow and struggle to study. I would sit in front of the tv and computer since I was 5 all day. My dad let me use it for the first time because it was the future you know. But they never put limits on me. I don't think my parents realise how addictive it is. They are still even now till this day repeating the same mistake with their fourth child. It's been like this for all my siblings. Even my oldest sibling. Like you can threaten someone to stop using their devices but they will still continue until you forcefully take it away. I wish my parents did something about it earlier because now that I'm older I realised that it ruined my potential. I'm a bit better now but I don't really care as much anymore. I'm in higher education now. I just study to pass. I enjoy my course right but I just don't care as much or have the energy. I don't enjoy studying. It makes me tired even if I study for very little time.

I mean this isn't the first time this had happened. Today I finally decided to step out of my comfort zone and be more talkative it was so terrifying. I was shaking inside and a group of people told me I look shy and scared. Someone told me that it shows in my eyes. I'm so irritated. I can't even fake being confident because my entire appearance and body language I guess shows that I lack confidence. I hate it when people constantly tell me that I look like I have a rough life. I've been told that I look like I have been bullied. Someone also told me that I look like a victim. (this one shocked me the most) You know they are right but it's so irritating being constantly reminded of it 😞 (sorry if there are any errors)

I'd like to know how does the process work and how long does it usually take if it's from the government?

It can be shared or single. But i think with the budget I can only do shared (R5000 per month or less if possible). and also where can I find places where I could easily walk to shops, parks, healthcare etc?

Typically those who are coming from a toxic household or family with all these expectations and controlling. I'm curious and I'd like to hear.

I'd love to hear some stories. And how far back do you forget things? Is it like from years ago or things that happen recently etc?

I just realised that I have never had any interest in learning anything or watching tv or listening to music as a kid. I used to be curious about things as a kid and it just stopped as a kid as well. Even if I have a slight interest in something or excited about something I'm not that interested as much as I think I should me? I don't know how else to explain this. Maybe it's the way I grew up I have no idea. My energy is too low most of the time and I always feel tired.

I don't know how to explain it. I feel like I laugh so awkwardly and it sounds fake.

I mean the people who have had anxiety symptoms for years. Since you were a kid to adulthood.

Why is it you only get the referral promo only after spending $7 subscription on a tutor? I know that seems little but to some of us that's a lot. But I kinda understand and why can't you choose the amount of lessons you want the first time. You automatically have to pay a subscription. I wouldn't mind paying but it's because maybe I won't have the money all at once and will probably pay more for more lessons as the days go by.

Excluding school, hanging out with friends, work. Like outdoor activities to keep you occupied for the whole day. From 6am-8pm. (during these times). It can be anything like helping people or some some activity to distract my mind.

I was raised in South Africa I've never been in Zim before. I'd like to know what primary and high school was like. Like the rules and how strict things were etc what causes a student to get expelled or suspended? beatings? you know all that. I'm interested.

Are there things that are meant to be kept a secret? are they not allowed to tell their friends? what about their phone number, social media, digital footprint? let's say for instance they tell the trainees to cut off certain people or something like that? what if someone makes up rumors or says things that are not true of you? what happens when it gets out? just curious haha