u/FloorOk6407

ive seen the "EM lowest lifespan" stuff

but I heard that was bad research done and I was wondering, I know that EM has bad schedules and high stress. Could this impact your life long term?

im thinking about EM because I have ADHD and it sounds thrilling compared to other specialties

i am 16, and im a junior right now. i have adhd and depression and I dont want to get too deeply into that but Ive struggled alot these past 3 years in high school. but i am severely depression and anxious alot of the time.

my precalc grade this marking period is low and if I work my ass off I can get it to a grade where I need a 60% on the final to pass the class.

But before I got put on meds and got diagnosed I took a test that I got a 20% on. Thats holding my final marking period grade for junior year math down really low. I need to get like a 73 on this final test and quiz and hopefully pass the final.

i dont like the odds and i dont know if I would even get a 50 on it. I know I messed up but I genuinley have a reason why I struggled in class.

would you teachers let me a retake? Normally retakes don't happen, obviously in normal circumstances. I know my mental problems arent excuses but yeah. Let me know what you think, I would appreciate any answer.

If you do think its possible what do you think I should clearly mention in the email I would send to my teacher? I can send her medical papers in the email too.

could it be due to new questions that are added or is the sat the same and this is just some myth. im confused and kinda worried.

if there are new questions that are added to the sat, have sites like oneprep already gotten updated?

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### **Grade 09 | Year 2023-24**
* **GPA:** 91.1250
* **Credits Earned:** 40.000

(junior year is still going on and probably gonna be a 86-87 weighted which is lower than freshmen year but ye).

overall comes out to be like 3.1 UW, 3.4 W. which is low.

3 aps, 8 honors in 3 years. il take 2 more aps next year.

1400 SAT

3 LORs - spanish, guidance counsler, anatomy teacher

ECS:

i have a yt channel about mental health. i post gamified shorts with messages about mental health n stuff. it could get to 1-2k subs by application time. im planning to create a discord server and maybe get some people in it from my channel and maybe I can use that for college apps and say I created a space for people who struggle with mental health. someone i told this to on reddit, said it could be worth botting to make a fake population but idk about that.

i have another yt about game animations and story telling. it does have 18+ jokes so idk if I should report it or not? its gonna have like 2-3k subs by application time.

im interning at my dads company this summer. he works in a pharmaceutical company. i might be able to shadow a scientist maybe.

i played a sport for all 4 years of high school. varsity and club. i played it for 6 years but i dont think colleges care about the 2 before right? I played at nationals for this too but thats pretty common.

150 hours of volunteering.

my mental health essay is gonna be about struggling and very specifically and emphasizing making it out of the rough time. and helping others with it through content and discord n stuff.

these are my ECS. tell me what you think. im pretty sure they are above average? idk tho.

I only really care about Rutgers NB either SAS or SEBS

or pitt

il ed to case western

and il see other colleges im interested in, i alr have my safeties set

theoretically if I got into a relationship with my LO. I do plan to ask her out and this all started because I suspected she might like me.

im 16 and im struggling with this shit. constant war with my mind and my self esteem.

also im curious. if you are married? why are you even limerent. is it because it arised earlier from your life and it just transfered over and over?

or low self esteem and shit even during marriage n stuff?

Im a male junior in high school. very introverted and i take time to open up to people.

I really like this girl and I want to ask her out, but its the question of when. Im definitely not ready right now but il ask her out on social media 100% at least after high school ends. The girl I like idk if she has a dedicated friend group or anything like that but she hangs out sometimes with the "popular" people but shes not a super common member with them. But shes highly liked by people I think?

Firstly, I want to talk about my low self esteem and respect. I really hate myself right now and im very depressed which is why im not asking her out until I fix my life.

Idk why but i just fkn suck at being social and stuff. I used to have a friend group back in 8th grade, and it slowly faded away in 9th grade because I didnt have any of those people in classes or whatever and all of those guys found their own friend groups where they are. im the only one whos just alone. (it was a friend group of 4 people including me)

Because of this, in 10th grade I had no friends and had to make some. In my classes I did make some friends kinda, it was really only a few specific classes where I somehow idk how made some good friends. prolly like 4 friends from that year that im friends with.

Now im in junior year and things just feel really problematic and sad. I know I called this post to having no friends. but my ick with that statement is that I have friends but no matter how close I get to these people il never be in a friend group with them because I wouldnt know the other people in it.

Ive never felt so lonely before and a huge rush of FOMO. People are going to junior prom, and the seniors are talking about their memories in high school with their friends and senior picnics and trips and its all just drilling me. This is what caused my depression and im working on it ig?

Its too late really to join some fg if im being honest. and I get this really lonely feeling sometimes, the people in my neighborhood were my friends but i distanced myself from them. They are toxic people and I dont want to be bitter and I hate the person I am when im around them, because im not a good person around them and every single of them secretly just hopes on each others downfalls and its been like this for years so im done with those guys.

This girl might like me, and we exchanged lots of eye contact and ive been around this person for a long time in high school and middle school, and she lives in my neighborhood. My life is just kinda fucked right now and I dont plan to ask her out because shes got it figured out and I dont yet, and I dont know when I will.

im just gonna really try in college to make some friends early and really fkn invest and try to get as close as I can with them. I think thats how I lost my friend group in freshmen year, I just thought they would stick around forever (we had no contact for weeks sometimes and I only shared 1 class with one of them).

I heard having no friends is a red flag, so I was curious if my situation counts but yea.

context: this shit has taken over my life. i dont want to get into depth but its about a girl and the whole fantasizing shit and not being able to see flaws in her. I legit think shes perfect and that theres no way im worthy of her right now.

i followed her on instagram like 4 months ago and she followed me back, this was before she was my LO and at that time I thought it was cool she followed me back. and the reason i even followed her is because a close friend of mine was following her, and i kinda had a crush on her nothing really much, but i wanted to see if she would follow me back. my friend is older than me and now is heading away for college so i know theres no chance hes gonna get with her.

after I got limerence, i was day dreaming and anxious and depressed but i didnt know what it was until a week ago. when i didnt know what it was I thought it was pure love. But I really researched the shit out of this thing, and looked deep inside myself for the root causes and shit and things ive been perceiving about her compared to other woman.

i just feel fucking mental. i hate this feeling. i feel like a mental ill loser. especially after today.

I checked her insta. a week ago, this friend was not following her. THIS TIME, this friend is the same age as me. he HAS talked to her before. I HAVENT. imo hes better than me. this just felt like a fucking stab in the fucking heart, i felt a huge anxiety attack and this just ticked me off.

I cant fucking live like this. Its fucking my life up. Im procrastinating my work, and its a very important time in my life right now. im 16 and final exams for junior year are coming up, im a horrible mess.

I know I need some professional help but im too much of a fucking pussy to ask my parents. this limerence shit gave me depression due to low self esteem and hopelessness for myself, and i missed 3 ddays of school for no reason in a row because of it.

my mom came to me on the morning of the 3rd day. at 6 am, she was yelling at me in the morning for not going to school again. and then at 10 she came into my room and cried asking me whats wrong and why i havent been spending time with my family for the past month or 2.

she left the room and i just cried. i feel so fucking depressed. im overthinking shit all the fucking time.

what the fuck do i do. tell me exactly what I NEEED to do. i just want this nightmare to be over. every second of being alive just hurts.

my mind says shes perfect and wayyy out of my league, and i really "love" her. I have no evidence or proof thats she not perfect but ik no one is truly perfect but yet i still think she s perfect.

whats really fucking weird is that, theres some pics on her instagram and some of them she looks really good. but like in 2 or 3 she looks bad but yet im attracted to those pictures for some reason. this wouldnt be the case for literally any one else.

im thinking about if its worth just keeping this limerence in. its motivating and its making me a better person at the cost of losing my mind sometimes and stress but if im aware of it. Can I just use it as motivation?

this hasn’t happened yet but I’m not sure about what some one would do in this case.

say in high school theres a girl that you havent talked her before. but you know she might like u and u like her after some interactions that happened. and youve been around or near this person for years.

one day you decide to hit her up with some casual like, “hey wanna grab lunch sometime?” she says yes or something.

and when you pick her up, what would you say if one of the first questions she asks is “do you like me or something”

and also, if i were to ask someone out to lunch like this, would it count as a date? even if im not asking for a date directly? ig this would mean that all the dating etiquette applies, like pay for her and stuff.

context: ive never talked to this girl before but she looks at me alot and i look at her alot. last month, i could almost certainly say she definitely liked me. we put effort into looking at each other at high school daily.

i kinda avoid eye contact n stuff now, and she also stopped looking at me so much but she prolly does all the time when im not looking. i have classes with her and she sits behind in every single one.

she lives in my neighborhood and wev seen each other and heard things about each other for years now.

im not a total stranger.

i dont really get a chance to speak with her or anything. shes got alot of friends, shes always with at least one person. not like i have the balls to go up to her randomly in the school day anyways.

shes kinda out of my league too, lookswise, smarts, friends, and idk reputation ig?

i really like her. i want to ask her out on a date next year, which is gonna be the last time il ever see her. before im off to college and the chances of seeing her around are like twice a year.

idk what to do. i have 1 of her socials, we follow each other. should i just ask, “hey would you be down to get lunch”

idk how or what to text her if its even a right move to send it in my situation. wev never spoken to each other :/

if texting is the right move, pls tell me EXACTLY what i would have to say.

if its not, im ngl. i think i need to somehow move on from her. she torments my mind alot.

i wish i was gay or something.