Do your in-laws know? Do they ask about your weird behaviors? Do they worry? Mine are getting concerned about my weight loss but don't know my ED history. Right now they just think I'm taking postpartum weight loss too far but they definitely notice my food habits. It's hard too because food is very culturally important. How do you all navigate this?
Every time there's another recall, which is often these days, I see all these comments like "well I guess I just won't eat anything anymore".
I know they are just sarcasm, but the recalls feel like the perfect excuse to narrow down my food list more and more and avoiding food is valid. That plus the celebrity obsession with thinness at the moment is a lot. Not a great time to have an ED.
I hate when people refer to their kids as "littles" and "bigs". IMO it sounds dumb. I've seen Insta posts saying "my bigs are acting up at school" and "my littles need me so much". Just say your kids or your children.
Maybe I'm just overthinking it. I've brought this up with my dr and they don't seem concerned. My resting heart rate averages between 45-49. I know athletes have lower heart rates but I do not think I'm fit enough to be in this category. I had a medical crisis last November where my heart rate plummeted and it never seemed to fully go back to normal. I've also had a long history of an eating disorder on and off. Should I be concerned or does this seem fine?
I was at the airport with my baby and I needed to change him. They were cleaning one family bathroom, so I checked the women's bathroom and there was no changing table. Walked to another family bathroom and it was occupied. I waited a long as time and finally the door opened. Some obnoxious hipster looking couple walked out. We walked in and it was hazy and definitely smelled like they had been vaping. The family restroom is for FAMILIES and changing babies!!!! Vaping in the family restroom when there are mothers with babies waiting makes you such a shitty rude person.
I'm sad tonight. A lot is going on, a lot feels out of control. No matter what happens in life, my ED is the one constant that makes me feel safe. I don't feel good about this, but it is what it is. I feel invisible so I want to be invisible again.
That's it. That's the post. She's the absolute worst person I've ever met and I truly hate her. Just venting.