u/Fit_Bathroom_9522

It’s hard to even know where to start when my mind is constantly running in circles, trying to fix things that are already in the past. Half the time, I feel like I’m completely consumed by this deep sense of regret and frustration with myself, especially when it comes to my ex and everything that went down between us. I catch myself constantly overanalyzing where I went wrong, spiraling into self-criticism, and wondering why it’s so hard for me to just be okay on my own. I get so attached to these old feelings and connections that it completely pulls me out of the present, making me feel unsteady and deeply dissatisfied with who I am right now. I’m just so tired of feeling like my worth or peace of mind depends on someone else’s place in my life, or on a past version of myself that I can't get back.
More than anything, I just want to figure out how to build real stability inside my own head without relying on external validation or ghost stories from the past. I want to learn how to forgive myself for not having it all figured out, to stop looking at my mistakes through a lens of disgust, and to actually feel comfortable in my own skin. Finding stability means learning to trust myself again, giving myself the same grace I so easily extend to other people, and realizing that my life and value don't start and stop with a relationship. I want to build a foundation that isn't easily shaken every time an old memory or heavy emotion surfaces, so I can finally feel grounded in who I am today.

The first photo is of me, and the rest are all pictures from my camera roll / pinterest board! Ask me any questions you may have :)

I am a reflective and intuitive person who is always searching for hidden meanings, underlying patterns, and deeper connections in all areas of life. I feel like navigate the world primarily through my feelings and personal values. I am emotionally sensitive, empathetic, and constantly trying to make sense of complex emotion, thoughts, dynamics, etc. I love experimenting with my self-expression as a way to project who I am on the inside. I can get easily lost in my own head, daydreams, and inner world, but I'm drawn to understanding what makes people tick and finding authentic ways to constantly grow and reinvent myself.

It’s been 2 years of no contact. Every second of every day he’s on my mind. I don’t understand why I feel so tethered to him still. Any future without him in it looks grim to me.

I’m the blue, he is the orange. Any insight is greatly, greatly appreciated! Thank you

It’s been 2 years of no contact. Every second of every day he’s on my mind. I don’t understand why I feel so tethered to him still. Any future without him in itlooks grim to me.

I’m the blue, he’s the orange. Any insight is greatly, greatly appreciated! Thank you.