u/Flaky_Honeydew_5161

Hello yalli finally made after 5 years of horror and pain and miscarriages and trying

This being said today I had my second ultrasound and they said baby is 6w5d and the heartbeat is at 113.

The doctor seemed happy with it but I did the anxious crazy person thingg and started googling. And im seeing a lot of mixed reviews about how thats on the low end.

Anyone else been through this?

This is so exciting and scary at the same time

Im 34 F

I feel like once I got married I lost all of my friends.

There were things that happened and for once I started showing boundaries or speaking my mind and then "poof"

Also when finding new friends I found myself more protective of my bubble and access so now its also harder to make friends...idk its weird

Does this sort of thing happen?

Im just so emotionally drained.

Its been a four year journey with no good news.

Im so sad and I want so bad to for this to work but im dreading finding out the results of my 3rd FET

I just dont think i can bear the bad news.i dont even feel the anxiety or hopefullness in testing before hand. I ahve just been so heart broken

4 years ago i got pregnant and have a chemical

Then 2 years ago i had an ectopic pregnant from my 3rd iui

And now its been my 3rd FET with pgta embryo and im so worried.

I feel like i have no hope 😕

Im in the chicago area

It seems like its not as prestigious and definitely not what I signed up for 10 years ago.

The pay is kinda blah and the market is complicated. Honestly thinking about going into Private equity or law

Does anyone have the same thoughts? Will it ever get better? ​

I have done four egg retrievals, 3 iuis, ive had two miscarriages.

Its been like a 5 year process.

I had one embryo tranfer where we decided to do tese after so the 3 out of 4 egg retreivals were with tese sperm and had way better results

I did a second embryo transfer and it failed.

Now im about to start another and im jist so exhausted. But im.already 34 and all this is so hard.

I dont feel like my husband understands. I dont think he gets how tiring this whole process is and that sucks. Has anyone been thru this with their spouse?

I have posted here before about a lateral move in my company that I wanted to apply for. My manager completely freaked out when i asked him about the oppurtunity. I was 8 months innand he was saying "hr wont let you, why do you wanna move?"

So i let some time pass (from all your guidance thank you) and now im at the company for about 14 months. I went ahead and asked him about the oppurtunity once again. Before I state his response I did want it to be known that he was holding me back, not leveraging me correctly, and im not quite aware why.

He never gave me feedback and during my mid-year review he just focused on himself instead of explaining my oppurtunities to improve. And this begs the question. If he is not discussing clear guidance on how I succeed how is he vouching for me?.....well he isnt. He cant even explain back to me what I do....so begs another question. why keep me.

Well cuz then he has to answer to why people keep moving from his section.

So going back to my story....he started asking me "what would you even do there" and insert any other micro aggressive comments and questions as you wish...he asked.

I didnt give him much of a response other than I want to apply. He approved of that atleast.

Now apparently there was a huge issue with this guy so there were meetings scheduled with upper management. I spoke about the "hr wont let you" comment. He said thats not true. I stated i felt incompetent in this group and I know im not. I gave a multitude of examples why and I felt heard.

Anyway I applied for the position as got an offer 2 days later and senior mangeemnt spoke. I start in a month and my manager is on vacation so when he gets back he will hate his life.

But why do i feel bad? I feel like this is the only way i could kind of get what i wanted about my future. But i feel guilty?

I dont know how much of this i can take anymore. Its been five years.

Five years of people asking and gossiping about me not being pregnant

Five years of weight gain even though I hit the gym and eat WAY HEALTHEIR THAN THE GENERAL PUBLIC
Five years of crying. Non stop crying
Five year of having to do this while working fulltime

in the five years ive had a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy

i have had 3 iuis, ive had a failed IVF attempt and gone through tese and banked like 12 euploid embryos and My BESt ONE PRETTT MUCH DIDNT WORK. dude wtf

I have lost all hope 😔

I dont know how much of this i can take anymore. Its been five years.

Five years of people asking and gossiping about me not being pregnant

Five years of weight gain even though I hit the gym and eat WAY HEALTHEIR THAN THE GENERAL PUBLIC
Five years of crying. Non stop crying
Five year of having to do this while working fulltime

in the five years ive had a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy

i have had 3 iuis, ive had a failed IVF attempt and gone through tese and banked like 12 euploid embryos and it didnt work. dude wtf

I have lost all hope 😔

I know im not supposed to be freaking out but....I totally am.

I dont know why these symptoms are driving me crazy but I keep notice if my breasts are soar or not...and freak out if they are not anymore.

I am trying so hard to not order pregnancy tests...I have the cheap ones and actually tested at 4dpt but it was negative:(. Im blaming it on the test and keep pushing away from getting the expensive ones due to my appointment for hcg is coming on Monday. ​

Im spiraling. Is it too late for me if I tested negative on day 4 post transfer.

Also i transferred a 5AB. Pgta tested.

Its been four days since my FET and I have lower back pain and cramping on and off.

Are these signs that the embryo is sticking or is it too early to check?

I started a new job a year ago. After leaving public sector doing amazing things, building up an amazing resume, and traveling around the world. After lots of people took the first severance package I went and looked for a job as the cool traveling became almost mandatory and I spent no time at home. Cool for a 23 year old...but now someone in their late 30s...if thats not your thing ofcourse.

So anyway 7 months into my new role I asked about an oppurtunity I was referred to. I was so excited for getting a legitimate referral.

I brought it up to my manager super excited. And he began to freak the f out. I know this sounds strange but thats the best way of describing it.

He started saying "hr wont let you, hr wont let you". Like a million times and started spiraling about not being therr a full year blah blah blah

Anyway after that fiasco I just told him i will not pursue it as this POS is in charge of my review and im new.

Anyway a year in and theres another position open...as the year also comes up I keep asking this POS for feedback and he wont give me any. My review comes up and all the feedback is spit at me still somehow remaining vague.

So i went and i called hr to talk about their policy. Guess what apparently people apply all the time. Apparently your manager can allow you to move no problem.

There is another clause in the application that asks if head of department allows it. So that was my nect step. I went over my managers head and to the senior manager were i asked the question. He was shocked that my manager said that. Also he was supportive and excited for me to apply and interview to get general experience in the interview process.

it was a completely different conversation and he also told me he would speak to my mamager on my behalf.

So what do we think this guy will do?

Do i set up a meeting with him to ask the same question to apply?

Side note: in our check ins he continues to bring up "this isnwhy i didnt want you to apply else where" almost trying to shame and guilt me. This guy is ridiculous​

Hello

6 months into my new job i got a oppurtunity to work for another team. When I brought this up to my manager he freaked out and said "you havent been here for a year" "hr wont let you" for a multiple times.

Anyway its been over a year and the position is still open. How do I effectively go about asking about this position. This being said the manager that is in charge of tho other position is willing to vouch for cuz itd be a perfect fit.

How do i do this strategically?

Also during my one on ones he will say "this is why i didnt want you going there" and he makes me feel guilty which also isn't appropriate but then again I mean i dont think highly of this guy

Im looking for any advice in regards to successful frozen embryo transfer. Was there anything anyone did specifically and had a successful embryo transfer

Mine is in three weeks and its creeping in.

I have been struggling with infertility for 4.5 years now.

I have had 3 iuis

2 miscarriages

1 failed FET

A total of 4 egg retreivals (no more for me as I banked about 11 pgta tested embryos)

And as I am getting ready for my second FET in July and I have been trying to lose weight

I go to the gym and strength train about 4 times a week.

I walk a minimum of 7k steps aday

I dont eat healthy every single meal every day but for the last year I have significantly changed my diet and I have an overall healthier eating schedule than most people

(By not healthy I mean I get pizza once a week or ill have a lunch with co workers possibly once a week aswell)

I should be around 140 but unfortunately I weight 176

My workouts have improved in terms of higher weights/ longer cardio sessions (i can do 20 min on the stair master now yay me! )

But my weight actually keeps going up

I understand I dont eat salads every meal but I dont think hat should be the reason my weight keeps climbing.

Has anyone one else experienced this? I hate my clothes fitting me poorly and dealing with so much heart ache for four years I just feel like this is another thing that's not going well

Im having my emrbyo transfer early July

I just had a saline ultrasound done and they came back and said I didnt have any polyps or tissue

The lasttwo years I had polyps and tissue and had to undergo a hysteroscopy

Is this potentially a good sign?

So

My embryo transfer is coming up and i have so many emotions.

This journey started almost 5 years ago with my first miscarriage.

After additional testing and 3 failed iuis and a failed embryo tranfer with no pgta tested embryos I decided to move forward with multiple transfer with pgta testing so I can "bank" a few and not go.back and forth between tranfer and retrieval if the transfers continued to be unsuccessful.

After 3 additional retrievals and 11 total PGTA tested euploids. Im here with a date for transfer.

Im excited but so nervous as my heart is continuously crushed from the years of failure.

Just wanted to let yall know of your innthe thick of your journey or have had failure. I get it im here right with you. Giving you all the hugs.

Wishing everyone the best​