23, no job, no direction, honestly feeling left behind in life
Lately life’s been feeling really heavy. It’s been around 1 year since I graduated and I still haven’t been able to get a job. Watching most of my batchmates move ahead in life while I’m still stuck in the same place mentally messes with me a lot.
I did my B.E. in Civil Engineering, but after graduating I completely lost interest in it. Since then I’ve been trying to look into other paths, startups, entry-level roles, different fields, anything where I can start fresh. But without proper guidance or a network, everything just feels confusing. Some days I feel motivated to change my life, and other days I just feel mentally drained and lost.
The loneliness makes it worse. I don’t really have close friends or people to talk to. Seeing others hanging out, traveling, enjoying their twenties, having relationships and strong friend circles genuinely makes me feel left behind in life. Sometimes I wonder where exactly things went wrong for me.
At home too there’s pressure. My parents are worried about my future and I can feel it every day. My younger sister wants to pursue medicine, and as an elder brother I feel like I should already be capable enough to support her and help my parents financially. Instead I’m still dependent on them and that feeling honestly eats me up inside.
I had simple dreams too. Earning well, buying a bike, traveling, meeting new people, enjoying life properly instead of sitting at home overthinking every day. But right now everything feels so far away.
Even content creation used to be one of my dreams. I used to watch creators/influencers getting noticed everywhere they go and somewhere deep down I also wanted that kind of life… like people recognizing you for something you created or built on your own.
Some people even suggested that I should try becoming an English instructor in Japan, but I genuinely have no idea whether that path suits me or how people even get started with something like that.
Right now I just feel emotionally tired, lonely and directionless. If anyone has gone through a phase like this and somehow got their life back on track, I’d honestly like to hear it.
