I dont belive in the norm of men should cry. In this patriarchal society men have been always taught that crying is a sign of weakness and thats why men cannot cry.
But honestly when i am having emotional turmoil , i find self crying.
And its the greatest feeling of letting go.
All the weight gets lifted. And ready to take on a new day
Its quite heartbreaking. My father is 81, and maa is 75. Even though they look healthier than others at their age. But in last 5 years things have suddely changed
They get very tired very fast. They are independent with one domestic help
But maa cooks and does the odd cleaning my father too is active in a similar manner.
My parents however are not able to travel beyond 2 hours by road.
They used to never sleep in the afternoon but now they lie down after food.
I ask them to exercise. To increase their muscle strength. But beyond that i dont know what else to do
I flirt quite a bit, some times get a cold shoulder but lot of times i get to have nice chat. I love the importance
hi i have been a alcohils for more than 15 years. 5 years i went to a rehab. it solved thing for about a year. i was off alcohol. but then i relapsed. though i could control it after 2 months.
after seeing my old parents and my suffering a lot. i couldn't hold a job for long. so my wife has been the family pillar. she has been very very nice to me.
looking at them, i managed to be clean. but agin i relaped last year for a few days. agin got claen.
why does it feel that i dream about nostaligia of the good mempries when i dgrank rather than the bad i have done. got drunk had accident destroyed ny car.
have been an embarrassment to my family and my self.
but the nostalgia always gets me.
especially the memory of enjoying lovely music like pink floyd.
how could i get out of this vicious cycle.
i am on meds. even on a anti alcohol drug, on which i cannot drink, causes bad reactin.
so i cheat not taking for a few days. and then drink. all because of that nostalgia.