u/Gachadncer

I feel so embarrassed. I was doing so fucking well like 2 months ago, I was pulling my hair a lot less, but more recently, I’ve been pulling a LOT of my hair. I can feel the bald spots and I’ll only notice the amount of hair I pulled once it’s too late. I don’t know what to do…

so, I use my legs a lot, it’s most comfy. but I have a bit of scar tissue. I HATE using my stomach since it’s rlly uncomfortable. and idk where else to put. I usually use my outer thighs. because it’s most comfy there.

i don’t use my arm bc my Dexcom sits there, I will use my arm every once in a while.

any places you recommend

so, I’m making brownies, and I accidentally added too much water.. now the mix is watery. what do I do?

edit: i added 3 tablespoons of flour. Worked well! Tastes amazing

i wanna end it all. I’m losing all motivation to do my hobbies, I LOVED ballet. I now barely go to summer classes. I loved to draw. my sketchbook sits, collecting dust. I loved making edits. losing my motivation to live. I used to cut my hips and thighs. I’m thinking of restarting.. i fucking hate how I’m seen. I act happy and calm. but I’m slowly drowning in my own thoughts. my mom doesnt support me, she tells me “you keep changing your name,*deadname*, this is what people do to be sent to a physc ward.” and I just wanna end it. I fucking hate how I look. I can’t speak to any of my friends about this because I’m scared they’ll tell their parents and tell mine. Therapy won’t help. Never fucking did. maybe if I die. I won’t be a burden anymore. Everyday is just a fucking cycle. wake up, take meds, lay in bed/volunteer job for 4 hours, go home, lay in bed… I’m just so mentally and emotionally exhausted and I cant do this. I wanna die

so.. what’s the point of ”friends” saying “I’ll support you no matter what” and then the second you come out as queer/trans/alt/alterhuman etc etc.. they immediately will be shitty and spread rumors about you ??

I’m (14 NB) and not out to my family. I’m scared they won’t support me. I also go by a different name and the last time I went by a different name, my mom yelled at me. and I use a more masc name for a preferred name.. what do I do

upd: I came out as lesbian a couple years ago. They support me, but my mom and dad were raised in VERY Christian families