u/Four_Bee_345

TW: I talk about loss, specifically the loss of a parent. Please scroll away right now if it's something you find uncomfortable or difficult.

The post title is an uncomfortable question I've had in a corner of my brain for the past 3 years now.

I can't imagine a life without my father. He and i have a great relationship. We are two peas in a pod. We are almost the same people. He is my person.

Dad came close to death about a year ago and at the time,i realised that he is all I've truly got. And no one can ever be my person but him.

The man loves me with every fiber of his being. And I'm not easy to love. I'm an extremely difficult, cantankerous, crazy woman.

But he loves me. Completely unconditional. He never wants anything from me. He just wants me to be happy and have a good life.

I'm not sure if life would even be worth living after he's gone but that's something I'll have to think about later because hopefully he's still got a few good years left in him.

Do I even want a life without him in it?? Idk. And I'm not sure. But he makes my world. I hope he knows that.

The one good thing I'm proud of in this life is I'm a daughter to a wonderful man. And I've experienced true love in the form of paternal love. And my life is richer for that

A while ago,I read something on another subreddit that got me thinking about this issue.

The incident that I read about was a tragedy and it could have been averted if the guy didn't go out of his way to help someone. He tried to help someone ,but he landed up in trouble himself unfortunately. The whole thing blew up in his face and he paid for it with his life. It's just horrific for everyone involved.

This got me thinking about my own experiences too, going out of my way to help others has only got me unnecessary pain and disrespect in return.

I find most people very performative, deep and calculating.

This is a selfish world and no one is going to thank you or acknowledge you or even respect you for your efforts or time or money if you are no longer of any use to them. I've seen this happen to so many people including my parents.

People use and throw other people all the time depending on what suits them,in that moment.

People use others for their money,time, effort or even for their physical urges.

You shouldn't be a selfless person in a selfish world. If you do,you'll end up getting hurt.

If you keep giving and giving,you will end up empty and no one is going to lift you back up onto your feet.

Boundaries are important. Put yourself first, always.

RIP to the person i read about.

I've learnt classical carnatic music intensively for many years as a child and young adult but I gave up because I got busy with board exams, coaching classes and then a very demanding UG degree.

I was a fairly advanced pupil of an established performer and was poised to become a professional singer myself before I pivoted.

I miss singing now. I need pointers about how I can get back to it,but this time,I want to continue my progress in carnatic music only for myself,as a hobby. I have no plans of trying to perform on stage like I was being trained for earlier. This time,I'm going to be singing for myself.

If anyone has been in my situation earlier,how did you get back to singing?

Is there any online resource for singing along,for tambura shruti,and I've misplaced all my music books too,with the swaras and sahityam. Are there soft copies of them?

Thank you so much. Have a nice day 😊

Hello,I'm looking to buy vegan butter and am looking for recommendations. Please do let me know if you know brands which sell vegan butter. TIA and have a good evening 😊

Edit : The post title should read as vegan butter * recommendations. Apologies for the spelling error